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I hardly ever remember my dreams.

I do often times dream about being in a work environment I'm familiar with; IE in a kitchen or a bakery,...maybe set up a little differently but coworkers and management are people or representative of people I've worked for or with in the past. In the dreams I keep getting overwhelmed with orders and not being able to keep up,....but not in the way of I'm just not fast enough,...but in an everything that could go wrong does go wrong. Run out of this or that,...people keep coming in,...The line is broken down (not broke,...but everything is put away or wrapped up) in preparation to go home and all of a sudden there is a line of people out the door (like where the fuck did all these people come from so close to closing time). I'll still have all these orders and have to go wash some dishes real quick. It's always the same,....getting my ass kicked to make food and starting to panic about it; but no actual preparation of the food and the tickets just keep piling up. Then I wake up.

Sorry to hijack,...just thought I'd share the only reoccurring "nightmare" I can remember.

Also; Rage at shoveling snow.

Happy that it snowed (I think we got a foot over the course of two days with more on the way,...cept it's gonna start warming up a little so it's gonna be rain snow mix and all this shit is going to go away and turn into slush/ice/crust/mess),...just wish I didn't have to shovel my drive so I don't get high centered pulling into the garage again. That shit's a workout (talk about hating on exercise). Sometimes you just gotta do stuff you don't wanna do.

Also,....my plugs didn't arrive.

shovelling snow is definitely one of the aspects of full-on winter, along with numbness in the extremities and snow in my shoes, that i miss the least.

4:15 am, have to be up by 9. Looks like another sleepless night for Nick.

OH FUCK. I JUST HEARD A THUMP, AND MY VISION WENT WEIRD, AND THERE WAS A RINGING IN MY EARS, AND I THINK I HEAR SIRENS GOING OFF LIKE CRAZY IN THE DISTANCE.

I have a weird migraine now.

Fuck everything, I hate this shit. This isn't okay.

I keep seeing lights in the corner of my vision.

TV is on now. Fuck everything.

i was a dumbass and hung my coat on the coat hooks at work tonight and some asshole stole my peacoat! fucking mine and a coworkers, and 3 other pppls jackets were taken from the bar tonight and there were no jackets left behind! who goes to a bar without a jacket and leaves with one! how drunk and stupid are you. my fucking headphones were in the jacket pocket!

dubkitty wrote:

DarkAxel wrote:yeah, there's been some good moments... like being calmed down before an exam i didn't really study for by smoking a cigarette whilst listening to Earth and walking through a rainy bleak city day (i love those... )

i so totally wish i could come over for a visit and hang out with you.

i've been feeling like that lately too...i'm rather unsettled and blue overall, but there are absolutely great moments or periods within that unsettled-ness. i woke early today, but it was so pleasant lying in bed with my cat next to me that i spent a couple of hours half-waking and then drifting back to sleep until my roommate got up and started making coffee. and every time i get the 000 out and play it it makes me as happy as a child on Christmas morning. but i'm really nervous because i still can't find work and it's been well over a year, and this shit is really starting to fray my remaining nerve.

yeah, i know what you mean... but i only get those from time to time...
would love to hang out, but you know... the great ocean is keeping us apart... and that sucks, because there's so many of you i'd like to meet :/

btw i'm also jobless because of stupid class schedule in this term... it's not so bad, just not really compatible with work, you know. And all of a sudden i'd really appreciate some work, because i'll need another amp and i really want to go somewhere with my GF in summer... good thing is that i can start working where i've been working till now when the term is over, put on some crazy amount of hours, make some serious cash and then go on holiday. But the amp thing is kinda unsettling, because i'm balancing not living with my parents, commuting back home to my GF, gear and just basically life X fun

i hope i can find some translating or tuition, something i can handle doing when attending college...

IEatCats wrote:OH FUCK. I JUST HEARD A THUMP, AND MY VISION WENT WEIRD, AND THERE WAS A RINGING IN MY EARS, AND I THINK I HEAR SIRENS GOING OFF LIKE CRAZY IN THE DISTANCE.

I have a weird migraine now.

Fuck everything, I hate this shit. This isn't okay.

I keep seeing lights in the corner of my vision.

dude just get some company. i also used to hate being in our old flat alone, my college flat is kinda cool and our new house is also fine... but some places can work really bad for me

I need a roommate who can actually be home. My current roommate is never fucking here. The problem that I have is that I like being alone to my own devices, I just don't like being the only person in the house.

Woah. There's something sitting on my bed right now. There was a flutter, and the blankets got heavy. It looked like two legs were sitting there. When I lifted the blankets, they were heavy as shit right there. And my legs feel kind of weird where it's "sitting". This is fucking surreal. I think it's watching TV with me. I've been having weird shit like this happen all week. This morning, I was woken up to something touching my foot. The night before, something touched my back before I fell asleep. Jesus Christ. I wish I could explain this.

And it never happens when your roommate happens to be home?

Never. When she's home, I don't get nervous. The being touched, and shit just happened this week, and she hasn't been home much. The sitting on my bed thing is the first time I've had any kind of "interaction" beyond being bothered. I don't know if it's something that's just comfortable around me, but curious, or if I'm losing my damn mind.

Edit: This is really weird. There's this really heavy moving field of static on my bed. Regardless of whether or not I move the blanket. I can feel it on my legs when it moves. I've never experienced this before.

Edit Again: I can SEE this one spot that stays down when I move the blanket up. Like there's a heavy push on that one spot, and it's about the size of a sitting person. I can feel the static when I put my leg near it. This shit is weird.

I'd say get out of there/get some company. Don't let your mind fuck with you just like that

BRO, WE DON'T WANT TO LOSE YOU, BRO


BRO

Yeah haunted house crossed my mind

as did,...

Someone ate the "brown" acid

as did

This guy is fucking with us

as did

Perhaps there is some sort of neurological issues (IE aneurysm,...or head trauma) this guy is vocalizing to us and maybe he needs some help, like,...do we need to do something,...not that I have any idea of what we could possibly do.

Not trying to be a dick,...just strange internetz interaction there.

yeah, for real... i just advice what i'd do

I was so sure today's lecture started at 12. Apparently it was 10. I was brushing my teeth (which is the last thing before shoes and jacket when I leave) when I checked for the number of the room it's in and noticed.

@IEatCats: I would really talk to a doctor, if only just to be safe. It's possible it's like early symptoms of something like an aneurysm, schizophrenia etc. I do think odds would be it's nothing like that but still.

Been sleeping at all? I've had creepy sensations and "corner of the eye" hallucinations from sleep deprivation.

Edit: I sincerely doubt it's schizophrenia though. Just what I could think of that has hallucinations as a major symptom.

Haunted house is the go to, honestly. It's an old house in a historic town, at least 200 years old. There's a lot of weird houses/basements in town.

And a regular councilor has said that I just have anxiety, but suggested that I look into seeing if I have a neurological thing, as I've had some weird symptoms in the past. Corner of the eye stuff I always try to brush off as sleep deprivation aggravated by anxiety, but it's hard to keep that in mind when I'm having an anxiety-type attack.

But there was definitely something sitting on the bed, and I've definitely been being touched recently. It's been weird.

Oh, and I meant that I turned on the TV, not that it turned on itself. I just phrased it stupid.

i woke up hours early so i could take a shower and have my (extremely thick) hair be dry before i had to walk in 3 degree weather to class. it's not dry yet. :'( I COULD BE SLEEPING.