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Yeah, I've been ignoring them a while because there were multiple times I had the money and was gonna send it but them some big bill or whatever suddenly appeared and stole it all.
I might just have to give in and do payments (even though I really would rather not be making payments to the IRS post-Trump).

My dad died earlier this year and I've been selling off his collections for my mom ever since, I had to get $400 out of the account to cover my brother's car rental for the holidays because he couldn't afford it. I didn't want him whining until she threw the keys to her Kia at him (leaving her with no transportation).

He's 42 years old and makes north of $200k. Sort of looking forward to telling him to fuck off and die forever one day.

i need to vent a little. in the last two weeks i've been diagnosed with high blood pressure AND diabetes. as such, i'm likely going to have to give up soda and sweets. since i had to quit smoking dope earlier in the fall, this means that i'll pretty much have to give up everything special that i like. this is the first time in my life that i've had to deal with these kinds of health issues, and it's really weighing on me...i feel like my life is spinning out of control, and it makes me really angry and depressed. i've always been able to eat and drink whatever i like, and i'm really bummed about it. it's one thing to give up recreational drugs, but now i can't even have a fucking Coca-Cola? WTF?

Balls man. I'm sorry to hear this. As they say though, time marches on, and you will find new things. I know transitions are irritating and having to drastically alter your lifestyle is always bullshit for sure. There are numerous blogs dedicated to peoples journeys as they deal with everything you are now, and I bet you'll find some cool things that can become new loves. I'm sure you want to punch me in the face after trying to cheer you up but it's worth trying to be optimistic.. we're always here if you want to just bitch too man. It's cool. Have a happy holiday the best you can.

dubkitty wrote:but now i can't even have a fucking Coca-Cola? WTF?

Dude, it's hard as hell at first, but it's ultimately a real boon (never mind the whole warding off early death thing and keeping one's toes for as long as possible). Once you stop drinking soda for a while, everything else tastes immensely better. I gave it up a few years back for similar reasons and was blown away at how much flavor was packed in stuff I'd thought was bland my whole life, plus lost 30 lbs in like 2-3 months with no other changes. Can't even drink it or eat candy and the like now, the sugar literally burns my taste buds. (Gave up fast food [especially burgers] shortly thereafter and had similar revelations + weight loss, too.) Definitely worth the challenge.

The Eristic wrote:

dubkitty wrote:but now i can't even have a fucking Coca-Cola? WTF?

Dude, it's hard as hell at first, but it's ultimately a real boon (never mind the whole warding off early death thing and keeping one's toes for as long as possible). Once you stop drinking soda for a while, everything else tastes immensely better. I gave it up a few years back for similar reasons and was blown away at how much flavor was packed in stuff I'd thought was bland my whole life, plus lost 30 lbs in like 2-3 months with no other changes. Can't even drink it or eat candy and the like now, the sugar literally burns my taste buds. (Gave up fast food [especially burgers] shortly thereafter and had similar revelations + weight loss, too.) Definitely worth the challenge.

This is truth. I gave up soda and fast food too (although occasionally I fall of the fast food wagon when my son wants to go to BK). I'm having a nice cup of Earl Grey right now and can't even imagine drinking Coke anymore. And aside from weight issues, your teeth will start liking you again if you give up Coke.

Agree with the above. Same story here. I gave up soda and fast food a few years ago and feel much better for it. Every time we go out now I end up with a stomach ache, feel gross then tired. Eating healthy is pretty damn rewarding. You will feel like shit for a week or two after giving up the junk but then you start to feel better than ever. Then healthy food will start tasting better than you would ever believe.

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Well, we are almost positive my grandma is going to die now. She came out of the hospital and seemed aware of what was going on. Then she fell the next day and they did not put her back into the hospital for some fucking reason. The day after that her oxygen consumption dropped way down. She was in the 80's, which is not good. That could be brain damage. So, since then, she has been in the hospital and not improved at all. Zero progress. Not responding and in a coma like state. She's not eating, drinking, moving...nothing. The hospital has no clue what to do. I've had to instruct them to do several things. Put her on fluids (I mean, come on...what the actual fuck is wrong with them), check her catheter since she has a uti and seems to be in distress, increase her oxygen and check it more frequently. Good God they are idiots. I feel like everyone in that hospital is a bunch of fucking morons or just does not give a fuck because she's 87. She doesn't need to suffer though.

Last night one of the nurses suggested putting her on morphine. I said "are you kidding me"? That is part of the reason she is here in the first place. the home she was in put her on pain meds and they believe that caused her fall as well as caused her respiratory distress. So in essence it killed her. She's going to die. We just don't know when.

Last night was the now or never scenario. Either she would bounce back today or they are almost certain she never will. She's been like this for three days now.

I guess it's fitting in a way. My grandfather was admitted to the Hospital on Christmas eve 12 years ago and died the next month. Her husband. So, maybe she just wanted to be with him.

Pretty beside myself here. Having trouble managing my stress. I blew a blood vessel in my eye yesterday because of this. I just don't know what to do.

aw, fuck man, that's terrible. i'm so sorry.

Jesus Was a Robot wrote:Well, we are almost positive my grandma is going to die now. She came out of the hospital and seemed aware of what was going on. Then she fell the next day and they did not put her back into the hospital for some fucking reason. The day after that her oxygen consumption dropped way down. She was in the 80's, which is not good. That could be brain damage. So, since then, she has been in the hospital and not improved at all. Zero progress. Not responding and in a coma like state. She's not eating, drinking, moving...nothing. The hospital has no clue what to do. I've had to instruct them to do several things. Put her on fluids (I mean, come on...what the actual fuck is wrong with them), check her catheter since she has a uti and seems to be in distress, increase her oxygen and check it more frequently. Good God they are idiots. I feel like everyone in that hospital is a bunch of fucking morons or just does not give a fuck because she's 87. She doesn't need to suffer though.

Last night one of the nurses suggested putting her on morphine. I said "are you kidding me"? That is part of the reason she is here in the first place. the home she was in put her on pain meds and they believe that caused her fall as well as caused her respiratory distress. So in essence it killed her. She's going to die. We just don't know when.

Last night was the now or never scenario. Either she would bounce back today or they are almost certain she never will. She's been like this for three days now.

I guess it's fitting in a way. My grandfather was admitted to the Hospital on Christmas eve 12 years ago and died the next month. Her husband. So, maybe she just wanted to be with him.

Pretty beside myself here. Having trouble managing my stress. I blew a blood vessel in my eye yesterday because of this. I just don't know what to do.

That's rough, jwar, I'm so sorry.

I am so sorry Jwar. I know this sounds simplistic, but have you tried some kind of meditation? It has really helped me at different times. I am not as consistent with it as I would like to be, but it is one of the only non-medication ways to handle stress effectively. Also, exercise, but you know that one.

Sending you love and peace.

fell on my ass today, hard, in the snow. everything is way harder than it needs to be when you literally can’t use your ass. bending over, standing up/sitting down, coughing, etc. causes extraordinary pain.

jwar i’m sending you all my love. i cried in the airport terminal when i read your post yesterday. what you’re going through, i’ve been through as well so it really hits me close to home.

Passed my night on a bathroom floor, skin completely numb and mind completely drunk. The mead I was drinking was either bad or way stronger than advertised. I think if it wasn't for my friends quick actions I might have not made it. Doing anything hurts like hell.

This is a stark reminder that I am not in my early twenties anymore.

Now conscious, head is clear but I feel like I was ran over. At least I can play guitar. :P

Told my parents that we're engaged and my dad's reaction was "huh." while my mom's amounted to "you don't need to be getting married yet."
So that feels awesome. Thanks.
Her family is already trying to take control and plan all this stuff that neither of us want.
Maybe it would have been better to just not tell anybody. A move and a courthouse are looking promising.