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i also work to find things in the future to look forward to, so everything isn't focused on the Now i don't like. that's a big part of why i've been to 15 concerts this year, and now i'm planning a road trip for next September that'll take me all over the Rocky Mountains and back out to California for a visit.

If you just stay busy, you'll trick yourself into living a long healthy life.

Fuck school bands who play that white stripes song like it was fuckin bach

dubkitty wrote:i have at least one want-to-die moment every day, but i've begun to get good at counter-argument. "no, you don't really want to die, you just want things to be different. and there are other ways to accomplish this."

That is a very wise insight, dubkitty.

my last therapist was really good at giving me these kind of strategies. when i'm really worried, she also taught me to talk to myself as though i was my Mom and tell myself "it'll be all right, honey...try not to worry for now."

Usually reading Buddhist books gives me a sense of peace during times of trouble, but recently when the practice asks me to engage with the world on its own terms, instead of giving me courage, I feel like "lol absolutely fucking not"

i ran out of weed on Saturday night on the way home from The Orb show in Brooklyn, and now the nightmares are back. and i'm totally broke till i get paid next Wednesday. this weekend is going to suck.

It's not the same thing but you should be able to find some CBD oil or gummies or whatever near you, no?

thats makes sense....seriously.... balancing back...
ask bud dude for a front...

i only have $18 to my name at the moment, and have to buy gas, noms, and cat food.

was having a convo other day about cannabis and dreams....most dont dream while using cannabis....ive been dreaming somthing fierce....
fucking gas!

i pretty much always dream, but when i'm not smoking the nightmares get progressively longer, darker, and more terrifying. before i started again they were so bad i'd go bolt upright in bed in the middle of the night.

D.o.S. wrote:It's not the same thing but you should be able to find some CBD oil or gummies or whatever near you, no?

That shit is WAY more expensive than regular pot. I can't believe the CBD prices.

That being said, I found an excellent one if you need a recommendation. It's not cheap however.

i think i'm just gonna hang till next week, and sleep as much as possible. i really don't have any other option.

dubkitty wrote:i only have $18 to my name at the moment, and have to buy gas, noms, and cat food.

Same, dude.

I have, like, 3 different bills that want to destroy my bank account right now, too.