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Finally found a used smallsound/bigsound No memory online a couple of moths back. Paid a proper amount for it to have it shipped to me across the pond. Not been updated for ages now and seems like it's got lost in shipping. Gutted. First time this has ever happened to me with anything. Still, gutted.

fldrvr wrote:Finally made the decision to put my sweet little old lady cat to "sleep". She'd been hanging on, but it was clear that she was suffering. It's fucking me up to no end.

A big reason why is that her deterioration mirrored that of my mother, who died in 2018 of cancer (cat also had cancer). So yeah, that's brought back an avalanche of shit feelings.

Really sorry to hear that. Hard decision to make, even when you know it will give her some relief.

My family and I have had an extremely strained relationship since Labor Day. My sister and I had a really bad falling out after she was such a cunt to my fiance and me that we got into a yelling match, she said some truly horrible things about me and my fiance, and convinced my parents that I'm insane and unstable. This sent me into such a tailspin that I had a panic attack that sent me to the hospital and had to start therapy and medication. I've since had a heart to heart with my parents, but now my mom is an emotional wreck, my dad is distant, and they both are handling me like I'm a fragile cracked porcelain doll. My sister doesn't think she did anything wrong and is "upset" that I don't see her as an infallible, perfect goddess. And my brother is being a kumbaya, "just forgive and forget" hippie.

So yesterday I made the decision that visiting them during Christmas is simply not worth the effort, awkwardness, or potential hurt that would come from being around them. We're staying home, going to make a nice dinner, and just enjoy each other's company and start our own Christmas thing. All their presents have already been mailed to them and we're going to try again during a less stressful, holiday-free period. And while I know this is the right thing to do I'm strangely still upset by not being there. At least until I roleplay it in my head and I lose my shit.

Brains are strange, y'all.

spacelordmother wrote:

fldrvr wrote:Finally made the decision to put my sweet little old lady cat to "sleep". She'd been hanging on, but it was clear that she was suffering. It's fucking me up to no end.

A big reason why is that her deterioration mirrored that of my mother, who died in 2018 of cancer (cat also had cancer). So yeah, that's brought back an avalanche of shit feelings.

Really sorry to hear that. Hard decision to make, even when you know it will give her some relief.

thanks. time heals n all that. appreciate the support.

Small potatoes compared to most posts in this thread, but Rock and Roll Vintage keeps sending me demo/floor models when I purchase EHX pedals that are on sale. We're now 3 for 3 with the Cathedral and Ring Thing that just arrived. They were decent in the past with a partial refund on a Graphic Fuzz, though I'm thinking they may question a double whammy scenario. Buyer beware.

Bassist_Diver wrote:My family and I have had an extremely strained relationship since Labor Day. My sister and I had a really bad falling out after she was such a cunt to my fiance and me that we got into a yelling match, she said some truly horrible things about me and my fiance, and convinced my parents that I'm insane and unstable. This sent me into such a tailspin that I had a panic attack that sent me to the hospital and had to start therapy and medication. I've since had a heart to heart with my parents, but now my mom is an emotional wreck, my dad is distant, and they both are handling me like I'm a fragile cracked porcelain doll. My sister doesn't think she did anything wrong and is "upset" that I don't see her as an infallible, perfect goddess. And my brother is being a kumbaya, "just forgive and forget" hippie.

So yesterday I made the decision that visiting them during Christmas is simply not worth the effort, awkwardness, or potential hurt that would come from being around them. We're staying home, going to make a nice dinner, and just enjoy each other's company and start our own Christmas thing. All their presents have already been mailed to them and we're going to try again during a less stressful, holiday-free period. And while I know this is the right thing to do I'm strangely still upset by not being there. At least until I roleplay it in my head and I lose my shit.

Brains are strange, y'all.

Sorry to hear about all this. Hope your holiday is smooth and happy.

more confusion than irritation - I watched a video about DaVinci Resolve (video editing software) and now (because Youtube's algorithm is garbage) I've been introduced to this whole world of visual/tech demo/reviewers who just make demos about the ability to make demos. Like $30k in Mac Pros to make videos about benchmarks for editing videos about making benchmarks.

Knowing that there's a world worse than guitar and pedal demos is horrifying.

Update from my post about Milo in the happiness thread; last update was So last night we noticed he wasn't eating much and was very lethargic. At first we thought this was due to the pain meds they gave him. But then he started breathing very fast and shallow, had a lot of snot and other mucus oozing from his eyes and snout, and occasionally would have bouts of extremely heavy wheezing/difficulty breathing and then he would hack up a huge pile of mucus or some other thick fluid. We kept an eye on him all night but this morning he wasn't responding to us, wasn't eating, and wasn't drinking. Plus his breathing got faster, sounded watery, and he was wheezing a lot more. After two hours at the animal hospital he was found to have a fever, was two pounds LIGHTER (he was already very underweight), and diagnosed with aspiration pneumonia. For the unaware, it's a rare side effect of being put under anesthesia for any animal, including humans; basically you get some fluid from elsewhere in your body into your lungs while you're drugged up during a procedure. Nothing you can really do to prevent it and we're not blaming the shelter or vet team that neutered him.

The good news, though, is that 1. we caught it within 12 hours of it developing, so it didn't have a chance to spread and is isolated to only one part of one lung, it's 2. NOT a result of his heart worms, 3. NOT contagious, and 4. when they X-rayed him they also assessed his HW damage and found it to be extremely minimal, indicating this is a more recent development than the shelter thought and makes it all the more treatable. The bad news, however, is A. he needs to stay overnight in the hospital for IV antibiotics and fluids because of how malnourished/underweight he is (IV antis will act much harder and faster than orals and ebbs the severity of antibiotics'.... "dehydrating" effects), B. hospital stays are god damn expensive, and C. he'll need to wait another week or two before he can start on his HW treatment.

It was a very bittersweet Christmas morning - we're happy we were able to get him taken care of early and know this was the right thing, but we're still worried about him and miss having him around.

Also, I know this may be against the rules but fuck it - I have some pedals FS in the classifieds. I originally was moving them just to have the cash but now I need to sell them to help cover his hospital bill. I've dropped the prices a bit to sweeten the pot. I know y'all are all probably stretched with the holidays, but if there's anything you want or need please consider giving one of my toys a shot.

I've kinda come to hate Year's Eve and July 4 because it's such a goddamn nightmare when you have a dog.

Achtane wrote:I've kinda come to hate Year's Eve and July 4 because it's such a goddamn nightmare when you have a dog.

No kidding. Some fireworks already tonight in the neighborhood (fuckers) but our new furry family member seems to be doing okay with it so far. Hope that holds.

Achtane wrote:I've kinda come to hate Year's Eve and July 4 because it's such a goddamn nightmare when you have a dog.

I considered it as a joint bday/friend's engagement/NYE thing, but there are so many dogs around. Doesn't stop my neighbor from shooting his fucking elephant gun

TraceItalian wrote:

Achtane wrote:I've kinda come to hate Year's Eve and July 4 because it's such a goddamn nightmare when you have a dog.

I considered it as a joint bday/friend's engagement/NYE thing, but there are so many dogs around. Doesn't stop my neighbor from shooting his fucking elephant gun

Ugh. I'm glad I don't live in Texas, anymore, where rednecks would fire fucking shotguns during every holiday like we didn't live in the suburbs.
It snowed pretty decently last night, so I doubt there'll be any fireworks or idiots with guns this new year's.

Water is to human as firework is to hick.

The most unprofessional tree crew I've ever seen must be doing a low price special in my neighborhood because everybody's suddenly having their trees very poorly chopped down.

Who uses a bucket truck to fell a tree after sundown, with no lighting, while bumping the bucket into power lines? These guys.

Our next door neighbors hired them and we came home tonight to big-ass trucks and machinery in our backyard, our gate off its hinges, and motherfuckers chilling in our yard with their shit on the front steps. They said that they got in touch with the landlord and she gave them permission to use our yard.
They packed up and said that they would reattach the gate "soon" but actually just went home for the day.
Heard back from the landlord and she never talked to them, like I thought.

I don't know how they managed to do it, but in the process of removing the gate from its hinge, they pulled up one of the posts, concrete and all. So now the gate can't even be closed.

They left some shitty hand tools behind that mysteriously fell into the trash can shortly after they left. Fucking assholes.

I broke/chipped off the corner of a molar, time to find out if my new dental insurance is worth the cost. (Doubtful)