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GAH I LOST TWO EBAY AUCTIONS FOR A 5 WATT AMP TODAY!!!! By a measly 33 fuckin' cents on the last one. I r usually a much better sniper.

dubkitty wrote:

D.o.S. wrote:Here's a hypothetical:
Can you unburn a bridge?

As it were, you know...

well, there's one i've been working on myself lately.

i honestly don't know. i suppose it depends on how bad the situation was, how well/badly you handled it, and whether the other party is willing to listen.if you were wrong, can you confess it honestly? without wallowing or denigrating yourself? if you were right, can you win without gloating? or let the other party win anyway if that's what the situation requires? that's the best i can do.

Oh yeah, it's a tricky bastard for sure.

But instead of being constructive and addressing the problem, I'm just diving headfirst into all my work.

Sweet Jeebus these readings for my Contemporary Political Theory class are kicking my ass. They're the mental equivalent of waking up at the bottom of a swimming pool that's filled with Tapioca pudding and having to eat your way out despite a severe allergy.

In other news, I totally strained both my quads today. Shit hurts, and makes walking suck so hard.

No big deal, it's not like I don't have a mile-and-change walking commute or anything.

Oh, wait.

Once again I have run my life into the ground in at least one regard. Fortunately, I managed to submit to my parents, get that long painful discussion out of the way before it was completely too late to pull myself out of this financial quagmire and before it started taking down the rest of my life with it.

Expect to see a sale thread in the FST real soon.

snipelfritz wrote:Once again I have run my life into the ground in at least one regard. Fortunately, I managed to submit to my parents, get that long painful discussion out of the way before it was completely too late to pull myself out of this financial quagmire and before it started taking down the rest of my life with it.

Expect to see a sale thread in the FST real soon.

Oh, and I'm going to have to explain to my parents when my Vox wah shows up at the door that I bought it with money I had gotten from selling another pedal and that my other delivery(Second Voice) was getting repairs done for under $30.

If my Second Voice ever shows up. I'm trying real hard to be patient, but Ken, baby, I want my interval generating fuzzy madness!

social bonding is great... made some cool friends tonight... it would have been cooler though if i haven't gotten woken up by CHAINSAWS AND HAMMER OUTSIDE MY WINDOW

i mean... i've came back in 4 in the morning... give me a break

snipelfritz wrote:^Is the rest of this page anything but nonsense? Post away.

Fair enough.

Is it just me or is our entire society constructed around smile, nod and forget your dreams? Unless your dreams are of being admired as a "success" within the established order of things ("you win at conformity") - your life looks good on paper because that was your only aspiration to begin with? I don't understand. Are they naive, brainwashed or just cynical social darwinists? Am I the only one who feels like everybody else is sleeping? I've never fit into the system and I can't see any way to do so. I need my life to be more. I need to do something that makes it feel worthwhile. Music for me is usually that thing, but I always have doubts about what I end up making and feel like it's insignificant, self-absorbed and just full of just the symptoms of meaning rather than actual meaning, and just the illusion of saying anything important. It might fool some people into thinking I'm "profound" or whatever, but how will that give me anything? It would be fake. My friend said I was the most self-critical person he knows (right before he was diagnosed with severe-ish clinical depression - ironic, maybe). I strongly suspect that I'm just spoiled and have never had to fight to just survive, and that this is the root of my problem. But, I still don't buy the argument that seems to be that unhappiness can be proven to be justified or not by looking at outer circumstances. Feelings aren't empirically falsifiable, they're just there.

When I show people my songs they always say really positive things, but I know their expectations for it aren't the same as mine. They're evaluating it as "something my friend scribbled down on a piece of paper and a few chords he threw it on top of". It's not my ambition to be good on that level, I want to be great. I want it to mean more than that.

Sick. Hate being sick.

I would give up a non-essential finger to never get a cold again.

@Birthday Boy: +1, cuz there's really nothing else to say.

jfrey wrote:Sick. Hate being sick.

I would give up a non-essential finger to never get a cold again.

Right ring?

I'd just love it to not have to wake up in a freezing cold room.

Also, Voter ID sucks!

@BB: it's not that most people are cynical Social Darwinists. it's that in a monetary culture, you have to do money-making shit to provide yourself with the basics of life, and the tools to be creative. most of the creative folks nowadays are doing their thing when they get home from work, which you can look at critically or you can look at as integrating their art into their daily life. as to whether your work has meaning or just the symptoms of meaning, i'm gonna tell you with all due love and respect, stop dithering around with that post-Derrida shit and PLAY. do you think Iggy sat around worrying about that stuff? do you think the Stones sat around worrying about that stuff? or gybe!, for crying out loud? if you're doing it, it has meaning. to turn deconstructionism back on you, if it has meaning to you, it has a meaning, and if it has "a" meaning, it has meaning. so play some music already.

meanwhile, in my life, i'm getting irritated enough at the gf's lack of communication that i'm working on having my old friend and musical partner Dan move out here around the end of the year to start a band with me and split the house if she doesn't come back. so if'n she doesn't get her shit together, she won't have anywhere to come home to.

@dubkitty: think we don't do? think we don't play? think those musicians DIDN'T think about it in a manner we do?
dunno. every great musician I know is like that. there are exceptions ofc, the differing point would probably be around 50%.

dubkitty wrote:@BB: it's not that most people are cynical Social Darwinists. it's that in a monetary culture, you have to do money-making shit to provide yourself with the basics of life, and the tools to be creative. most of the creative folks nowadays are doing their thing when they get home from work, which you can look at critically or you can look at as integrating their art into their daily life. as to whether your work has meaning or just the symptoms of meaning, i'm gonna tell you with all due love and respect, stop dithering around with that post-Derrida shit and PLAY. do you think Iggy sat around worrying about that stuff? do you think the Stones sat around worrying about that stuff? or gybe!, for crying out loud? if you're doing it, it has meaning. to turn deconstructionism back on you, if it has meaning to you, it has a meaning, and if it has "a" meaning, it has meaning. so play some music already.

representin' postmodernism

I know the social darwinism thing sounded sort of elitist, and I can admit to being elitist (as well as being pretentious). I try not to be. I (know I) overthink, but I can't help it. I'm still rewriting lyrics and ideas that are over a year old. I keep telling myself the sheer amount of effort put in will make it good, because I have no faith in having "talent", nor any inherent value in the act of writing. I know that's stupid in a way. I also know it's how I got better. If what I have now is all the things I mentioned in the previous post, it's still a lot more well-written and thought out than the other potentially self-indulgent and pretentious things I wrote before. There's also the whole issue of potentially sucking at guitar and singing, but I think I'll get back to writing the essay that I should've written already.

Also, for what it's worth I've read your posts as of late in this thread and tried several times to write something supportive or remotely helpful and failed, but: