The second post here when drunk/high thread...

[soldersqueeze]

Has no one on here been drunk/ high for 6 days?? Good lord, something's gone wrong...
Thanks to my friendly, responsible, local Tesco, I had to decide between one bottle of wine for £9.95 or three bottles of the same for a tenner. Gonna see how many of them I can drink during the next few hours of drone jamming, then watch the Super Mario Bros Movie. Oh hell yeah.

[kbit]

I had some fun times last night. Gin & Tonics all night.
Can't keep my eyes off dem girls.

[Birthday Boy]

Getting there!

I haven't posted in a while - doubt I was missed much. Maybe not just post in spite, rage..? Can't afford to go out this weekend. Also trying not to let this one girl go home with me me all the time. I like saying yes and hate saying no to things in general. Pseudo-problem if there ever was one. Also GASing for everything but am super broke.

Blondie is pretty good.

[snipelfritz]

Getting there!

I haven't posted in a while - doubt I was missed much. Maybe not just post in spite, rage..? Can't afford to go out this weekend. Also trying not to let this one girl go home with me me all the time. I like saying yes and hate saying no to things in general. Pseudo-problem if there ever was one. Also GASing for everything but am super broke.

Blondie is pretty good.

Trying not to let this girl go home? What's the problem? Is she not attractive? Then yeah, that's fine. Is she crazy but still attractive? Then I'm not sure...

And fuck yeah Blondie is good. Heart of Glass is a rager!

I've pretty much been mildly intoxicated constantly for the last month.

[Birthday Boy]

More like loud (um, in conversation) than crazy? And not ridiculously ugly but kinda.. a bit?

The reason it started bothering me (it sort of already did) was I was out and talked about philosophy/literature with one of my female friends who is smart and pretty good looking (if a bit highbrow - she wants me to come to some smart people club where they have presentations and talk about serious things) and ran into her and the comparison was a bit startling.

Edit: Not reeeally. It just makes me uncomfortable or something. Dunno.

[snipelfritz]

More like loud (um, in conversation) than crazy? And not ridiculously ugly but kinda.. a bit?

The reason it started bothering me (it sort of already did) was I was out and talked about philosophy/literature with one of my female friends who is smart and pretty good looking (if a bit highbrow - she wants me to come to some smart people club where they have presentations and talk about serious things) and ran into her and the comparison was a bit startling.

Edit: Not reeeally. It just makes me uncomfortable or something. Dunno.

Yeah, I know that kind of thing, where you feel like you're forcing yourself to see past something and be friends with this person and just the concept of that makes you feel kinda bad. Like you feel like you're concerned what other people will think of this person, but just the fact that you're thinking about that makes you realize it annoys you too, but once again you feel like a superficial douche the whole time. Sometimes its good just to get some space from people. I know how that goes, I'm having some weird identity/friend crises (word is a bit extreme but all I could come up with) lately.

[Birthday Boy]

Yes, actually. A lot like that.

Re: personality crisis

I had a thing about two years ago (I do that in springtime) and sort of reacted hardcore against nostalgia, romantic ideals (incl. romantic love). Which was my childhood in a nutshell. When I was young(er), until maybe 16, I thought that I could never have sex with someone I loved because it was too ugly and not reverent sort of. Anyway I killed that off to the best of my abilities (finally in a direct, almost confrontational sort of way 2 years ago). A violent acceptance of the world was the idea. Now I'm sort of counterreacting. A bit. Possibly a reason for the taking home the girl thing. Also not being held back by social convention and others' opinions was always a big point for me - which is why the other people part of your post sort of rubbed me the wrong way at first. If the "great acceptance" was a premise for me being a slut and I'm questioning those ideas (mostly for being unrealistic) that may be a thing (<-out of energy for word searching).

I say "sort of" a lot don't I? Also this post may or may not read like schizophrenia.

[snipelfritz]

Yes, actually. A lot like that.

Re: personality crisis

I had a thing about two years ago (I do that in springtime) and sort of reacted hardcore against nostalgia, romantic ideals (incl. romantic love). Which was my childhood in a nutshell. When I was young(er), until maybe 16, I thought that I could never have sex with someone I loved because it was too ugly and not reverent sort of. Anyway I killed that off to the best of my abilities (finally in a direct, almost confrontational sort of way 2 years ago). A violent acceptance of the world was the idea. Now I'm sort of counterreacting. A bit. Possibly a reason for the taking home the girl thing. Also not being held back by social convention and others' opinions was always a big point for me - which is why the other people part of your post sort of rubbed me the wrong way at first. If the "great acceptance" was a premise for me being a slut and I'm questioning those ideas (mostly for being unrealistic) that may be a thing (<-out of energy for word searching).

I say "sort of" a lot don't I? Also this post may or may not read like schizophrenia.

You just kinda lost me on that last sentence (of the bigger paragraph), but I can dig it otherwise. The whole "other people part" was kinda meant to feel shitty because that's how I feel about it, but (in my case) I think I'm realizing that I'm being concerned about what other people might think only because those concerns I push onto others are really my own. I just don't like being so critical, and I know I can just be irritable at times. That said, space is the solution to my issue I think. I just gotta get away from some of the people I've been hanging around with lately for a little while and reconnect with some other folks.

[alexa.]

Yes, actually. A lot like that.

Re: personality crisis

I had a thing about two years ago (I do that in springtime) and sort of reacted hardcore against nostalgia, romantic ideals (incl. romantic love). Which was my childhood in a nutshell. When I was young(er), until maybe 16, I thought that I could never have sex with someone I loved because it was too ugly and not reverent sort of. Anyway I killed that off to the best of my abilities (finally in a direct, almost confrontational sort of way 2 years ago). A violent acceptance of the world was the idea. Now I'm sort of counterreacting. A bit. Possibly a reason for the taking home the girl thing. Also not being held back by social convention and others' opinions was always a big point for me - which is why the other people part of your post sort of rubbed me the wrong way at first. If the "great acceptance" was a premise for me being a slut and I'm questioning those ideas (mostly for being unrealistic) that may be a thing (<-out of energy for word searching).

I say "sort of" a lot don't I? Also this post may or may not read like schizophrenia.

Don't shake off the whole concept as wrong, just view what parts made it wrong.
The truth is mostly to be found in the middle, the rarest place people go to look.
And if you're like, schizophrenic, I don't know, I'm like.. gone

[Birthday Boy]

If the "great acceptance" was a premise for me being a slut and I'm questioning those ideas (mostly for being unrealistic) that may be a thing (<-out of energy for word searching).

I wrote a long thing trying to explain this but still couldn't. I think I forgot what I meant.

Don't shake off the whole concept as wrong, just view what parts made it wrong.
The truth is mostly to be found in the middle, the rarest place people go to look.
And if you're like, schizophrenic, I don't know, I'm like.. gone

It just seemed like one of those things where I say something that's obvious to me and people have no idea. That happens to me enough that I'm sort of wary of it. I know there's a significant portion of my mind people don't get. I just don't know which parts on a case to case basis.

Also, which concept? Romantic love?

[soldersqueeze]

I don't understand the above threads, though I consider that a good sign that this cheap-ass wine is working.
Got ditched by my brother-from-another-mother for his girl, so no Super Mario Bros Movie for me tonight I don't blame him, but whatever happened to (super mario) bros before hoes? God damn it, onto bottle numero tres......

[spacelordmother]

I haven't posted in a while - doubt I was missed much.

WRONG YOU MISSED EVERYTHING WRONG

[alexa.]

Also, which concept? Romantic love?

every concept ever actually

[Fuzzy Fred]

So, I wake up on this fine sunday morning and think to my self, "self, let's go get high", so me and myself commence to smoke and get dunkin donuts. i get home and my mom asked where i went at 8am on a sunday and i told her i met a friend for coffee, and then my mom started to tell me this story about how she was telling one of her friends that i went out to colorado and didn't like the drug culture (LOL) and that she was so glad I would rather go get coffee than go get high.

wwwwwwhhhhhhooooooooooaaaaaaaaaaa

[snipelfritz]

So, I wake up on this fine sunday morning and think to my self, "self, let's go get high", so me and myself commence to smoke and get dunkin donuts. i get home and my mom asked where i went at 8am on a sunday and i told her i met a friend for coffee, and then my mom started to tell me this story about how she was telling one of her friends that i went out to colorado and didn't like the drug culture (LOL) and that she was so glad I would rather go get coffee than go get high.

wwwwwwhhhhhhooooooooooaaaaaaaaaaa

She knows man, and she's trying to guilt it out of you. But don't give in! You've got it maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaade!!!!!

And sweet jesus, you were up at 8am? What's wrong with you man? It's 2 in the afternoon and I'm still in bed.