ilovefuzz.com

Yeah, hope so... having a band would help though

DarkAxel wrote:Yeah, hope so... having a band would help though

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F5QCs3PnQBc[/youtube]

DarkAxel wrote:Alright.....

here'S my breakdown i've been expecting for some time now. Frankly... I'm crying as i'm typing this

long distance relationship sucks... i love her so much, but i just can¨t go on... i'm in an endless cycle of school, work and getting back home for the weekend to see her. I almost don't have any free time anymore, i can't really play guitar, i probably wouldn't manage having a band... during the week, i'm absolutely lost, food doesn't taste good, nothing really has a point, i feel terribly lonely, like a husk without a soul, mindlessly working and shit... i'm happy, yeah... during weekends when i see her... otherwise i feel fucking miserable. I've lost so much weight i can walk out of my jeans without unzipping. I smoke more than i eat

i can't imagine letting her go without starting to sob... i don't know what to do

and there's also this girl in here that could help me with feelig lonely... we've been talking a lot lately, i spend five hours freezing in a park, talking with her tonight... but i feel like a fucking jerk because it could be seen like i'm breaking up with someone because of someone else and that'S something i just can't see myself coping with

if any one of you saw me right now... if anyone saw me right now... they would probably act like not knowing me... that's how fucked i am

edit: i had to caall her... we apparently broke up over the phone

this was the worst, most hurtful and tragic thing i've ever experienced, but i probably just had to do it

edit2: 3:46 here, i've been crying for more than two hours now with short brakes... i seem to get better...

edit3: ... not... i can't be calm for not even ten minutes

Also: Out of experience: breaking up because of someone new sometimes is the best. It makes the new relation extremely unstable from the start and a lot of work has to be done if you want stability out of that, but it also is the clearest possible cut and you can just do what men are supposed to do. It feels good.

Axel, first of all, eat good, sleep enough and in a week or two the lates, get laid dogdamnit. It will give You distance and solid proof that life continues, how ever sordid You might feel.

Caesar wrote:

DarkAxel wrote:Yeah, hope so... having a band would help though

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F5QCs3PnQBc[/youtube]

Yeah, that sure has motivated generation after generation of musicians. It works, too! If You don't take my word for it, read White Line Fever. Sleeping around has never stopped You from settling down, but settling down usually stops sleeping around, see? Here's Your chance. And You don't have to be a total asshole about it but sometimes You just have to decide the detour and be a lovely bastard. Be a gentleman. Even if You're gone the next morning. You'll learn what I mean.

Caesars notice? He sounds rude but he really wants to support You getting distance to this. Walking away from a close relationship hasn't ever become exactly easy for me, but - and now listen to another seasoned geezer - bearing the breakups and fuckups will definitely become easier every time You feel crushed and notice You didn't actually die or anything after all.

Many times, things just were not to be or they go sour. That's life. Take Your time with grieving, just don't let the grieving and memories take You - and when You're done let the pain of separation go and dare to admit You are not obliqued to mourn after anybody but Your happiness and love for Yourself if You loose that. Right? RIGHT! You will have to be the source of happiness in Your life Yourself, and it will follow You from relationship to another faithfully as Your shadow.

Again, if You don't my word for it:
Trust not Your happiness on others for what is given can be taken away. - from Type O Negative album sleeve
There is no bond that can unite the divided but love: all else is a curse. Accursed! Accursed be it to the aeons! Hell. - Aleister Crowley

Thanks, dudes, there is some solid truth in those posts... the kind i needed to hear

i was never good at sleeping around basically because i meet too good people to just use and throw away...

Things are already slowly looking up for me i think, the girl i was talking about is pretty cool and she's actually helping me a lot... and giving me the time i need. The worst thing is that the fresh ex just can't really understand and she loves me and doesn't want to let go. That situation might still get weird or ugly, i really don't know what to do or say, but i'll let things flow and hopefully i'll come out of this faster, better and stronger

thanks for your support, you people are just priceless

so right now i feel like complete shit because i've been on my feet since 10AM yesterday, working, studying, working out (college PE ) etc... but tonight i'll relax a bit, hopefully the mentioned girl will be a part of this. I really need someone who understands and she's been through very similar situation not long ago, so yeah...

i hope i'll not burst out in tears while selling someone a guitar or a ukulele... there are moments when it really gets to me, everything, what we were planning, what we've been through, losing her amazing figure and the absolutely amazing sex, losing her sense of humour... i just need some time. I hope I'll be back on track soon

Gonna whine:

I need a backrub, a blowjob, a drink a good night of sleep and a week without internet.

Also Facebook is broken and I'm at work - what am I supposed to do?

Fuckin shit. Someone's got my credit card info.

I gotta stop drinking alcohol for a while. I feel like shit all the time.

Hans Reichel died yesterday. I am flattened.
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A8uGNY2Qf9Y[/youtube]

Holy fuck I gotta get out of here. The environment is draining my ambition, it's becoming stifling. It's like there's an overall air of negativity in this house. Life is passing me by while I'm fucking around in here and that really burns me up. Sucks to say it, too. Things could really be better but various forces are combining to create a bunch of shittiness for everyone.
Moving out is gonna be very rough I think, but man, it's gotta happen.

Achtane wrote:Holy fuck I gotta get out of here. The environment is draining my ambition, it's becoming stifling. It's like there's an overall air of negativity in this house. Life is passing me by while I'm fucking around in here and that really burns me up. Sucks to say it, too. Things could really be better but various forces are combining to create a bunch of shittiness for everyone.
Moving out is gonna be very rough I think, but man, it's gotta happen.

Was broker than a Wall Street broker pre-bail out for the first two years but it was fucking worth it.

after the ex and the cops came and took two of the cats yesterday, i'm now waiting to hear back from the sheriff's department. i was advised to turn over my favorite cat because the ex was threatening to have me arrested otherwise, but she may not be able to get him due to the one-time pickup requirement that was part of the order. that would be funny. her lawyer quit. i'm just hoping i don't have to hand the cat over, because if i do i probably won't ever see him again. yesterday was one of the most dreadful days of my life.

dubkitty wrote:after the ex and the cops came and took two of the cats yesterday, i'm now waiting to hear back from the sheriff's department. i was advised to turn over my favorite cat because the ex was threatening to have me arrested otherwise, but she may not be able to get him due to the one-time pickup requirement that was part of the order. that would be funny. her lawyer quit. i'm just hoping i don't have to hand the cat over, because if i do i probably won't ever see him again.

What the fuck? She can have you arrested for not giving her your cat?

she got a protective order keeping me 200 feet from her and her pets via a false allegation of violence. if i'm within 200 feet of the cat, i'm technically in violation. my lawyer is going to court next week and filing a stay to re-hear the ruling on the cats; as i posted earlier in the week, i missed the original hearing because my truck broke down.

dubkitty wrote:she got a protective order keeping me 200 feet from her and her pets via a false allegation of violence. if i'm within 200 feet of the cat, i'm technically in violation. my lawyer is going to court next week and filing a stay to re-hear the ruling on the cats; as i posted earlier in the week, i missed the original hearing because my truck broke down.

I don't have words or a proper reaction image; this is the best I got: