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maz91379 wrote:It seems i failed a two credit unit by 5% and will now not graduate. Umm FUCK. Upset i wonder if i can somehow still pass will need to call school monday and find out perhaps if i dont do a double major or something i just can't take another few months of school and shit.

Holy shit man. I hope you can get this worked out.

maz91379 wrote:Eh not sure. Cupcakes can be pretty damn good. It's like comparing cupcakes to muffins. Both have something special to offer.

im more a cupcake person
girly icing and all

i always feel so weird saying yes id like the pink cupcake with the m&m smiley face plz

muffins are too organicky

i did a dumb thing last night. fuck. now i have a rather unstable emotionally girl thinking we have a "secret" relationship. i was drunk, desperate and needed to get laid. shit. i tried to just say what she wanted to hear so i could get some but it back fired. im fucked.

Five nights of sleep... Then two nights of insomnia. Stoopid crap stressing me out.

gloomy shitty shit day... my eyes hurt.

Still so fucking freezing in my house that I don't want to get out of bed.

I feel like I might be the most in control of my life that I've been for a while, but it's still completely unsatisfying.

grindonomicon wrote:Five nights of sleep... Then two nights of insomnia. Stoopid crap stressing me out.

im in the same boat

Amp repair still isn't done. Something glitchy with it yet. Plans cancelled for tomorrow. Starting to worry how much the repair is going to cost, cuz if it's going to be half the price of a Dunwich, to hell with that. I could put the $ down on a wizard 2, or there's a half stack for that price w/ the 100 watt version of that Laney on the cl.

tuffteef wrote:

grindonomicon wrote:Five nights of sleep... Then two nights of insomnia. Stoopid crap stressing me out.

im in the same boat

I'm thinking... Beer?

Not strictly limited to live journal.
from xkcd.com

I graduated last spring but because I was lazy getting my applications in to grad school I'm taking more classes so it doesn't look like I'm just taking a year off. The problem is that I don't care about the classes I'm taking. I mean, techinically I'm just taking them so that grad schools won't think I'm lazy, I'm not really taking them to earn credit towards a degree or anything so I'm just apathetic towards them. And because I'm doing homework for them in my spare time I don't have time to get my applications in to grad schools, or really shop around for grad schools. And I can't do poorly in these classes because I need the professors to write me letters of recommendation so I can get into a good grad school because apparently my gre score wasn't as high as I thought it was.

I desperately need to get out of Utah and grad school is my best chance to do so. Bottom line, lots of shitty life-direction determining stress.

Also, why the fuck am I so lonely? I hang out with people nearly ever other night and I'm still desperately lonely. Hell, if I'm not working on my studies the loneliness just consumes me. I used to not hang out with people for months on end and be perfectly satisfied by myself, and now...even if I'm with people I feel down. Maybe it's my fucked up sleep schedule and the lack of sunlight from being inside studying.

@ graf 1: you've kind of stuck yourself on the hamster wheel there. i don't mean to sound unsympathetic...when i was doing my AA i had a similar situation where i had a couple of courses i didn't actually NEED for my degree but was taking so i wouldn't have go to campus for one course 2 days a week, didn't really give a damn, but had to because i still intended to transfer to the state university at that point snd so my GPA mattered. so i made a cakewalk of a semester into a grind

@graf 2: are you sure? have you thought about, say, looking for jobs out-of-town in places you'd prefer where you have friends/family who'd help you out till you could get established? don't lock yourself into one idea. especially given the added debt you'll incur with more years of schooling; make sure they're going to be worth all the time you're going to spend paying them off. student loans take a LONG time to pay off.

@ graf 3: just hanging out with people isn't enough. you can be in the middle of a crowd of people and be as alone as if you were on Mars...it's a specialty of mine in fact. how much quality human time are you getting with people who really care about you? one hour of real friendship, of real love, is worth a week of beer-hall chatter, even if it's an hour on the phone with someone on the other side of the country. and sleep deprivation and lack of sunlight will definitely contribute to a sense of alienation, dislocation, and depression...therapists generally recommend regular exercise and getting out of the house as part of treatment for depressive disorders because they've been shown to improve mood and functioning, and the whole concept of light deprivation effecting emotion and affect is well established.

I just creamed on my sheets. And by "creamed" I mean "spilled cream soda."

Also, I think I'm getting sick.

well, at least that's better than spilling whipping cream on them...this way they won't smell like Death Goes To The Dairy after a day or 2 in the laundry basket.

The courses I'm taking are all math courses that I should help a lot when I get into grad school. And yeah it is something I've kinda done to myself, but I'm not sure what to do about it. I could drop my classes, but then I'd have to start repaying my loans and whatnot.

It seems you're not familiar with Utah culture. Not many people are because very few people leave Utah. My family's been in Utah for 4 generations (we came with the first settlers). Sure, some of them try living in other places but all of them have wound up back in Utah. I could try and get a job outside of Utah, but a BS in Poli Sci and Econ don't really count for much when it comes to looking for a job, not that it's a great time to be looking for a job anyway. As far as student debt goes I have about 15k so far and when I finish graduate school I plan on having at least 75k. That number isn't significantly smaller if I stay in Utah and go to school, plus I'd still have to deal with living in Utah

Well, about half the time I'm hanging out with friends that I've had for nearly a decade and the other half I'm hanging out with some people I met over the summer who are surprisingly awesome; plus I'm still pretty close with my siblings and call one or the other of them every day. It's not really random hookups with people I've never met before, so you'd think it would be quality time. But all the same, when I'm hanging out with them I feel okay, and when I'm by myself I find myself quite unbearable.

Maybe it's 23yrs of pent-up sexual frustration from living in this horribly repressed culture

I guess I'll find some new workout routine for the cold weather (I used to ride bike, but the cold weather's made that very uncomfortable), and straighten out my sleep schedule and see if that helps. In the meantime with school I'll just just have to suck it up, do the work, and submit my grad school applications, but I might not sign up for classes next semester because it has been unexpectedly crappy this semester. Thanks dubkitty, you've always had good advice or at least been able to relate.

p.s. I've been following your horrible breakup story on here. I haven't said anything because I have no experience whatsoever in that field, but all the same I hope things start getting better

OMG the flu is a MAC truck and I'm currently lodged between its axle of fever chills and its chassis of diarrhea.