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Camping was glorious....the river was too high to fish but fuck it, I had a great time.

where'd you go?

I believe that the only thing required for a human to have a good happy life is to contemplate the extents of our freedom in everyday life. Like, to really go into it honestly and to filter out all the thoughts we have about things, and to see them as what they really are. Thoughts. Observation (true observation) is real, thoughts can't be real (unless you manifest them but then they stop being thoughts) Our limits are where we place them (obviously we're human and alive so some limitations do apply, but every good game has a set of rules to play by), and only time lies between our dreams and reality. Time will pass anyway. So there is, honestly, no real reason anyone should ever feel down. Living life as if you're going to die in a half an hour, total acceptance of what life is and going with it.

I've booked my holiday to the UK in September. Ireland, Scotland, Wales and London.

Holidays are fucking expensive.

dubkitty wrote:where'd you go?

My family has about 2 acres along the Youghiogheny River in the Appalachian mountains of NW maryland (that's pronounced yä-kə-ˈgā-nē btw). and I spent the week there. It's some primeval arboreal rainforest shit up there them hills. about 30+ miles from the nearest highway, all dirt roads, hasn't been logged or lived on in about 100 years or so and it's beautiful. I've been told that it's on the roughest part of the river (for kayaks and white water folk) but I haven't the expertise to comment on that. It is pretty gnarly though.

sounds wonderful!

Was listening to a song I mixed on Bose Headphones on some actual studio monitors to see how much I fucked up.

To my surprise, I did pretty good. To the point that a friend didn't believe that the guitars were recorded with modeling software.

alexa. wrote:I believe that the only thing required for a human to have a good happy life is to contemplate the extents of our freedom in everyday life. Like, to really go into it honestly and to filter out all the thoughts we have about things, and to see them as what they really are. Thoughts. Observation (true observation) is real, thoughts can't be real (unless you manifest them but then they stop being thoughts) Our limits are where we place them (obviously we're human and alive so some limitations do apply, but every good game has a set of rules to play by), and only time lies between our dreams and reality. Time will pass anyway. So there is, honestly, no real reason anyone should ever feel down. Living life as if you're going to die in a half an hour, total acceptance of what life is and going with it.

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RR Bigman wrote:... It's some primeval arboreal rainforest shit up there them hills...

Not primeval.
Not arboreal.
Not rainforest.

alexa. wrote:I believe that the only thing required for a human to have a good happy life is to contemplate the extents of our freedom in everyday life. Like, to really go into it honestly and to filter out all the thoughts we have about things, and to see them as what they really are. Thoughts. Observation (true observation) is real, thoughts can't be real (unless you manifest them but then they stop being thoughts) Our limits are where we place them (obviously we're human and alive so some limitations do apply, but every good game has a set of rules to play by), and only time lies between our dreams and reality. Time will pass anyway. So there is, honestly, no real reason anyone should ever feel down. Living life as if you're going to die in a half an hour, total acceptance of what life is and going with it.

I feel like food and shelter are pretty big omissions.

Saw Boris tonight, never really listened to much of their stuff although I have been meaning to. Totally blown away, best show I have seen in forever.

the new medication i've started seems to really be helping to control my depression, and i'm sleeping better than i have in years. a lot of stuff is still fucked, but i seem to be a bit better able to deal with it.

dubkitty wrote:the new medication i've started seems to really be helping to control my depression, and i'm sleeping better than i have in years. a lot of stuff is still fucked, but i seem to be a bit better able to deal with it.

Good to hear man, my depression meds hate my guts. They refuse to stop fucking with me.

they added risperdal with my paroxetine. it's working well enough that i now regret having declined to add aripiprazole back when my psychiatrist suggested it a year or two ago. i'm terrified of the tardive dyskinesia thing, but a friend of mine has been on risperidine for years and assures me she's had no problems. before i was on Paxil the previous SSRIs i tried really didn't like me...they only worked halfway well and the side effects were horrible. but i could live with this.

I used to be on Lexapro (SSRI) before I switched to Pristiq (SNRI) and neither has really done it for me but switching between the two was such an ordeal that I'm willing to put up with it for now. I stopped seeing my psychiatrist when he tried to prescribe dexys for my non-existent adhd with the provision that I get drug screened regularly, I probably would have just taken them if it wasn't for that.