The Confessions Thread

[Haki]

a cute dude wants to see black swan w/ me

so confession: i am scared of being alone with people, one on one. i'm not sure why, but it makes me so anxious.

Just make sure to carry a sharp object so you can shank them when needed.

[chutneyfarmer]

ok, in the spirit of this thread, I am going to see The Saturdays in a few months.

Total record industry pop-machine stuff, but their tunes are amazing. Plus they look like this...

http://promo.capitalradio.co.uk/contests/2009/imasaturdayspc/images/saturdays_wallpaper_1600x1200.jpg

My favourite tracks are

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3UqWKSSq ... 7A&index=1[/youtube]

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eEnz3r2F-Bw[/youtube]


There I feel better after sharing my musical guilty pleasure with you guys

[Achtane]

I'm equally anxious around groups and ones. When I'm alone with someone and trying to come up with something to say, I always draw a blank, so sometimes it's just awkward. Then again I'm used to it, so it's not that awkward anymore. I believe that awkward is in the eye of the beholder.

I just need to be around someone who like to talk a lot, then I'm golden. I typically have something to add, but starting a conversation is near impossible for me sometimes.

This is generally true of me as well, but after a long period of constant anxiety...attack things, it's a little different. I am not totally self-confident -- it's more a 40/60 mix of confidence and apathy. I can more easily get in the mindframe of not giving a shit about all the little things that would make me panic before. I could never do this when people told me that I shouldn't care what other people think, but now it's much easier to get "there". Of course I still value the opinions and feelings of people that I care about, and it's not like I go around thinking "fuck you, you're an asshole" about "everyone else". But I no longer give a fuck if some random dude thinks my hair is ridiculous, or laughs if i mess something up, or whatever. These kinds of things used to bother me, I'd feel self-conscious.

I feel like I've wasted a lot of opportunities and time being a horrible recluse and I'm sick of it. I want to get out and do all the crap I daydream about.

[StudioShutIn]

All through school I was very shy/self-conscious and that sorta thing..still am to a certain extent, but speech class and the one theatre class I took really helped alot with my anxiety about speaking either to a group or to a less-than-familiar individual.

[tuffteef]

yeah its weird i can play on a stage of 2000 people no worries or fear at all
but as soon as its like 6 people in the room i get beyond nervous

[foomanfat]

Idk, it's not so much random people, for me, as it is people (read: girls) that I like or want to hang out with or get to know.
I'm really closed off at first, trying to feel people out and whatnot.

[Mudfuzz]

yeah its weird i can play on a stage of 2000 people no worries or fear at all
but as soon as its like 6 people in the room i get beyond nervous

Same here

[Companda]

yeah its weird i can play on a stage of 2000 people no worries or fear at all
but as soon as its like 6 people in the room i get beyond nervous

Although I've never played for quite that many people, I'm the same.

I also get very anxious on the phone.

[Here Lies The Fire]

yeah its weird i can play on a stage of 2000 people no worries or fear at all
but as soon as its like 6 people in the room i get beyond nervous

Same here

I can relate...but only like 60 or 70.
gotta start somewhere!
I though think it is because with so many it just blends into a mass of people
6 people you HAVE to look at the same person at least twice...and you notice more.
Getting paranoid and such.

Is it the opposite for any of you?
...because I think this is mainly how it is even though you wouldn't think it.

[snipelfritz]

yeah its weird i can play on a stage of 2000 people no worries or fear at all
but as soon as its like 6 people in the room i get beyond nervous

Although I've never played for quite that many people, I'm the same.

I also get very anxious on the phone.

I'm am super awkward on the phone unless I have some specific objective to achieve. I can't just chat. I used to work for my university calling alumni and asking for donations. That part was fine, but before that we had to "esablish a rapport" with the alumni and basically act like we care about them. Like, "So how ya doin'?" "You holding up well in this global financial meltdown, tiger?" "Oh I hear there's a baby crying on your end. Congratulations! What? You have to deal with that? Well let me just take a second to tell you about the rowing team and the ways that you can help out(aka give money)." Terrible, but I made like $10/hour, so it was worth it. One time I called a guy who is now a professional football player, but I'm not sports literate enough to realize that. It went like this:
"So who can I put down as your current employer?"
"The Pittsburgh Steelers."
"Oh, what do you do for them?"
"I'm a tight end."
Me: at myself. Then I recovered and got a $200 donation from him

In high school I was pretty introverted, then I got into theater and started being more sociable. Not because I was performing or on stage or anything like that. It was because I wasn't hanging around with asshole engineer-nerd types anymore.

[tuffteef]

yeah its weird i can play on a stage of 2000 people no worries or fear at all
but as soon as its like 6 people in the room i get beyond nervous

Same here

it was even worse when my mum showed up at a show
so awkward long story short i dont invite her anymore
i couldnt be a rock and roll dickhead and throw my guitar around and knock stuff over, felt like the beach boys

[Mudfuzz]

yeah its weird i can play on a stage of 2000 people no worries or fear at all
but as soon as its like 6 people in the room i get beyond nervous

Same here

it was even worse when my mum showed up at a show
so awkward long story short i dont invite her anymore

My mom is a musician I play in my parent's band all the time

[unownunown]

yeah its weird i can play on a stage of 2000 people no worries or fear at all
but as soon as its like 6 people in the room i get beyond nervous

Although I've never played for quite that many people, I'm the same.

I also get very anxious on the phone.

YES FUCK THE TELEPHONE!!!

i talk a lot/expect people i'm talking to to have a lot to say, so i hate 'comfortable silence.' it's never comfy, just awkward.

[snipelfritz]

Texting was the greatest invention since Funk.

[Here Lies The Fire]

ILF : we're socially awkward and like loud fuzz things.

...a reoccurring trend I see.

really WHY IS THIS!? D:'
(not going to lie I don't really fit in here or the Devi Forums but still I enjoy being here/there)