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i'm immensely grateful that my friend up by Davis, 120 miles away, has been calling me every day to talk to me and make sure i'm all right. i have a friend who lives five miles away who i talk to once a month.

at least my news today doesn't totally suck. but i feel sick enough that i slept until 1, and am probably going back to bed at any minute.

Everything in my life is fucking great.

And still I always feel like shit.

spacelordmother wrote:Everything in my life is fucking great.

And still I always feel like shit.

I hate that shit. Worst part is when people say "You have no right to be depressed."

Dropped that class. Can't do it.
Accounting is something I cannot do. Maybe it would've been possible had it been an actual class, but it's an online class. I can't do that shit by myself.
Doesn't help that it's the least interesting subject I've ever taken. Goodbye, $500 in financial aid. Well, maybe I can get some back on the ridiculously expensive book.

wsas3 wrote:

spacelordmother wrote:Everything in my life is fucking great.

And still I always feel like shit.

I hate that shit. Worst part is when people say "You have no right to be depressed."

Agreed, except I'm the one telling myself "you have no right to be depressed". That's not entirely true, but sometimes it does help to put my problems in perspective.
I mean, at least I'm not some North Korean kid starving to death in a field near a train station, looking for weeds to eat, walkin' past some corpses on the way home and not being bothered 'cause I'm too fucking hungry. I guess that would kind of suck.

My girlfriend is going through the same thing, 500 exactly as well. The school wants it back even though they CANCELLED THE CLASS ON HER.
She doesn't even have it, because she actually needs the money. Poverty sucks.

wsas3 wrote:My girlfriend is going through the same thing, 500 exactly as well. The school wants it back even though they CANCELLED THE CLASS ON HER.
She doesn't even have it, because she actually needs the money. Poverty sucks.

Yeah, that blows.
I'm really hoping the school doesn't beat me up and take my lunch money. I dropped it before 60% of the semester has passed, so it shouldn't count as a failed class. But I still really really need the rest of the money.

I'd make an appointment with the dean, if it really concerns you. Sometimes they just have those days where they bypass all strict rules for god knows what reason.

I hate myself sometimes. "You'll remember your password, just make the security question garbage so that your account is more secure. No way will you ever, ever forget your password."

Oh my god I haven't been paying attention for any of this lecture and it sucks and I don't know what I'm supposed to be getting out of it, and I still have another hour to go.

edit for irritation type shit: i can't stop thinking about certain things and they really get me down or they really make me freak out and my heart rate raises and it's scary so i freak out more and it kind of sucks a lot. getting a real sense of social determinism lately.

the_carl wrote:I hate myself sometimes. "You'll remember your password, just make the security question garbage so that your account is more secure. No way will you ever, ever forget your password."

i'm sorry, but

snipelfritz wrote:Oh my god I haven't been paying attention for any of this lecture and it sucks and I don't know what I'm supposed to be getting out of it, and I still have another hour to go.

why aren't you stoned? always makes lectures more fun for some weird reason.


I want to smoooooookeeeeeeeeeeee

the_carl wrote:I hate myself sometimes. "You'll remember your password, just make the security question garbage so that your account is more secure. No way will you ever, ever forget your password."

Produced real laughter when I saw the jibberish. AA++++++++++++
Would laugh again.

alexa. wrote:

snipelfritz wrote:Oh my god I haven't been paying attention for any of this lecture and it sucks and I don't know what I'm supposed to be getting out of it, and I still have another hour to go.

why aren't you stoned? always makes lectures more fun for some weird reason.


I want to smoooooookeeeeeeeeeeee

I aaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. Usually it helps, but I've just spent the whole time looking at pedals online waiting for people to pm about trades (the virtual equivalent of sitting by the mailbox all day waiting for a letter).

shit, just broke my D string...

with no spare strings around, in a great need to practise and not wanting to go to the store because they are asswagons

waking up most mornings with a hazy and implacable sense of dread/wannnngst sux!