The Confessions Thread

[D.o.S.]

Real confession: Wowee Zowie is a seriously killer album, even though Pavement is one of those bands that, culturally, I feel ambivalent about.

[dubkitty]

i entirely relate to the BPD thing, because that's my disorder/problem/whatever. have you ever heard of Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT)? it's a system that teaches you ways to deal with some of the BPD symptoms cognitively so you can control them to some degree along with medication. check it out...it's helped me a lot. they're also prescribing anti-convulsants e.g. Topamax, Lamictal, Depakote to BPD people with good effects. Topamax + Lamictal have been very helpful for me. they've found through brain scans that brain activity during BPD rage episodes is very similar to brain activity during epileptic seizures.

it's really important not to mess with depressants a lot in conjunction with this condition, i've found...i take Klonopin for anxiety, but i've found that drinking to excess and recoeational depressants really exascerbate the mood swings and are best avoided. i also can't smoke Indica weed for shit, and have to smoke sativa/high-sativa crosses; indica totally depresses me. all this is just me, but seriously, check out the DBT and medication.

[snipelfritz]

I've not heard of DBT, but my P-doc has considered putting me on lamictal.

Yeah, weed, I know I should lay off it, but god damn, it's one of the few things I enjoy anymore.

[dubkitty]

not so much weed, but drinking and the downs. depressants also don't really help with the underlying depression that goes along with BPD.

[phantasmagorovich]

It's just that when I know my life could've been better if I hadn't "developed" this condition and hadn't exacerbated it and continue to. I could've been productive, independent, in grad school or some kind of steady career path, maybe(and that's a big maybe) even happy, but here I am, living with my parents, still hardly able to get myself out of the house, and when I do, acting recklessly because it's the only way I can feel something anymore and escape from the hell the rest of my life has become.

Dude, I have no idea if this is any help, but a good friend of mine went through the same shit and he is pretty well now. I don't even know if he's still on meds but my guess is that he is. It took him many years, most of the time was wasted with trying to get off the meds, move out of his parent's house too early or doing something else he was yearning to do but it was just too early. I can only guess at the hell he went through and I remember the first couple of years he was so changed and sedated by his meds it made me want to throw up. But he eventually got better and more of the fun, creative, dedicated person he used to be. He will never be the same, but that is just because people get changed by what they experience. He is now starting a new job in England after numerous setbacks when trying to get out of his parents house and I am sure he will do excellent now. What I am trying to say - hang in there, life can get better.

[DarkAxel]

long-distance relationship is fine so far

except for the fact i met so many fine and awesome young female students in last two weeks it's not even funny

I COULD i just don't want to

why am i even posting this

i'm just bitching, that's why

[futuresailors]

^Easy fix
1. Go visit gf
2. Smash with power of Thor
3. Dick's sore till next weekend
4. ???
5. Profit

[DarkAxel]

dude i expected an answer like this

but the problem is that...

I'M A FUCKING SEX MACHINE

confession time over

[Officer Bukowski]

Whoever said that guys are just pussies that are really good at hiding it have obviously never met me

I'm pretty sure I'm not the attractive sensitive type either.

unknownunknown - for what it's worth, this girl I was really into gave me her phone number and we set up a date where we'd hang out and I never called her. I definately didn't forget about it and I wanted to be with her but I didn't call her. I was gonna type up some explanation but it boils down to me basically being a pussy.

I guess she just seemed older than me and I felt like she couldn't be into me. But she gave me her phone number and stuff without me asking so I really don't know. It probably seems like yeah she's obviously into me but I really don't think she was. I'm pretty sure most guys are not like this but I dunno I guess that could be why he didn't call.

Then again there's also this girl who makes it really obvious to me that she wants me pretty hard and I'll probably never hit her up. I'm just not attracted to her. I still flirt with her all the time though, I'm really torturing her. How is it that I can be such a pussy and such a douchebag at the same time?

[jfrey]

What you need to do is just go for things. Set yourself in motion and think about it later.

It's like when I'm snowboarding and I'm on a really steep slope, or going to hit something way bigger than I should in the terrain park. I just throw myself off, and I'm still debating whether I should or not when I'm way past the point of no return, but then there's no choice.

Also, be straight forward. Game shit is not for men. About six years ago I walked up to a girl that lived in the same dorm hall as me and said "I'd like you to be my girlfriend." Been together ever since.

What's the worst thing that could happen if you call this girl up? Maybe she isn't interested anymore? So what? Go out and find someone that is.

Also, I mean all of this in the most caring way possible. Like a loving boot to the ass.

[snipelfritz]

There's a very large gap between cowardice and douchbagery. However, they ofter appear to be the latter when it's actually the former at play.

[Officer Bukowski]

Jfrey - I know. Next time I'm totally doing that

snipelfritz now you have me examining the root of my douchebaggery. And yeah I'm pretty sure it might just be me being lame again. I guess I lead her on because sometimes I feel there's a slight chance that I might wanna hook up with her sometime but then I get bored and remember that I'm just not attracted to her. I feel like maybe I should at least give her a kiss because it would make her really happy but I don't want to break her heart because I know I'm not gonna stick around with her.

[D.o.S.]

What you need to do is just go for things. Set yourself in motion and think about it later.

It's like when I'm snowboarding and I'm on a really steep slope, or going to hit something way bigger than I should in the terrain park. I just throw myself off, and I'm still debating whether I should or not when I'm way past the point of no return, but then there's no choice.

Also, be straight forward. Game shit is not for men. About six years ago I walked up to a girl that lived in the same dorm hall as me and said "I'd like you to be my girlfriend." Been together ever since.

What's the worst thing that could happen if you call this girl up? Maybe she isn't interested anymore? So what? Go out and find someone that is.

Also, I mean all of this in the most caring way possible. Like a loving boot to the ass.

Go Big or Go Home strikes again!

[dubkitty]

if women were giving me their phone numbers i'd be carving them into the back of my hand so i didn't lose them before i got home. opportunity isn't evenly distributed through life. don't miss out. it's better to have memories of things you did than of things you wish you'd have done.

[DarkAxel]

if women were giving me their phone numbers i'd be carving them into the back of my hand so i didn't lose them before i got home. opportunity isn't evenly distributed through life. don't miss out. it's better to have memories of things you did than of things you wish you'd have done.

i somehow doubt this could relate to my post, too... because it works both ways