The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread...

[theavondon]

I feel like killing myself.

The world is full of too much stress, I don't feel like I belong here at all. It would be so much easier just to jump from my office window and be done with it. I don't want to do this anymore, I don't want to live this life anymore.

But like...Don't do that. It's really just never a solid plan.

[gunslinger_burrito]

I feel like killing myself.

The world is full of too much stress, I don't feel like I belong here at all. It would be so much easier just to jump from my office window and be done with it. I don't want to do this anymore, I don't want to live this life anymore.

But like...Don't do that. It's really just never a solid plan.

Seriously though. Not a solid plan. Plus look at the cool album you made in a month for RPM. You got some skills. Go use 'em.

Welp, the latest online girly I've been seeing broke up with me today. Really, if we had kept seeing each other I probably would have done the same before too long. She was really odd in a lot of ways, some bad, some good. We seemed to have trouble communicating in basic ways, and we misinterpreted a lot of what we'd say to each other. It was doomed because of that really. Also, to paraphrase Peep Show, when it came to the physical part of things I was Lego and she was Megabloks.

It was fun being with someone for a little while, but I'm done with internet dating for the foreseeable future. I've met way too many weird, crazy, and highly judgmental women online. I'll just summon the courage to talk to people in the real world and leave the window shopping culture of online dating to the shut-ins and the vain.

These sorts of things always fill me with crazy amounts of self doubt and self loathing. I feel like in a relationship both people are evaluating the other person to a very high degree. So, when it's me who gets dumped, I always wonder what deficiencies in me led to the breakup. Unfortunately I can't see past my emotions in the matter very easily and because relationships feel like they're full of a thousand vagaries and subtleties, I never seem to be able to figure out what I did wrong.

On a brighter note, I'm afraid of dying again. Which I feel is better than being full of lust for my own death. I don't know, though.... both are pretty shitty.

While it's certainly a good thing to learn to go talk to strangers, don't ever think that if someone broke up with you that something has to be wrong with you. For the most part, if they didn't like something about you, it probably wasn't a relationship worth keeping anyhow. If you can somehow see the situation objectively, and there was something dumb you were doing, well then fix it. I know I've been guilty of being the clingy jealous type, and the cure is/was to give more of a shit about myself then them. If they want to fuck around behind my back (or dump me because of personality differences) then so what? I can go and hopefully find someone better. Two cents for you. Also, YES ONLINE GIRLS ARE REALLY OBNOXIOUS. Online people can be as unrealistically picky as possible. Just make sure you're not. If they're geographically close enough to you, ask for in-person dates as soon as they seem comfortable with it. Girls online seem to have a good "creep radar" so if they agree to see you more the better.

Tangent.

I came here because it's really annoying that my workplace has multiple girls I can't date for multiple reasons. W/E

[Iommic Pope]

Burrito, don't fuck people you work with.
Fuck friends of their friends.

[gunslinger_burrito]

Burrito, don't fuck people you work with.
Fuck friends of their friends.

The fact that I work with them is one of the reasons I won't/can't.

[ShaunNecro]

I feel like killing myself.

The world is full of too much stress, I don't feel like I belong here at all. It would be so much easier just to jump from my office window and be done with it. I don't want to do this anymore, I don't want to live this life anymore.

Dude,I totally understand where you are coming from, but before you think anymore about doing that, talk to me. I'm here for you, just like all of us. If you need to, take a vacation and we'll jam together. Just stay here with us a little longer, and we'll help you through what you're dealing with. Fuzzbreaux for life.

[tuffteef]

Burrito, don't fuck people you work with.
Fuck friends of their friends.

this is why you tinder
set it to 10km radius
root outside the circle

[BitchPudding]

Thanks all....Still here if your all worried.

Not gonna do anything dumb, just had a really off day. Depression is a bitch.

[Chankgeez]

Not gonna do anything dumb...

Better not.

[dubkitty]

having a shitty time of it. had a brain meltdown last night, like a mini breakdown. possibly brought on by finding out Friday morning that i'm doing 3 weeks of training starting tomorrow. It was really scary, and i'm really worried about being able to get up and go tomorrow. i'm feeling REALLY wobbly.

[Gone Fission]

having a shitty time of it. had a brain meltdown last night, like a mini breakdown. possibly brought on by finding out Friday morning that i'm doing 3 weeks of training starting tomorrow. It was really scary, and i'm really worried about being able to get up and go tomorrow. i'm feeling REALLY wobbly.

Dunno if this helps, but here goes: the usual problem is that employers don't train their people enough because they don't care about investing in and developing their people. Your work thinks you're worth investing in. They see potential and a future in you. I think they're right.

With what you've dealt with, anything is going to feel wobbly. Just know that people believe in you and that you're more steady than you feel. It's gonna be okay.

Weekends seem to go poorly for you lately. Maybe try to make some low key plans so you have other things on your mind than worrying? I know you are feeling like you can't handle things right now, but a break from bouncing around in your own head can be a very, very good thing.

[psychedelicrelic]

Burrito, don't fuck people you work with.
Fuck friends of their friends.

The fact that I work with them is one of the reasons I won't/can't.

I dunno where you work but closing/opening smash sessions are the best. Fucking all over the work shit. Cum all over the carpet. Rub it in with your foot. Ive never had an issue with any girl ive worked with. Just do it. Youll like it.

[Bassist_Diver]

Didn't get into grad school this year. Time to find a lab job and save my coins to try again at the end of the year.

[chuckjaywalk]

It was difficult to bite my tongue in group today. One of my fellow patients was talking about how angry it makes her that her nephew dresses like a princess. She went on and on about how she thought it was wrong and that boys should dress like boys and girls should dress like girls. If I didn't have to come straight from work, I'd wear a dress next week.

[jfrey]

I got an email from my boss that some of my weeks are "light on hours" so I go look at the weeks he's talking about. Every day has 7:15 or more billable hours - aside from Wednesdays when we have a 1-2 hour long company meeting. A few days here and there have more than 10 hours.

9:00-5:00 = 8 hours - lunch = between 7 and 7.5 hours.

How exactly is this "light"?

Not to mention, he's bitching at me about this, meanwhile I'm the only employee that isn't away on a vacation right now.

[01010111]

Didn't get into grad school this year. Time to find a lab job and save my coins to try again at the end of the year.

That sucks man I'm sorry Getting into grad school right now is SUPER competitive. I remember looking at the average acceptance scores for universities for the five years prior to my application, and six years ago I would've had a shot at getting into a top-ten university in my field. As it is now I'm lucky I got into a school in the back end of the top fifty. Shit's crazy right now.

It seems like grad schools look at both how well you're likely to do in their program, and what kind of asset you'll be to the department. So, it might not hurt to study up and take the GRE again (that is, if the GRE's required for your graduate program). If you do better, you can submit those scores. If you do worse, you can submit your previous scores instead. Finding a lab job is a good move, though!