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IEatCats wrote:

spacelordmother wrote:Because without all the humidity, the heat isn't so bad. Just another reason I won't be moving back to Upstate NY.

Man, fuck this place.

Seeeeeeeeeriously.

IEatCats wrote:

snipelfritz wrote:I'm afraid that my guy still won't have weed and I'll end up buying some lame-ass K-2 replica stuff.

Oh god. So many bad memories and crazy trips.

If you're in a pinch and you have to go that route, you have to toke lightly. Too much of that stuff can get pretty crazy. That said, I won't fuck with it. There are some all natural extracts you can buy that work rather well in tandem. And legal, too!

So, my deal? I'm getting a fucking sinus infection-FUUUUUUUUUUUUU

Fuuuuuuuuuuu-

I bought some records today, one of which I was ecstatic to buy. I played it when I got home, it's all scratched up , also on the recipt it says no returns because "Of eh condition of collectible items." What the fuck, you shouldn't be selling ruined merchandise. It said on the label that the record was in very good plus condition, as in the sleeve was. Never going there again.

Also while I was talking to the owner he goes "A scratched record will still play," to which I thought "Who gives a fuck, if it skips it disrupts the flow of the whole record." Oh well, he's already a condescending asshole. Never going there again.

Ever try making a manhattan with dry vermouth instead of sweet? FFFuuuucckkkkkk

The4455 wrote:Also while I was talking to the owner he goes "A scratched record will still play," to which I thought "Who gives a fuck, if it skips it disrupts the flow of the whole record." Oh well, he's already a condescending asshole. Never going there again.

SOMEONE should try listening to Minus The Bear

Last week when I was in Florida with the family, my mom asked me if I was happy. Since I have struggled with depression in the past, and of course I said yes, but it made me realize that once again I just wasn't. Recently I met the girl who I honestly think may be "The One" and I have never felt that way before, and that is really exciting for me, but I've gotten somewhat stupid. Not to mention my band lost our practice space and we have been essentially on hiatus for 2 months now. I havn't touched my guitar in a month and my writing has died. I work evening shifts and usually sleep until it's time to get ready for work. I broke out some of my old meds and I think I may go back on them tomorrow, it's just last time I was on them they did some pretty nasty side effects. One of which was somewhat of a sexual side effect, and quite literally killed my libido, almost like chemical castration, but even that doesn't seem too bad right now, as I have become more impulsive with girls. I have made some pretty stupid decisions concerning ex's and former hook-ups lately and went a little to far with one and I just feel terrible about it because she has a bf, and I have been talking to this new girl who I am completely infatuated by, and although we have not taken the step of starting a "relationship" I am going to Texas to meet her parents and probably ask her to be my girlfriend, in two weeks. What I did with the other girl just is NOT who I am and I don't really understand how I let it happen.

The weird thing is, I should be extremely happy, I met an absolutely wonderful girl, the best I have ever met, I have a new house, I am financially stable, despite our situation as a band we did just get a new, excellent, drummer; yet it's like a rift reopened into who I was 2 years ago, but it's a bizarro universe and I am the exact opposite. It literally is a mirror image of where I was the last time I started taking my medication... does this mean that I just am not EVER going to be happy?

I think the biggest change in me is that 2 years ago I was an extremely religious person and I have just gotten so fed up with the establishments religions have created and am just so furious about so many things in general. I have always been such a chill and relaxed person but I literally just want to "watch the world burn"

^Maybe that you're happy but just scared of it cuz it's unfamiliar territory? Happens to me from time to time. Just don't panic, calm down. Being neutral is not bad, you don't HAVE to be happy. I actually prefer being neutral. Feels peaceful and relaxed actually.

The lamp just burned out on my tv, it's an early hdtv that my parents gave me when they upgraded to a newer one. I know they've replaced the lamp once before and I'm pretty sure that it was damned expensive, so I'm probably better off just buying a new one.

So I'll probably end up with something smaller than I have now (50", which is honestly to big for my living room anyway), but I'll end up with something with much better picture quality (this one is too old for 1080p). This isn't really an expense that I was wanting right now, oh well I guess I won't be buying that Demo Tape Fuzz in the b/s/t that I was considering.

I just gave myself a fat lip from playing the didgeridoo. I can't tell if I'm happy with that or annoyed.

IEatCats wrote:I just gave myself a fat lip from playing the didgeridoo. I can't tell if I'm happy with that or annoyed.

did someone say didgeridoo...

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just found out my work double booked my holiday so now i can't have it it off... FUCKINGFUCK

I'm bored and anxious. Not a good combination. The last hour has felt like an eternity.

@ Psyre: it sounds like you're describing a stressful situation that's pulling you in multiple directions, and that you're having an acute depressive reaction as a result. my guess is that you may be more ambivalent about the new gf than you're letting on, and that the acting-out with other women is a way of expressing this. the band not functioning is also cutting you off from one of your major positive energy sources.

honestly, from the way you describe the last couple of years i'm not sure you haven't had some kind of depressive thing or other disorder happening during that time. you describe going through what sounds like a total rejection of religion, and an accumulating store of anger that sounds far beyond the kind of reasonable reaction to the world's ills and injustices one might have from a social re-orientation.

if advice from the old crazy guy is worth anything, i think that you should go and talk to somebody who can give you some different medication, if you need it, that'd be less onerous in terms of side effects. when i switched from the Celexa family to Paxil it helped tons. i wouldn't just go back on old meds without consulting someone.

i also want to caution you not to get into thinking that you did stuff that's "not you." it was expressing something which you need to understand. to deny that an important message from deep in your subconscious is part of you will get you in deep, deep trouble.

take some time and consider carefully the things you're doing and considering doing, and get clear on how you actually feel about them. if you've got Great Big Doubts, don't do it.

Less than three weeks after getting an El Capistan, I find out Strymon are now making them with soft / clickless switches. I love my current one but the switches are the only things I'd change.

Of course, I'd love to sell my current one and purchase a new one straight from Strymon but because I live in Australia I have to wait months before someone here has one in stock, for a big markup of course. Fucking hell.