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my attorney's supposed to have either negotiated an agreement to let me keep one of my cats or filed a stay of the court order today; i haven't heard back from him as to what happened. i hope to hell it's dealt with, because i really can't deal with another day of wondering when the cops are going to come down the driveway like fucking Ruby Ridge.

Turns out I failed my graphic design unit. Luckily I got a score close enough to a pass that allows me to do another assignment to try and boost my mark. I was looking forward to 3 months of no assignments

unownunown wrote:IS IT POSSIBLE TO DATE SOMEONE OUT OF THIS? (please say yes.)

Why would it not be?

That sounds pretty ideal really.

bleh bleh paper needs as much added as possible by noon in order to turn in a rough draft. Can't do any of the data analysis in this time (didn't have all of the data until this weekend), and what's left is boring ass procedure crud (which we really haven't done yet either).

So I'm just on ILF instead.

Edit: Nevermind, I seem to have missed a couple conversations...

snipelfritz wrote:bleh bleh paper needs as much added as possible by noon in order to turn in a rough draft. Can't do any of the data analysis in this time (didn't have all of the data until this weekend), and what's left is boring ass procedure crud (which we really haven't done yet either).

So I'm just on ILF instead.

Rough drafts are retarded. I never did them. If my teachers complained about that I'd tell them "I'll turn in the final. You can have it when the rough draft is due, or you can have it when the final is due, but once it's in it's in and that's it."

unownunown wrote:not knowing how to act towards someone after a weirdly romantic hookup (even saying hookup feels wrong) is not that fun. months of hardcore crushing have finally culminated. like for real, next morning we walked to the river and went back to his house for breakfast spotted cow. post sex talk was race theory and cartoons (gargoyles, duh). pre sex spent a few hours cuddling, talking about gear (also social theory) and listening to slowdive. also insanely awesome sex. IS IT POSSIBLE TO DATE SOMEONE OUT OF THIS? (please say yes.)

unownunown wrote:BEING BORDERLINE ASEXUAL IS HARD

WRONG TEAM BRO

unownunown wrote:not knowing how to act towards someone after a weirdly romantic hookup (even saying hookup feels wrong) is not that fun. months of hardcore crushing have finally culminated. like for real, next morning we walked to the river and went back to his house for breakfast spotted cow. post sex talk was race theory and cartoons (gargoyles, duh). pre sex spent a few hours cuddling, talking about gear (also social theory) and listening to slowdive. also insanely awesome sex. IS IT POSSIBLE TO DATE SOMEONE OUT OF THIS? (please say yes.)

Yes! You can always take another step. You may not know where you're gonna step or what you're gonna step in , but it really doesn't matter as long as you're wearing your rubbers.

McSpunckle wrote:
WRONG TEAM BRO

SPUNCKLE YOU SHOULD KNOW IT'S ALL VERY COMPLICATED.

i jelly

Ok, it's like this. We were in an open relationship, she is bi, and didn't have any experience with girls so I said ok, np. Then she started abusing it. Like we have an argument, she goes out and makes out with some guy. And she does that kind of shit for about half a year, then she comes to her scenes. I'm already at one nervous breakdown.
I mean, it was a fucking love story from the start, we met and that was it. She broke up with her boyfriend and everything was great.

Anyway, to continue the story, we're together, everything's ok, and she's like "you're smothering me" and I stop "smothering" her, and then she's all like "you don't care" etc. She breaks up with me,but it helped a ton. I worked out some of my issues with myself and I felt more free. And she gets together with some guy and tells me (I'm at nervous breakdown #2, I instantly go running in the rain to the forest to meditate cuz I really lost it >_<). A month goes by, I have let go at this point, found peace, and then the guerrilla starts. She fucking harasses me for a month, and I agree to see her under the condition that she didn't fuck the guy. We meet, we fuck cuz we're just like that. It's just so natural with her.. just makes it worse. :/ She lied about not-fucking him, heh.
Nervous breakdown #3.

And here we are at the present moment. I had a deal with her. If she stopped her retarded ego-trips, we'd stay together.
She didn't and I stayed, dunno, guess I just wanted to hope that everything would be ok.
I had to devalue our sexual experience cuz I would sometimes remember what she did and it would just hurt so much. :/
All I had left were her eyes, her laugh and her hair -which she, after 2 fucking years, stopped cutting and coloring. I hated the smell of the colors on her hair, it killed her smell for about a month or two -.-'

Last saturday, I wanted to talk to her about breaking up cuz I couldn't take her behavior anymore, she got pissed.
And we talked later, I thought everything was ok. She went and cut her hair and colored it.
After seeing her today, I could barely stand. I almost broke in half.
I know it sounds like a retarded thing to whine about, but it's the drop that spilled the water over the glass.

She never had her hair longer than her shoulders cuz she would get anxious and she would cut it.
We talked and she saw that it was just her stupid ego and she didn't wanna be like that. But there she is.

And I just can't take it anymore..
I'm I stupid? I mean, I'm not an angel either, but at least I didn't break up with someone I love, got hooked up with somebody, fucked them, and then returned to my love "hey, sry, I DO still love you, I'm sorry"..
All the stupid stuff I did could be resolved by conversation, and you can't erase fucking with someone. heh..

I just don't know what I'm doing or what to do.. :/

Fuck that...
Sounds like someone you need to get away from.

Walk away......just walk away.

There is no point in being with someone who thinks they can yo-yo your life.