The Confessions Thread

[$harkToootth]

That was a really cool post. Thanks for sharing! I relate to a T. Grandfather funeral -> Bagpipes etc.
Your post made my eyes juicy. This is abstract feeling territory.

[dubkitty]

i'm having a *really* hard time with not smoking pot. i'm really trying to stick to it because i promised Becca, but it's tough. i was so habituated that i miss it all the time. the other day i was cleaning my bedroom and came across a couple of my old stash tins, and thus had a couple of hits before i met Becca for breakfast. it was AWFUL...i felt like there was an uncomfortable wall between us. out connection is the most important thing in the world to me, so i have to not fuck it up. all i can do is wait for it to let up. at least i'm not having the horrible nightmares any more, which i guess makes it Phase 3.

[Achtane]

That is tough, but it sounds like you're doing a pretty good job overall. Just keep at it!

[$harkToootth]

That is tough, but it sounds like you're doing a pretty good job overall. Just keep at it!

[Blackened Soul]

I'm becoming addicted to lime Popsicles

[dubkitty]

still working at it. the daily cravings thing has sorted itself out to an extent, but the temptation is still there. when i consider going north for shows like the Damo Suzuki gig i'm attending in Philly my brain immediately goes "and you could buy a quarter in DC on the way!" it's really fucking irritating. i just have to keep talking myself out of it. funny that one of the standard lines for weed advocates--myself formerly included--is that "it's not addictive." bull. fucking. shit.

[Thylacine Dream]

still working at it. the daily cravings thing has sorted itself out to an extent, but the temptation is still there. when i consider going north for shows like the Damo Suzuki gig i'm attending in Philly my brain immediately goes "and you could buy a quarter in DC on the way!" it's really fucking irritating. i just have to keep talking myself out of it. funny that one of the standard lines for weed advocates--myself formerly included--is that "it's not addictive." bull. fucking. shit.

I had to quit for keeps recently too. I'd always quit for 1, 2, 3 months and then come back to it, but I gotta face up to the fact that it's bad for my mental health and makes it harder for me to deal with depression, anxiety, and OCD.

Meditation can help a lot, I do Transcendental myself. I just try to keep note of when I see or feel something nice that I would've missed or fogged up when stoned, but it's not easy. Stay strong

[dubkitty]

still working at it. i keep reminding myself of how little i liked e.g. driving up to DC after work to cop and having to wade through the rush hour traffic to get home at like 9PM. it still bugs me a lot, though.

[$harkToootth]

Every time I feel a heavy hitter coming (I'm talking about farts greater than or equal to a 5 second duration and a certain UMphF factor), I have to grab my balls and tiny penis.

It's kind of a like a coping mechanism and insurance policy (to make sure no pee drops, pre-cum, or even maybe blood [probably not good?] come out).

I don't use the Cornell measurements of farts to gage if mine are "heavy hitters'. I use my Native United States Irish (like ancestors are from Ireland but I'm native to the United States) intuition.

https://people.ece.cornell.edu/land/cou ... /index.htm

[$harkToootth]

I have no idea what's going on but the past 5 days of poos have been REALLY HARD and too big for my butthole. Every bathroom trip is just NOT GREAT. I need a nap afterwards. This is once per day going on 5 days now.

[Achtane]

I daydream about getting laid off and fucking around at home making more money through unemployment than I am while working.
Lay me off, boss.

A man can dream...

[Thylacine Dream]

I have no idea what's going on but the past 5 days of poos have been REALLY HARD and too big for my butthole. Every bathroom trip is just NOT GREAT. I need a nap afterwards. This is once per day going on 5 days now.

I can relate. Apples, nuts, and Pure for Men have helped me ~

[01010111]

I haven’t had a haircut in five months.

I can’t even blame COVID19

I’m just lazy

[chromandre]

I use an ehx hum debugger and like it

[coldbrightsunlight]

I haven’t had a haircut in five months.

I can’t even blame COVID19

I’m just lazy

I haven't had one in over a year. I was just starting to think about doing it before lockdown started.