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i know. she took literally tens of thousands dollars worth of shared property out of this house. you'd think she could leave me one fucking cat, and not totally abuse the legal process to keep hurting me months after she's gone.

That's fucking insane.

i don't mean to seem like i'm only focused on my own shit. Axel, i'm so sorry to see you going through these changes. i wish there was something i could say that made it better, or made things make sense somehow, but all i know is that life happens and you have to keep swimming through it. eventually you get to take a breath. but it does clear up sometimes. i promise.

dubkitty wrote:i don't mean to seem like i'm only focused on my own shit. Axel, i'm so sorry to see you going through these changes. i wish there was something i could say that made it better, or made things make sense somehow, but all i know is that life happens and you have to keep swimming through it. eventually you get to take a breath. but it does clear up sometimes. i promise.

thanks i know you have a lot of your own problems, it would seem selfish to me expecting a reaction from you

37 hours in without sleeping... but i feel kinda good, i have some people keeping my head up... i'm afraid what will happen after i wake up tomorrow...

don't worry i just wanted to eat something (getting my apetite slowly back!), have a cup of tea and check on the interwebz... i'll be in bed in half an hour tops

dubkitty wrote:i know. she took literally tens of thousands dollars worth of shared property out of this house. you'd think she could leave me one fucking cat, and not totally abuse the legal process to keep hurting me months after she's gone.

You could remind her that the legal process doesn't apply to her if she's dead.

given that i have a restraining order against me, however dubious, that'd be a great way to make an appearance on an all-new episode of "Inside American Jail." i've seen the inside of the Santa Cruz County Jail. i did not like it there.

IF I HEAR THAT FUCKING ADAM SANDLER SONG ONE MORE TIME I WILL SNAP!

Having read the last three pages, I have nothing to complain about.
I hope all of you guys are alright.

So I've been dealing with being depressed for a while now and started taking medications recently after not feeling like therapy was helping much. First they tried me on Mirtazapine, because apparently it's really effective as an antidepressant, but not very popular because of its main side effects. Fortunately for me, those side effects are weight gain and sleepiness, and I need to gain weight and sleep better, so if I took it before I went to bed, it would work out perfectly.

Except I am apparently an anomaly when it comes to side affects. Didn't help me sleep at all, but it still made me tired until around dinner time. Then I would become emotionally unstable and laugh to the point of tears at things that weren't really that funny and then go have panic attacks an hour later. Plus it made me a bit nauseous all the time, despite often being prescribed to cancer patients as an anti-nausea drug. Stopped taking that stuff after a week.

Now they're like, well that sucked, we'll give you something more common, have some Zoloft. So I fill the prescription and look it up online, since I don't really know much about it except that I think I've seen it in commercials. According to Wikipedia, it's the most common antidepressant in the US, with over 29 million prescriptions in 2007. Hmm, must be pretty safe, lets scroll down to the side effects...

This shit is ridiculous. It's actually classified as a reproductive toxin by the NIH. A motherfucking REPRODUCTIVE TOXIN. And apparently there have been studies showing that 67% of men have "ejaculation difficulties" as a result of taking Zoloft. Plus things, like, you know, all loss of feeling in one's genitals. It can last for months afterwards, sometimes becoming permanent. Neither the doctor nor pharmacy warned me about this. And you want me to take this shit voluntarily? How many prescriptions of this stuff were given out yearly again? 29 MILLION?

WHAT. THE. FUCK.

Jesus Christ. Not going down the meds route anymore, unless it gets to the point where I'm actually trying to kill myself. I think some time off from college may be in order.

The way antidepressants are sold these days is seriously bullshit. Avoid that shit as long as you can.

Depression could be something as simple as a vitamin deficiency-- or just boredom. Or maybe you should try exercising. There's lots of pretty simple things that can help a lot!

sorry to hear that, bro...

i have two friends, brothers, on anridepressants... plus they're both so stupid they dring while taking them... shit is shit

i'm not depressed, i'm just naturally a pessimist... so i can't really help you or give any advice i guess. Hang in there, your decision on not taking meds seems good to me, might be really dangerous

I solved my depression attacks with healthy nutrition. (depression is actually often a metabolic disorder)

Achtane wrote:Holy fuck I gotta get out of here. The environment is draining my ambition, it's becoming stifling. It's like there's an overall air of negativity in this house. Life is passing me by while I'm fucking around in here and that really burns me up. Sucks to say it, too. Things could really be better but various forces are combining to create a bunch of shittiness for everyone.
Moving out is gonna be very rough I think, but man, it's gotta happen.

This.

@Axl: Go get a pen and paper and write EVERYTHING down. It might take a week or two but it'll help you sort out your emotions and see where you stand with yourself. I learned how it's easy to be an ass and unaware of the real situation, and how truth is not how it seems or how we feel about something.
And DON'T rush into a relationship. If that new girl is cool as you say, you owe it to her (and to yourself, that should be the main reason really) to sort yourself out first.

@Dubkitty: Talk to your cats. They deserve to know what's going on. They'll understand. At least, you'll know which one loves you more than her. Also, think of the havoc your loved one will wreck if he finds out what a bitch she's been, and she takes him home.
Cats are awesome.


And an honorable mention to my favorite neurotransmitter.

alexa. wrote: DON'T rush into a relationship. If that new girl is cool as you say, you owe it to her (and to yourself, that should be the main reason really) to sort yourself out first.

Yeah, i'm not feeling like having a proper relationship... she knows it and is apparently cool with it. But i like hanging out with her and it makes me feel better, so i think i might keep doing that... casually

Dunno, I've been there, and by the time I saw what an amazing person the girl was, I lost her. ymmv ofc

McSpunckle wrote:Depression could be something as simple as a vitamin deficiency-- or just boredom. Or maybe you should try exercising. There's lots of pretty simple things that can help a lot!

It also may be a chemical imbalance in the brain, low-level chronic inflammation, genetic fuckup with neuroreceptors and/or neurotransmitters.
There's lots of misunderstanding about this and 'just exercise' may not be what's needed (although it's a good idea anyway).
Proper management is what's needed though.