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Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2012 6:34 pm
by dubkitty
me too. but at least i'm doing stuff this week, as compared to last, when all i did other than absolutely vital shit was sleep. but all i want to do is sit around, feel sad, and listen to chick records...Joni Mitchell, Adele, early Seal.
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2012 6:43 pm
by DarkAxel
IEatCats wrote:DarkAxel wrote:I've been a moodswinging wreck this week, it's just too much... it's terrible
I've been the same way, man.
Any reason behind it?
a metric fuckton of them
a breakup... i'Ve been up and down, feeling free and full of hope but then i'm usually absolutely fucking lost... and i miss the feeling of sharing the energy, feeling someone and just... dunno, you catch my drift, eh?
gig incoming... today we resolved i won't be singing backing vocals because i suck ass... everyone is fucking it up because we get song structures mixed up... and it's just covers for fuck's sake...
an exam incoming... immense amount of vocab, it's prolly somewhere around 1600 words... 700 of them are just on the topic of Nature... i haven't really studied that much...
and this girl i've had kind of an crush on since autumn was lookig really sad today, so i bumped into her on a tram station, asked if anything is wrong and she started crying... so i talked her into buying her a coffee and talking about it... it turned out her grandma died today... but it seems as if i helped her, so... that's a sliver lining for me right here
and i'm tired... not only tired physically, you know... i just need it to be next thursday, i've got the exam and the gig on wednesday, i firmly believe it'll be better after that
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2012 7:08 pm
by dubkitty
i've found that there are few things in the world that make me feel better than helping someone else. i was actually looking for hitchhikers to pick up on the way home because it's raining and miserable. and i've been feeling shitty and wanted to do something good for someone. and given that you just lost your grandfather recently, you probably were a good person for her to talk with.
sometimes i find myself just marking time until things i know i have to deal with are done..."OK, three more days and THAT will be over with."
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2012 7:39 pm
by D.o.S.
dubkitty wrote:sometimes i find myself just marking time until things i know i have to deal with are done..."OK, three more days and THAT will be over with."
Yup.
For some reason I thought it would be a good idea to quit smoking, again.
Time passes so slowly while yr quitting. Fuck. Me.
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2012 7:59 pm
by IEatCats
Blah blah blah, bitch bitch bitch.
I feel shitty tonight.
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2012 8:05 pm
by dubkitty
i'm really tempted to go to sleep. and it's 5PM, and i only got up at noon. i think i win for "apathy" today.
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2012 8:53 pm
by IEatCats
I finally caved and really started bitching about why I've felt like shit recently. That rejection letter fucking kills me on the inside. I've had a hard time eating recently, because of it. I just start to feel like shit and don't want to eat, even when I'm hungry. I have to basically binge eat when I have an appetite, which sucks.
FEED ME BABIES:
eh, I just feel like a loser.
shitty job, cant get back into college, shitty apartment, "artist" with nothing to show
There's only a few things in life that are really keeping me going recently.
I just try to focus on that.
foomanfat:
Hey, man. I live with my parents. Work for my dad. I didn't even finish tech. college and I have no recorded works of worth.
FEED ME BABIES:
yeah, Im in the same boat, but with $7k in debt along with rent and other bills. And I make minumum as a cashier.
Ive just been thinking, like
if I hadn't fucked around in school
in high school
i could be graduating college with a degree right now
like, in something that i cared abuot
heading to get a job that will matter.
instead of being a fuck up
trying to "live to have fun" or some bullshit
and every time i start to feel like Im heading in the right direction finally
I either get a fucking panic attack, or life is like
"FUCK NO YOU DON'T. ENJOY LOSING YOUR JOB, DICKWAD."
or some shit like that
"OH, YOU WANT A DEGREE? REJECTED."
"STATE SCHOOL, YOU SAY? NOT FOR YOU!"
"WANT A BAND? NO TIME FOR ANYONE YOU KNOW, THEY HAVE SHIT TO DO. ENJOY SITTING AROUND WALLOWING IN SHAME AT YOUR SHIT LIFE. YOU DID IT, BITCH."
So ends my depressing monologue.
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2012 8:55 pm
by Caesar
I want a cupcake, but there are no cupcakes.
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2012 9:35 pm
by dubkitty
so go back around next term and apply again, but this time apply to 25 schools. learn from your mistakes. there are many cats yet to eat, Grasshopper. it may not seem like it now, but you've got lots and lots of time ahead of you.
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2012 9:46 pm
by IEatCats
dubkitty wrote:so go back around next term and apply again, but this time apply to 25 schools. learn from your mistakes. there are many cats yet to eat, Grasshopper. it may not seem like it now, but you've got lots and lots of time ahead of you.
Thanks. This is what I needed to hear.
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2012 10:29 pm
by nieh
Since I started working where I work I've taken everybody's hours at least once if not more, and I have never said no. I wanted to switch my hours once so I could go see my friend in some swim thing, but no one will switch hours with me.
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2012 11:25 pm
by dubkitty
@nieh: so now you know two things: 1.) you're nicer than them and 2.) it's OK to tell them "no."
@IEC: i'm 55 and i'm thinking of going to school in my off time once i find a new job. given my family's typical life expectancy i could live another 25 years--especially because i'm less overweight and don't drink much compared to most of my relatives--and that was a marriage and a 13-year relationship ago for me. hell, i'm just figuring out what i want to be when i grow up. but i know i want to be playing when i croak in my 90s, like Les Paul. damn right...they'll have to pry the guitar out of my hands to cremate my ass.
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2012 11:29 pm
by futuresailors
nieh wrote:Since I started working where I work I've taken everybody's hours at least once if not more, and I have never said no. I wanted to switch my hours once so I could go see my friend in some swim thing, but no one will switch hours with me.
If your friend an attractive female?
If so:
Ditch work
If not, work's better.
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2012 11:32 pm
by nieh
futuresailors wrote:nieh wrote:Since I started working where I work I've taken everybody's hours at least once if not more, and I have never said no. I wanted to switch my hours once so I could go see my friend in some swim thing, but no one will switch hours with me.
If your friend an attractive female?
If so:
Ditch work
If not, work's better.
Yes
And I wish I could, but I would definitely get fired, and I like my work too much.
Re: The spite, hate, rage, apathy and mild irritation thread
Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2012 11:43 pm
by IEatCats
dubkitty wrote:@nieh: so now you know two things: 1.) you're nicer than them and 2.) it's OK to tell them "no."
@IEC: i'm 55 and i'm thinking of going to school in my off time once i find a new job. given my family's typical life expectancy i could live another 25 years--especially because i'm less overweight and don't drink much compared to most of my relatives--and that was a marriage and a 13-year relationship ago for me. hell, i'm just figuring out what i want to be when i grow up. but i know i want to be playing when i croak in my 90s, like Les Paul. damn right...they'll have to pry the guitar out of my hands to cremate my ass.
90 year old fuzzer.
And I'm glad to hear that you're figuring that stuff out, man.
I don't know what to say, aside from that I'm happy for you.