I hate the Spurs an their fans and hope the Heat mops the floor with them in the finals.
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I'm considering trying out for a local metal band. I don't listen to much metal (at least not the br00tal stuff they're going for) and I don't see myself playing in a metal band, but dammit, I want to play some shows! They have a small following here and their attitude is good. I just...metal...
So I have a personal struggle with eating. I don't know why but I kind of hate eating food. I dread having to eat food multiple times a day. A good amount of the time nothing sounds pleasurable to eat and the thought of needing to eat makes my stomach turn. If I want to actually enjoy eating a meal I have to smoke marijuana first. Even with that a lot food that tastes good to me makes my stomach hurt. Because of this the foods I eat the most are foods that are easy to eat that are neutral in taste. I like eating fruits and veggies but they are not very filling at all. If I had the option to never have to eat again I would choose it. Anyone else feel like this? Part of me feels like there's something wrong with me, but I also feel like I don't have any real problems and I just need to expand my diet more or something.
Apparently there are some interesting problems with eating associated with anxiety disorders (specifically excess cortisol production and prolonged stress response) that I have unfortunately succumb to. I have the opposite problem, I also hate food but I have difficulty not eating like an idiot. I'm not enormous mostly because I have had some success losing weight (just never keeping it off) and I'm pretty young but god damn, I'll fucking kill myself before I get grotesquely fat. Don't wanna. I'm a failure at pretty much everything else in my life, partly because of my illness, I just don't need to add that to the list.