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kbithecrowing wrote:Last night I decided to play guitar before bed and ended up staying up pretty late. I started feeling weird while playing, sad or something. The last half hour or so was just me repeating two chords over and over again until my fingers hurt to much to keep on going. Then I passed out on my floor. I woke up at five after dreaming about her again. Just like the night before. I try to remember the good times we had together and not get so bummed that she's not around anymore but it rarely works out that way. Bleh.

I'm about to just break down crying after all the shit from the school today.

When I withdrew in 2010, I was eligible for students loans and financial aid through the school I was leaving. It was really important that I qualify still, because I just needed a break to figure out what I wanted to do. Today when I went to financial aid to get my loans set up, I found out that the fucking federal policy on financial aid status changed two years ago (I'm assuming after I withdrew) and now I'm not eligible at that school because of my attempted credits. Oh, and there's absolutely no way that I will ever qualify for them through that school.

So now, I'm not going to school there, I have to figure out what the fuck to do for next semester, my girlfriend is leaving in a week, I have no job, and I feel completely fucking useless.

Every single fucking time that I think I have shit figured out, it blows up on me. I'm so sick of everything being so fucked up.

I'd give you a hug if I could right now, man. That sounds frustrating beyond belief, but do your best to keep your head high and moving forward.

I feel you kitty man. Financial aid is bullshit. I just had all my classes for the fall dropped because the financial aid office didn't process my FAFSA right, so they're saying my award is half of what i should be, half of that they still haven't even sent me, and in the "processing" process, it somehow unregisted my payments for both semesters last year. And I can't pay off my bill for this semester until they send me that money, and until I pay off the bill I can't re-register for classes, and school starts in 10 days. AAAAnnnddd the state aid denied me because I have an out of state license from when I didn't live in New York 6 years ago. And the appeal for that takes 12 weeks. Hence trying to sell my good shit in the BST.

That sounds like they're trying to pull something on you. FAFSA gives like 6 years worth of aid, so as long as you're sill under that limit, you should be able to get it, regardless of the school. Have you tried calling FAFSA directly? Because if your ghetto public state school is anything like my ghetto public state school, the financial aid office people are goobers and will straight up lie to you about things.

My internet is being slow. It feels like my bandwidth is being used up by something.

kbithecrowing wrote:Last night I decided to play guitar before bed and ended up staying up pretty late. I started feeling weird while playing, sad or something. The last half hour or so was just me repeating two chords over and over again until my fingers hurt to much to keep on going. Then I passed out on my floor. I woke up at five after dreaming about her again. Just like the night before. I try to remember the good times we had together and not get so bummed that she's not around anymore but it rarely works out that way. Bleh.

Know that feel bro. Hang tough, it gets easier.

alexa. wrote:

spacelordmother wrote:Know that feel bro. Hang tough, it gets easier.

Thanks guys.

Starting to think I might need to sell a guitar or something if I'm going to make tuition this semester...

First I've got some pedals to go...
but then the BT Jazzy (w/swapped pups and bridge)

cringe...It might need to happen, but I'm getting really reattached to my Schecter and I almost feel like I could save up for a sweet tele or SG in the future, but whatevs. I'll save that as a last resort.

hmmm...After consulting a calendar, Actually saving $1000 in a month (five pay days) might be possible with the hours I'm getting and my two week pay hold. I just need to not drink/smoke all my money away. That is the key. Definitely think I'll ditch a couple pedals still.

EDIT: Did some more in depth analysis. Looks like my deficit will be around $160 which is certainly manageable. I'll sell a few pedals I'm not even using maybe pick up a few extra work hours.

I like how this whole rage thing turned into productive, responsible budgeting. That's something I never do, which is how I got into this predicament.

quitting smoking sucks

i'm afraid to go out for a beer... would i resist the need?


EDIT: FUCK JUST KILL ME NOW

DarkAxel wrote:quitting smoking sucks

i'm afraid to go out for a beer... would i resist the need?


EDIT: FUCK JUST KILL ME NOW

Totally. When I was quitting I didn't dare go out and drink for at least 3 weeks. :-X

Ugh, this company I interviewed at keeps pushing back the day when they're going to let me know if I got the job. They were supposed to let me know last week. Now they're saying they will let me know next week. I don't know what they're doing. They aren't interviewing any more people.

jfrey wrote:Ugh, this company I interviewed at keeps pushing back the day when they're going to let me know if I got the job. They were supposed to let me know last week. Now they're saying they will let me know next week. I don't know what they're doing. They aren't interviewing any more people.

yeah I hate it when companies do that shit. This one company strung me along for like 3 months earlier this year. I just said fuck it and starting going on more interviews, and ended up getting an offer somewhere else while they were dicking around.

bigchiefbc wrote:

jfrey wrote:Ugh, this company I interviewed at keeps pushing back the day when they're going to let me know if I got the job. They were supposed to let me know last week. Now they're saying they will let me know next week. I don't know what they're doing. They aren't interviewing any more people.

yeah I hate it when companies do that shit. This one company strung me along for like 3 months earlier this year. I just said fuck it and starting going on more interviews, and ended up getting an offer somewhere else while they were dicking around.

The internship I was supposed to have this summer interviewed me in March, told me I had the job in May but didn't tell me when they wanted me to start, and were unresponsive to emails throughout June, after which I gave up on them. They emailed me again two weeks ago asking if I still wanted to work for them, I said yes if you tell me when and where I'm working and how much I'll get paid, they said they'd get me the info, and I haven't heard from them again. Companies are weird sometimes.

Guh. Trying to register at Eerie using online online courses for the semester, so I don't miss this semester. I have no idea if i can qualify for aide, I have no idea what majors have the first semester online, and I have no idea what the hell I'm doing.

Hopefully the registrar's office responds to my email so I can at least get some of this shit figured out before I sign up for classes and can't afford them, or something dumb.

think my laptop is gonna crap out on me soon... noooooooo