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Re: The Confessions Thread
Posted: Sun Jan 26, 2020 6:42 pm
by $harkToootth
That was a really cool post. Thanks for sharing! I relate to a T. Grandfather funeral -> Bagpipes etc.
Your post made my eyes juicy. This is abstract feeling territory.
Re: The Confessions Thread
Posted: Tue Jan 28, 2020 8:40 am
by dubkitty
i'm having a *really* hard time with not smoking pot. i'm really trying to stick to it because i promised Becca, but it's tough. i was so habituated that i miss it all the time. the other day i was cleaning my bedroom and came across a couple of my old stash tins, and thus had a couple of hits before i met Becca for breakfast. it was AWFUL...i felt like there was an uncomfortable wall between us. out connection is the most important thing in the world to me, so i have to not fuck it up. all i can do is wait for it to let up. at least i'm not having the horrible nightmares any more, which i guess makes it Phase 3.
Re: The Confessions Thread
Posted: Tue Jan 28, 2020 11:01 am
by Achtane
That is tough, but it sounds like you're doing a pretty good job overall. Just keep at it!
Re: The Confessions Thread
Posted: Tue Jan 28, 2020 11:02 am
by $harkToootth
Achtane wrote:That is tough, but it sounds like you're doing a pretty good job overall. Just keep at it!
Re: The Confessions Thread
Posted: Thu Feb 06, 2020 11:44 pm
by Blackened Soul
I'm becoming addicted to lime Popsicles
Re: The Confessions Thread
Posted: Wed Feb 12, 2020 9:44 am
by dubkitty
still working at it. the daily cravings thing has sorted itself out to an extent, but the temptation is still there. when i consider going north for shows like the Damo Suzuki gig i'm attending in Philly my brain immediately goes "and you could buy a quarter in DC on the way!" it's really fucking irritating. i just have to keep talking myself out of it. funny that one of the standard lines for weed advocates--myself formerly included--is that "it's not addictive." bull. fucking. shit.
Re: The Confessions Thread
Posted: Sun Feb 16, 2020 5:57 am
by Thylacine Dream
dubkitty wrote:still working at it. the daily cravings thing has sorted itself out to an extent, but the temptation is still there. when i consider going north for shows like the Damo Suzuki gig i'm attending in Philly my brain immediately goes "and you could buy a quarter in DC on the way!" it's really fucking irritating. i just have to keep talking myself out of it. funny that one of the standard lines for weed advocates--myself formerly included--is that "it's not addictive." bull. fucking. shit.
I had to quit for keeps recently too. I'd always quit for 1, 2, 3 months and then come back to it, but I gotta face up to the fact that it's bad for my mental health and makes it harder for me to deal with depression, anxiety, and OCD.
Meditation can help a lot, I do Transcendental myself. I just try to keep note of when I see or feel something nice that I would've missed or fogged up when stoned, but it's not easy. Stay strong
Re: The Confessions Thread
Posted: Mon Feb 17, 2020 7:53 am
by dubkitty
still working at it. i keep reminding myself of how little i liked e.g. driving up to DC after work to cop and having to wade through the rush hour traffic to get home at like 9PM. it still bugs me a lot, though.
Re: The Confessions Thread
Posted: Thu Apr 02, 2020 12:31 am
by $harkToootth
Every time I feel a heavy hitter coming (I'm talking about farts greater than or equal to a 5 second duration and a certain UMphF factor), I have to grab my balls and tiny penis.
It's kind of a like a coping mechanism and insurance policy (to make sure no pee drops, pre-cum, or even maybe blood [probably not good?] come out).
I don't use the Cornell measurements of farts to gage if mine are "heavy hitters'. I use my Native United States Irish (like ancestors are from Ireland but I'm native to the United States) intuition.
https://people.ece.cornell.edu/land/cou ... /index.htm
Re: The Confessions Thread
Posted: Sat Apr 04, 2020 8:43 pm
by $harkToootth
I have no idea what's going on but the past 5 days of poos have been REALLY HARD and too big for my butthole. Every bathroom trip is just NOT GREAT. I need a nap afterwards. This is once per day going on 5 days now.
Re: The Confessions Thread
Posted: Sat Apr 04, 2020 10:26 pm
by Achtane
I daydream about getting laid off and fucking around at home making more money through unemployment than I am while working.
Lay me off, boss.
A man can dream...
Re: The Confessions Thread
Posted: Tue Apr 14, 2020 7:57 am
by Thylacine Dream
$harkToootth wrote:I have no idea what's going on but the past 5 days of poos have been REALLY HARD and too big for my butthole. Every bathroom trip is just NOT GREAT. I need a nap afterwards. This is once per day going on 5 days now.
I can relate. Apples, nuts, and Pure for Men have helped me ~
Re: The Confessions Thread
Posted: Mon Apr 27, 2020 12:05 am
by 01010111
I haven’t had a haircut in five months.
I can’t even blame COVID19
I’m just lazy
Re: The Confessions Thread
Posted: Mon Apr 27, 2020 12:52 am
by chromandre
I use an ehx hum debugger and like it
Re: The Confessions Thread
Posted: Mon Apr 27, 2020 3:25 am
by coldbrightsunlight
01010111 wrote:I haven’t had a haircut in five months.
I can’t even blame COVID19
I’m just lazy
I haven't had one in over a year.
I was just starting to think about doing it before lockdown started.
