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I love music and I love playing it so much and it inspires me,

but damn, when I watch something like Dr. Katz or anything else that's very comedian-centric, I just feel so much like that's what I want to do. Of course, there's the fact that it's fucking terrifying. At least with music I know what I want to play. Comedy style, I don't even know where to start.

I've had these thoughts.

Then I remember I'm the only one who finds me funny.

I'm not saying that's the case in your situation, but that's what keeps me in check.

I have had experience sucking at both comedy and music. The primary difference between music and comedy is that, with music, if you suck you simply need to practice alone some more. If you suck at comedy, you need to go in front of an audience more and suck for a long time before you get better.

It's that classic thing where every comedian wants to be a rock star and any musician who understands comedy at all realizes it's so much harder to even be good (much less "make it") at comedy.

You nailed it.

Iommic Pope wrote:I've had these thoughts.

Then I remember I'm the only one who finds me funny.

I'm not saying that's the case in your situation, but that's what keeps me in check.

No it's not just you. I think you're a funny fucker.
I think that why we get along so well. We both share the same fucked up sense of humour.
Aussie gallows humour, filthy bad taste jokes and stuff that a 5 year old boy would find funny.

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KaosCill8r wrote:

Iommic Pope wrote:I've had these thoughts.

Then I remember I'm the only one who finds me funny.

I'm not saying that's the case in your situation, but that's what keeps me in check.

No it's not just you. I think you're a funny fucker.
I think that why we get along so well. We both share the same fucked up sense of humour.
Aussie gallows humour, filthy bad taste jokes and stuff that a 5 year old boy would find funny.

Dawe.
Thanks chief. I like your giggle-factor, too.
I can get high brow.
It just gets lost on most people.
Not around here, just in general.
Around here, highbrow is not often called for.
Which I love.

Edit: I actually came here to confess that I just watched the scence (cut from A New Hope) where Luke and Biggs share some background info and it actually gets into some deep galactic politcal and economical discussion about the empire.
I fucking hate George Lucas for cutting the great stuff and making things lamer.
It was fucking cerebral!
CEREBRAL!

Ok, not really. But it was much better than NOT PUTTING IT IN THE FUCKING FILM.

Also: #Hanshotfirst.

In third grade I took my friends pet slug (not a euphemism). His father was insane and tried to run me over with his car. He drove into a pole. Maybe he was drunk?

I remembered that this morning and had to share.

Hi ILF.

i’ve had a really rough week.
the relationship i’m “in” .. has become too dramatic too handle.
i’ve been hurt too many times - by not walking away.
which i’m sure Everyone knows is complicated - and part of life and relationships.
But. some things.. like lies. cheating. and just .. not being honest ..
is something that becomes destructive.
there has been things this week - involving trying to move forward.
but. it’s so hard.

i no longer live with her.
i lived with my girlfriend for 5 years.
she had a few bi polar manic episodes.
it was so dramatic .. it involved police/ ambulance.
6 grown men .. tackling my 5 foot 2 Hun. sticking her with needles to calm her.
the state of manic she went into a few times was the scariest thing i’ve been through. i have trouble talking about it. it’s made my depression worse. i used to have panic attacks .. and ptsd type stuff. just .. if you can. imagine your wife/GF whatever.
someone you Love/ sleep beside .. all that.
just becomes not there. and. doing and saying the oddest things. and sitting on the floor clapping at 4 am in a hall.
i mention these details too. because. people have no idea what the fuck is going on.
she does NO drugs. she does Not drink.
but . that manic state. is unreal. a guard at the hospital said " we need an exorcist " to ME. her BF.
i couldn't FUcking believe that he said that.
and. a Dr. came to me and said he heard that.. and would talk to him.


so. that’s life. and not really the pain. the pain comes more from.. my GF holding resent towards me and my family for trying to do nothing but help.
i hate stigmas. everyone has some mental junk from time to time.
she was on medication. and better. she went off it. and now denies her illness.
she becomes very anger and we can’t really talk about it .

thanks for letting me vent.
and. like i said before. i love this place.
i’m not afraid at all to be Honest and open here.

sometimes i just want to post .. i’m feeling kinda down.
but. i go ride my bike for a little .. or play guitar
and. i feel better.

i know it’s so cheesy and dumb.
but. all those simple things you know ..
like. eat well. exercise for your mind health .. not just for yer love handles.
and . do what makes you happy.

i know that’s so cheese. and maybe even douchey ..
but. it helps me.

oh. and. talking to your friends.

thanks! have a great weekend.

I've been in that manic/bipolar gf mess too. :
I think your decision to divert your attention from the whole deal is the most healthy thing you can do.

alexa. wrote:I've been in that manic/bipolar gf mess too. :
I think your decision to divert your attention from the whole deal is the most healthy thing you can do.

Chankgeez wrote::hug:

indeed!

Sounds like it was for the best. I'm all for supporting and helping the person you love. But there is a limit to that, especially if all you get in return is more trouble or blame. It seems like she crossed that line a long, long time ago. I'm glad to hear you enjoying stuff again. If something or someone gets in the way of you enjoying the "small things", something's just wrong.

My ex was raped before we got together, so I know a little about living with someone who's constantly in a state of panic. It's not easy, at all. She almost stabbed me on three occations because she needed to keep a knife under her pillow at night. If I woke up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom, I had to make sure to slowly get hold of the knife and wake her up ever so gently so she wouldn't have a panic attack. I simply had to. The three times I forgot in a haze of sleepiness and just went to the bathroom were the times I almost got fucking stabbed. Girl was hiding behind the door when I walked into the room and jumped at me with the knife in hand, having either completely forgotten that I was there or had created in her head a situation where I had been murdered by an intruder who was going to rape her. Hard to live with someone who's that unstable and scared, no matter how understandable her situation might be. We split for other reasons, but I was on the edge of leaving her because of the whole stabby-stabby deal a few times.

Anyways. Ramble. I'm glad you're feeling better.