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Kim is coming over to "pick up some stuff." like, at any minute. at least this week she doesn't sound like a hate monster. but it's scary, because any little thing could drive another wedge between us. i have to try to be ultra-sensitive and ultra-cool, and that's hard to do when you're still trying not to fall apart.

ashdown wrote:i look about 3 years younger than i am and it sucks when you're 20. white people problems

Dude, if I shave, I look like I'm 12. I'm 19. But, when I'd go to buy cigarettes for my friend, this one chick would always be working and she thought it was so cute how I looked so young, it actually pissed me off. Is that normal?

i mean looking this young will be gold when i'm 30 but when its interfering with my ability to bang girls my own age or one year older it sucks.

Fuzzy Fred wrote:

ashdown wrote:i look about 3 years younger than i am and it sucks when you're 20. white people problems

Dude, if I shave, I look like I'm 12. I'm 19. But, when I'd go to buy cigarettes for my friend, this one chick would always be working and she thought it was so cute how I looked so young, it actually pissed me off. Is that normal?

Tap dat?

Meh, once you hit 21 it really doesn't matter all that much. At least that's been my experience.

Burrr, it's cold in my room. I don't want to get out of bed.

Going go be in Anaheim for work till Saturday. So fucking gay.

dubkitty wrote:Kim is coming over to "pick up some stuff." like, at any minute. at least this week she doesn't sound like a hate monster. but it's scary, because any little thing could drive another wedge between us. i have to try to be ultra-sensitive and ultra-cool, and that's hard to do when you're still trying not to fall apart.

how did it go?

dubkitty wrote:Kim is coming over to "pick up some stuff." like, at any minute. at least this week she doesn't sound like a hate monster. but it's scary, because any little thing could drive another wedge between us. i have to try to be ultra-sensitive and ultra-cool, and that's hard to do when you're still trying not to fall apart.

Hmm... sounds scary... I hope you are alright and everything went well....

My problem:
My basement got flooded. I had everything down there... my pedal building workshop, my PC, my drumset, all my stuff like an oscilloscope, multimeters, components,.. . All my prototypes and finished pedals are buried under mud and water and dirt and I hate everything right now.
Mother nature, I hate you... go fuck yourself...

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Schlatte wrote:

dubkitty wrote:Kim is coming over to "pick up some stuff." like, at any minute. at least this week she doesn't sound like a hate monster. but it's scary, because any little thing could drive another wedge between us. i have to try to be ultra-sensitive and ultra-cool, and that's hard to do when you're still trying not to fall apart.

Hmm... sounds scary... I hope you are alright and everything went well....

My problem:
My basement got flooded. I had everything down there... my pedal building workshop, my PC, my drumset, all my stuff like an oscilloscope, multimeters, components,.. . All my prototypes and finished pedals are buried under mud and water and dirt and I hate everything right now.
Mother nature, I hate you... go fuck yourself...

Really sorry to hear that. There's been a lot of flooding in my area recently, and everyone says the mud is the hardest part to clean up.

Definitely have a cold.

Shit sucks.

it was tough. she comes over with her Dad because she doesn't feel comfortable being here with me alone, which hurts. he's in his 70s, so it's not like he's her security or anything. he usually stands around talking with me. she was kind of OK when she got here, but the longer she was here the more she sank into the anger that she uses to keep her emotions hidden...though there were a couple of times when she was loading stuff into the car that i saw the mask drop for a moment and the tears come to her eyes. she wouldn't accept help from me or Dad when loading stuff or taking it to the car, and forgot to take one bag of clothes, possibly because she was so upset. as she was leaving, i asked her if i could say something to her. she said "make it quick." i said "just try to leave a little smidgen of a possiblilty that it doesn't have to be like this." then they left, and i went inside and cried.