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Nah dude! craving more coke and have a sore jaw from gurning and grinding is not my idea of a good time. I do have to say though that I'd be down with some sexy time with one or all of the crue members. Only if they are in their Shout at the Devil get ups though.

I don't think I will ever have a healthy relationship.

MeSoFuzzy wrote:Nah dude! craving more coke and have a sore jaw from gurning and grinding is not my idea of a good time. I do have to say though that I'd be down with some sexy time with one or all of the crue members. Only if they are in their Shout at the Devil get ups though.

Mick Mars wouldn't be able to walk for days afterward.

Got them first practice with new band jitters.

Whats this new band gonna be like??

I heard they shred.

Hard.

I saw Motley Crue and Whitesnake in 1987. In my defense I was quite drunk at the time.

Referring to 1987.

Pretty much every day I check the whatever thread to see what Achtane has (hopefully) posted and send it to my girlfriend. Dem pics n vids.. Achtane is my secret crush

skullservant wrote:Whats this new band gonna be like??

Not really sure yet. The singer/guitarist has done some legit stuff in the past and he's kind of the "band leader" type.
I'm playing bass and not really looking to do the primary writing thing like I do in my other bands.

D.o.S. wrote:I heard they shred.

Depends on your definition of shred.....but I kind of doubt it.

D.o.S. wrote:Hard.

Even less likely.

Why is my life so consistently sad?

I've always been really angry, but I've never really lashed out until recently. And its been mostly directed at my son. I haven't hurt him, just yelled. Which I know hurts way more than most people seem to realize. I don't want to be angry, I dont wanna be a shit dad to my kid like my dad was to me. I just wanna be happy and love my kid, but by some cosmic clusterfucking that doesnt seem possible for me to do. Its like the best thing I could do for anyone is be alone with my misery.

What really fucked up is the kid is only two. He doesn't understand the concept of making me angry any more than I understand astrophysics. I don't even know whats going through his mind when I get mad at him. But I can tell it makes him sad, and it breaks my heart.

I'm pretty sure I need anger management, and I'm pretty sure this anger is linked to my depression as well. Mostly because when I am angry, I feel like I'm watching whats happening in the third person, like its out of my control. Which is really scary. And I really dont want to be subject to more psychiatrist meetings and end up feeling even crazier than I already am. But I know I need to in order to get help.

I dont really know why I'm posting this here. I guess I just feel safe here. Maybe I just want acknowledgement from others that I'm not a monster and that what I'm feeling isn't my fault.

Go see a shrink man, get some help. You don't want this to be your son's memories of his childhood, and of you.

It made me feel really shitty about myself in the beginning but talking to a professional about my depression anxiety and anger issues is by far the best desicion I've ever made. Plus if you don't gel with it you can always stop or find a new shrink.

^what he said. we're all fucking crazy, so a few shrink visitz here and there don't throw you that far off.

me, i wonder if i'll ever again wake up feeling happy, or ready to face the day, or anyhting other than "oh, not again." if i can ever be happy in this life. when i lost everything it left a gaping everything-sized hole in me, and i can't imagine what could heal it. and it scares me to think of spending the rest of my life this empty and lost (now crying like a five year old while typing). i just want it to be over

dubkitty wrote:^what he said. we're all fucking crazy, so a few shrink visitz here and there don't throw you that far off.

me, i wonder if i'll ever again wake up feeling happy, or ready to face the day, or anyhting other than "oh, not again." if i can ever be happy in this life. when i lost everything it left a gaping everything-sized hole in me, and i can't imagine what could heal it. and it scares me to think of spending the rest of my life this empty and lost (now crying like a five year old while typing). i just want it to be over

life's a bitch, i cant imagine what kinda of things your going thru, but good vibes your way from me. i know how it feels to not want to wake up.

confession:im more of a lurker than a poster, i tend to post alot when im depressed
confession2:im addicted to mcdonalds holiday pies