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Don't give up man. Make sure you follow up with those places you applied to.

i'm not giving up. but i'm looking at various flavors of what i may have to do. i have a friend with Crutchfield in Virginia to whom i sent writing samples. at this point, wherever i can find nesting space, i'll land there. i don't have to nest there for the rest of my life, just till something better opens up. fortunately, as things get tighter, i'm recovering from my psychological shit and becoming more functional, so i can cope with the process better. it's frightening, though, to be on the verge of out of resources.

On the subject of money and jobs, my girlfriend started her pre-req classes today, and also is quitting her job, and accepted a part time job with a non-profit. Her weekly pay will be less than what I make in a day. The original plan was for her to keep working part time at the law firm she's been employed with for the last 3 years - that pays her fantastically - right up until she goes to grad school full time.

In other words, I start my new part time job tonight. I'm honestly not sure I can put in enough hours per week to make up for losing a full additional person's income.

rather than trying to do that, you'd be better put to downsize. IMO. i beat the everloving shit out of myself so bad trying to keep the house going that after i lost my job it took me three months to feel like a normal human again.

i just e-mailed the guy with whom i had the phone interview week before last and asked him what's up.

dubkitty wrote:it took me three months to feel like a normal human again.

I already feel that sensation like leeching into my bones and I haven't even started yet, lol. I don't know how we would downsize though to be honest. I can't sell my car, because I need it for work, and we can't afford to move anywhere right now because of the policy in MA for renting - you have to pay 4 months of rent up front (first month, last month, security, and agent's fee). I applied to a ton of full time jobs though also. If I can get a better paying full time job than the place I'm working now, things will be a lot easier.

Edit: I shouldn't complain. The company I'm starting at tonight is actually really cool, and even though it will be a lot of extra hours at per week, things could be worse.

dubkitty wrote:i just e-mailed the guy with whom i had the phone interview week before last and asked him what's up.

Chankgeez wrote:

snipelfritz wrote:Sonny Sharrock

Prove it.

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xA8Jn-mMfk4[/youtube]

Fine I will!

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z5LgAJjSWmw[/youtube]
oh wait, wrong clip...


but the Spaceghost episode that what a tribute to Sharrock was totally what got me into him in the first place. And it got me saying Fred Cracklin for years despite not being able to remember what it was from.

well, the guy from the tech writer job said all the positions are filled. but i'm getting people e-mailing me with tech writer jobs since i posted my resume on a couple more sites. as well as tons of spam from people wanting me to sell insurance...yeah, THERE'S the perfect job for a clinical depressive. "you really ought to think about life insurance, because we're all gonna DIE, man, and at least you can leave something behind in this bleak, hopeless universe to balance out the bad memories and make your kids hate you less" LOL.

"car insurance won't keep entropy from punching you in the nuts, but it'll help pay the bills when it happens. and it WILL happen. you know that, don't you?"

i have been dreading my brother's hair all fucking day. my fingers/hands hurt so bad. i'm not even done yet.

Crushed my finger under a tv; Didn't break it, but I don't think I'm going to be playing guitar for the next few days.

snipelfritz wrote:[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z5LgAJjSWmw[/youtube]
oh wait, wrong clip...

Yeah, that's more Adrian Belew than Sharrock. Find that clip of you doing Sharrock.

So I finally got home from work after a 14 hour work day, it's pouring rain and I am soaked like you cannot believe, and my girlfriend immediately wants me to drive her to Harvard so she can check the results of some placement test she took so she knows whether she needs to call out of work tomorrow to come into campus - or something like that, it didn't really make sense to me - and now I'm sitting in my car for a half hour while she goes to check because there is nowhere for me to leave my car without risking a ticket. I just want to have a cup of tea and go to sleep.

woke up, i feel like shit, unhappy...

the stuff with my ex didn't work out, but at elast it's very good between us

i need to play more music... i have a project in my head, but no people to make it work with... i've been into psychedelic stuff a lot lately, a lot of psychedelic rock, post-metal, sludge and shit... i'd like to do some heavy but textural psychedelic music with loads of effects work

also... i was offered eventually playing in a more staright-up rock band... it might work out, but i'm afraid i'm not gonna handle two bands in the new semester. it might be fun, more chance to really rock hard at the shows, not having to worry about crazy shit to play...

the rehearsals with AAP are going slowly than i'd like them to go, but that's mainly because of the finals that are finally over... tomorrow i'm rehearsing just with the drummer and i think that might be a good thing, we might get more things done... also i'm not really sure about rehearsing this one song... we'll see

and i feel fat

DarkAxel wrote:i need to play more music... i have a project in my head, but no people to make it work with... i've been into psychedelic stuff a lot lately, a lot of psychedelic rock, post-metal, sludge and shit... i'd like to do some heavy but textural psychedelic music with loads of effects work

DUDE! wanna colab? the same fucking problem here

DarkAxel wrote:and i feel fat

exercise and watch your carb intake

I'm not fat at all, i just felt bloated... i do excercise i immediately excercised a bit and i feel better now...

the thing is... this band really needs to be a live band, you know...