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Ugly Nora wrote:

Wes Mantooth wrote:
I hate to go over people's heads but I'm probably going to email the CEO and the Director of my department with samples of my work. I already know they are just going to say keep calling people. Yeah that's right, hire me to check in with a customer who has one order of $400 and really does not care to to talk to me because they have actual work to do. Our company does $20-$30 million annually in revenue. I'm sure the office vending machines bring in more cash.

CEOs love being bothered with low level operational bullshit.

Weirdly enough, he does. He has meetings with me to just go over random stuff or just talk about clients I'm calling. He loves talking sales.

That's messed up. Is he a micromanagement type of control junkie?

Yeah I'm going to wait til my next paycheck or two and leave. Having a set plan to quit will put me at ease a bit I'm sure. Plus I feel better today since I got to spend an hour and a half driving to pick up parts for manufacturing. As long as I can cruise and listen to music I'm a happy dude.

I'm much more qualified to work in Student Affairs at colleges and that's what I want to do but the hiring process at colleges and universities is sooo slow. Around a month and a half after the application deadline and you might get a call. I'm sure I could find part time work, I like driving and a I like pizza so a pizza delivery job would be fine with me.

Thanks for the words of encouragement. Whenever I try to ask my family advice on it they just tell me to stick with it for a while.

Ugly Nora wrote:That's messed up. Is he a micromanagement type of control junkie?

No not in that case, he's just really friendly and wants to help me understand the business. We make custom cables and wires so learning the different things we've been making for customers takes a while. He has weeks where he is always out meeting with customers and when it's slower he has an open door policy to his office if I ever have questions.

i don't complain when they don't give me any work to do. i just hide out in the bathroom and make beats all day. its fun to get paid for bleep bloopin and poopin

u can always flip your perspective on how ur looking at. it does suck to be bored all day tho. i hear ya

Dr. Sherman Sticks M.D. wrote:i don't complain when they don't give me any work to do. i just hide out in the bathroom and make beats all day. its fun to get paid for bleep bloopin and poopin

u can always flip your perspective on how ur looking at. it does suck to be bored all day tho. i hear ya

Yeah cause I have to be around and look busy but just with nothing really to do. Eventually I'm sure they'll start giving me more stuff and It's very possible it could be worse than boring.

I feel like the time I finally feel confident enough to do something about my work environment that annoys me (ie close a door to a noiseyconference room), everyone inside looks at my like im an uptight ass. Bleh.

Lets see how it goes when I finally get annoyed enough to tell the guy next to me he has to stop singing so loudly while he works.

Tomorrow I'm driving back to Utah for a few weeks. There's a bunch of stuff I need to do to prepare for my trip, but right now I'm kinda paralyzed with anxiety about seeing everyone again.

Also, I've been under the impression that my Econ cohort was relatively drama-free, but this week I found out there has been a lot of drama going on in secret that only the characters involved knew about. This kinda shakes my trust in the people I thought I was good friends with, because I don't really feel like there should be secrets between friends. I know I've been an open book about everything I've been doing, but I guess no one else has been. So, it makes me feel a bit like I haven't actually made any friends here...

Looking for new jobs and doing businessy things makes me want to puke. I have to keep reminding myself that I need to change my life and that it can be better.

Change can be a good thing. Like a personal revolution. Viva la' revolution!! Just embrace it dude.

Ima trying. It's difficult when I never went to college, so I don't have credentials to help me out. I know I don't have to say it, but retail is damaging to the soul. I just need something to pay the bills and afford me some disposable income so I can do something with my own art and whatnot. I need more time and energy away from work.

gunslinger_burrito wrote:Ima trying. It's difficult when I never went to college, so I don't have credentials to help me out. I know I don't have to say it, but retail is damaging to the soul. I just need something to pay the bills and afford me some disposable income so I can do something with my own art and whatnot. I need more time and energy away from work.

It's never to late to further your education. I didn't get my act together till my 30s and then spent most of it studying. Now I have 2 trades and a diploma of music and another for sound production.

Any way you can whore out your art? It's not selling out if you need to pay the bills!

I have no qualms whatsoever with selling art, the issue is that people don't want to pay what it's worth. I've done tons of trades for everything from tattoos to pedals and even a couple guitars thanks to some ILF bros. I'm super-appreciative of all that, but I haven't found a way to make any sort of income from it. I just get stuck not knowing what direction to take, because I need time to myself, I don't know how to get the bills paid if I want to go to school and not lose my mind. What I REALLY want to do is get into tattooing, but.....it's been years of trying. Even if I get on track being productive outside of work, whether it's art, music, whatever that gets me in a direction I'd like, I at least need a job that I don't hate going to until some of those things can support me even at least a little bit.

i feel painfully sad, deep in my bones and blood
its organic, melancholic depression which is good bc i have been lucky enough not to experience too much trauma in my life but i am still finding it close to impossible to deal with

Sorry dude!
I get that sometimes, too. Sad about EVERYTHING for no reason in particular. When it passes, eventually, I look back and think, "why did I feel that way?!"
I hope it passes soon for you.