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I was so bored I just watched 2 hrs of really bad X factor auditions from Great Britain. Why is a display of no talent so entertaining? And also, who is telling these people they can sing? If you are someone's friend, parent or sibling and that friend thought they had a great voice but really didn't, would you tell them that they sucked?

Sometimes I still gas for the Malekko 919...

KaosCill8r wrote:I was so bored I just watched 2 hrs of really bad X factor auditions from Great Britain. Why is a display of no talent so entertaining? And also, who is telling these people they can sing? If you are someone's friend, parent or sibling and that friend thought they had a great voice but really didn't, would you tell them that they sucked?

I avoid those shows altogether. And the people who DO have talent, mostly get one-hit-wondered and swiped away by the sands of time. There are amazing humans out there, but why shouldn't that be the norm? In the middle ages we gazed at saints (role models) in chapels, now we gaze at performers (role models) on TV. It's just this game of separating people from their inherent awesomeness, from their creative power, from their inner saint.

Kinda sux, but I've met so many people aware of this, so many wonderful marvelous humans that I have no fear, no doubt even, that we shall shine unprecedented! (and, quite possibly unpresidented )

I mean, check this out ffs:

Amen!

This is going to sound like a joke to some of you, and honestly I feel kind silly putting myself out there as a business owner and one that's trying to make some ground for himself in a positive way despite my short comings.

I relapsed about 6 months ago. I have been clean and sober for the last 6 years and I call it a relapse because I am a drug addict AND an alcoholic. I fooled myself into believe that marijuana was not a drug and that I could smoke it and not have any consequence. I have been smoking off and on for the last six months as well as taken this shit called Kratom, which is similar to an opiate but legal. I've abused Kratom almost EVERYDAY for the last six months. Every single day. I would take it until I couldn't think straight. This is what drug addicts do.

It started off innocent enough. I let stress get to me, then I allowed someone to pressure me into smoking for the first time in 6 years. It's not their fault that I was weak, but I was weak and regretted it, swore it off, then went back a month later and started smoking again. As well as taking the Kratom.

Now I've decided that I'm done. I'm fucking done. I work so hard these last six years and the years I spent high and drunk were the worst of my life. I pissed away so much that I can't get back. I could feel myself slipping back into that groove.

I threw everything out yesterday. I have strong will power, but need support as well. I can't do this alone. So I'm seeking out a group again because it's the only way.

I have to be progressive and I like thinking straight. For me, it's not the way to live. For others it's totally fine. No judgement, please don't think that. It's just destructive to me. If I stay on this path it's only a matter of time before I justify drinking, then it's over for me. That shit will destroy my life. It did before.

So I just wanted to share. This is hard for me, and like I said, I feel dumb posting about it. So thanks for listening.

DUDE
MANYHUGS YOU HUNKY MAN YOU

and no wonder you've been cranky. I've stopped smoking weed in february, but I have no idea what opiates are like.
if you want to go cold turkey, u can, it's gonna be hard but u can do it. if u had so much willpower and discipline to do all those crazy exercise routines, I don't see any reason why you'd fail with this. I mean, you're a beast dude! takes HUGE effort to get there. even when you feel weak, remember how strong you are inside for getting this far. just look in the mirror even writing this post is a sign of your strength. I have faith in you bro <3 will pray.

Picking yourself up again from a relapse is one of the bravest and most respectworthy things I can think of. It takes a lot of balls to let people know that you gave in to temptation. One of those rare occations where showing your weakness makes you look stronger. I have no doubt you will pull through. Feel free to shot me a PM whenever you like. Having fallen back on my addictions before myself, I know the struggles and temptations. Accept ALL the help you can get, especially in this initial period of soberness. Simply keeping busy is good, but having a channel to clear all of your thoughts and feelings is crucial. At least it was for me. Hang in there, buddy!

Jwar i havent dealt with what youre dealing with but i know it takes a shitload of strength to even admit that theres a problem, good on you for forcing yourself to make the change you know is best for you
i know you can get through this

jwar wrote:This is going to sound like a joke to some of you, and honestly I feel kind silly putting myself out there as a business owner and one that's trying to make some ground for himself in a positive way despite my short comings.

I relapsed about 6 months ago. I have been clean and sober for the last 6 years and I call it a relapse because I am a drug addict AND an alcoholic. I fooled myself into believe that marijuana was not a drug and that I could smoke it and not have any consequence. I have been smoking off and on for the last six months as well as taken this shit called Kratom, which is similar to an opiate but legal. I've abused Kratom almost EVERYDAY for the last six months. Every single day. I would take it until I couldn't think straight. This is what drug addicts do.

It started off innocent enough. I let stress get to me, then I allowed someone to pressure me into smoking for the first time in 6 years. It's not their fault that I was weak, but I was weak and regretted it, swore it off, then went back a month later and started smoking again. As well as taking the Kratom.

Now I've decided that I'm done. I'm fucking done. I work so hard these last six years and the years I spent high and drunk were the worst of my life. I pissed away so much that I can't get back. I could feel myself slipping back into that groove.

I threw everything out yesterday. I have strong will power, but need support as well. I can't do this alone. So I'm seeking out a group again because it's the only way.

I have to be progressive and I like thinking straight. For me, it's not the way to live. For others it's totally fine. No judgement, please don't think that. It's just destructive to me. If I stay on this path it's only a matter of time before I justify drinking, then it's over for me. That shit will destroy my life. It did before.

So I just wanted to share. This is hard for me, and like I said, I feel dumb posting about it. So thanks for listening.

i'm sure some people roll their eyes at some of my posts.
i post a lot of stuff about eating well and riding my bike..
i made a whole thread about Cannabis. ( i know it's called weed .. blah blah ) *Cannabis* covers more.

Anyway.

i don't Drink anymore. i used to. a lot.
i honestly made that weed thread .. because i had a Dramatic incident in my Life.
and. now that i live Clean. no Drugs. and i've use weed with Very good results.
i don't wake up and need it. i use it .. with my Life.
it honestly helps.
and. it honestly helps with spirituality - something i've never been that into.

i know what it's like to hate decisions. putting crap into our bodies.
tomorrow's a New Day.
sometimes .. WE really have to go through some very shit days. to get back on track.

U wut m8? I don't get what you're trying to say, Sparrow. Jwar lets us know he has an addiction and you tell us that you don't do drugs but smoke weed? Or did you use to? You don't need it but use it with your life? Is being clean spiritual? Or high? Who was phone? I'm so confused, haha!

UglyCasanova wrote:How high are you right now, Sparrow? I don't get what you're trying to say. Jwar lets us know he has an addiction and you tell us that you don't do drugs but smoke weed? You don't need it but use it with your life? Who was phone? I'm so confused, haha!

hmm. not high at all. sorry bud.
i just meant to say. i know how addiction is.

i made that thread.. not telling anyone what to do .. Just how it's been doing for Me.

i want to let Jwar, and anyone - know that i care.
.. just trying to relate.

and. i'm not telling anyone to smoke weed.
it's Not for everyone.
just posting some *baked* posts .. i guess

You're a great guy jwar, and I'm glad to see you dealing with a relapse in such a healthy way. I've no doubts you'll do fine and get through this rough patch. Take care.

A lot of people (myself included) make a distinction between weed and other drugs. I consider drugs things like pills, coke, heroin, ecstasy, etc.

Not to say that weed can't be addictive. I've definitely gone through periods where I felt dependent on weed. Not so much lately. I definitely smoke a little here and there, but I don't feel like I need it to get through the day anymore.

Jwar, its important not to beat yourself up over relapsing. Just know that you are human, and humans make mistakes. You'll get through this. ILF is here for you.

When you start to think about buying weed or grabbing a bottle, just remember, every puff/drink is less money for gear

Sparrow wrote:

UglyCasanova wrote:How high are you right now, Sparrow? I don't get what you're trying to say. Jwar lets us know he has an addiction and you tell us that you don't do drugs but smoke weed? You don't need it but use it with your life? Who was phone? I'm so confused, haha!

hmm. not high at all. sorry bud.
i just meant to say. i know how addiction is.

i made that thread.. not telling anyone what to do .. Just how it's been doing for Me.

i want to let Jwar, and anyone - know that i care.
.. just trying to relate.

and. i'm not telling anyone to smoke weed.
it's Not for everyone.
just posting some *baked* posts .. i guess

That makes a lot more sense, haha! I was just super confused and wanted to understand what you were trying to say.

neonblack wrote:A lot of people (myself included) make a distinction between weed and other drugs. I consider drugs things like pills, coke, heroin, ecstasy, etc.

Not to say that weed can't be addictive. I've definitely gone through periods where I felt dependent on weed. Not so much lately. I definitely smoke a little here and there, but I don't feel like I need it to get through the day anymore.

Jwar, its important not to beat yourself up over relapsing. Just know that you are human, and humans make mistakes. You'll get through this. ILF is here for you.

When you start to think about buying weed or grabbing a bottle, just remember, every puff/drink is less money for gear

for sure this.

and.

i don't want Jwar .. or Anyone thinking i'm some Drug-o that has no respect for people.
cause i do.