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psychic vampire. wrote:Both of my romantic partners had separate devastating news this week, and I have been asked to not mention it to friends, but it is making me confront a lot of feelings about impermanence and mortality and yadda yadda yadda. they are both being very stoic and I just want to break down.

Related bit of words from someone else:

....For those of us on the fringes (and let's face it with 7,000,000,000 people in the world right now, even those of us at the very extremes of the curve, have at LEAST a few million others just like us out there somewhere right now - no one is alone!). If I can die knowing I've helped put a few of us outsiders in touch, helping one another, particularly helping pass on what we know to other new people, and encouraging each other to be more proud of who they are, I will be a happy man.

Thanks y'all. Been a lot of weird conversations in the last few days, confronting weird realities I never really anticipated when I was younger, and tryna deal with my own health on top of it.

On the brighter side, I just witnessed skunks having sex in a ditch under my room mate's car, and that has to mean something good.

psychic vampire. wrote:Thanks y'all. Been a lot of weird conversations in the last few days, confronting weord realities I never really anticipated when I was younger, and tryna deal with ,y own health on top of it.

On the brighter side, I just witnessed skunks having sex in a ditch under my room mate's car, and that has to mean something good.

new band name?

for PV.
Plus I had a giggle at the mental image of those skunks going at it.

Do they emit smells whilst in the act? Like is that hot for skunks to finish up by spraying each other?
If that's the case....your poor roommate is gonna have a stank ride.

So I kinda ended up crashing and being basically borderline comatose for the last couple of days because apparently it's not good to sleep as little as possible because sleep is shit when you keep having weird, depressing dreams. I keep having weird ones involving my mom, who has been either in a hospital or nursing home for the last 10 months (hospitalized in April last year, moved into nursing home in June).

I think a lobotomy sounds nice right now.

Also, might not be appropriate or whatever, but I don't know if it's better to start experiencing this kind of shit when you're older, or when you're younger. I mean, I was 8 when I had a parent die, and it definitely screwedup my mental state for a long time, but I think it's nice that the shock of "whoa, these people can die" was kinda gotten out of the way then. I mean, my mom basically being removed from my life is shit, and I dunno when things will get back to feeling normal, but at least I'm kinda familiar with it or something?

Losing parents/grandparents/loved ones in general is fucking shit tho.

I... I don't know how to be single. What the fuck am I supposed to do with myself? How can I enjoy anything? Where the fuck am I going to live?

Inconuucl wrote:Where the fuck am I going to live?

This is the only thing you have to figure out now.
Everything else will sort itself out sooner or later.

MEC wrote:

Inconuucl wrote:Where the fuck am I going to live?

This is the only thing you have to figure out now.
Everything else will sort itself out sooner or later.

yeah
and it doesn't stop
ever
sucks
BIG:hug:

This whole long distance thing is taking a daily beating on me. I never realized how much I needed validation.

decomposing wrote:

MEC wrote:

Inconuucl wrote:Where the fuck am I going to live?

This is the only thing you have to figure out now.
Everything else will sort itself out sooner or later.

yeah
and it doesn't stop
ever
sucks
BIG:hug:

I found a friend with a spare room, I'm moving to Boston...I'll be more at peace with myself away from this damn city. Thanks guys, I appreciate it. Now I just need to sell my heavier stuff locally.

Sorry to hear that.

But hit me up when you get to Boston and I'll swing down and buy you a beer.

waltdogg wrote:This whole long distance thing is taking a daily beating on me. I never realized how much I needed validation.

Shit is the fucking worst. I don't know how some couples do it for years. I made it 9 months, couldn't take it anymore, and moved 3000 miles. Best decision I ever made!

Inconuucl wrote:

decomposing wrote:

MEC wrote:

Inconuucl wrote:Where the fuck am I going to live?

This is the only thing you have to figure out now.
Everything else will sort itself out sooner or later.

yeah
and it doesn't stop
ever
sucks
BIG:hug:

I found a friend with a spare room, I'm moving to Boston...I'll be more at peace with myself away from this damn city. Thanks guys, I appreciate it. Now I just need to sell my heavier stuff locally.

nice!
I need to do the same.
pronto.
this area is svcking my soul out.

Andrew » Tue Feb 09, 2016 1:27 am
I feel like i'm one of the few dorks on the internet that doesn't give a shit about Deadpool.

well count me aboard this train too

Inconuucl wrote:

decomposing wrote:

MEC wrote:

Inconuucl wrote:Where the fuck am I going to live?

This is the only thing you have to figure out now.
Everything else will sort itself out sooner or later.

yeah
and it doesn't stop
ever
sucks
BIG:hug:

I found a friend with a spare room, I'm moving to Boston...I'll be more at peace with myself away from this damn city. Thanks guys, I appreciate it. Now I just need to sell my heavier stuff locally.

Congrats! It's a fun and silly expensive place here to live! Where in the area you moving?