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I feel like everyone I know really just likes picking on me.

All the new Allens jelly bean flavours are dreadful. Wouldn't be so bad if they had kept the originals as well but nope.

i hate changing my medication. i'm simultaneously sleepy and nervous as a bug under a magnifying glass.

I got scammed at a Good Will store today. I bought 4 cd's - they were all supposed to be $1.97 each. But I was charged $2.97 each. I didn't realize it at the time because I was busy looking at some Latina chick's ass who works there. I finally realized it when I got about halfway home and her ass began to fade from my memory. I guarantee this was a setup and I am not the first or last victim of this operation. In retrospect though, I would gladly pay $4 to look at her ass again.

dubkitty wrote:apparently mental health = washing dishes

Something I do when I'm upset is clean. If I've had a really bad day I just go home and clean my apartment until I calm down. I got this from my mother, but I guess there are worse ways to deal with mental anguish It also means if I'm happy my apartment's probably a wreck

Yeah, I do the whole don't-play-guitar-for-fear-of-being-bad thing too. If I can force myself to do it I still enjoy it. Though, that is hard to do sometimes...

having a really hard time...i'm showing withdrawal from Ativan even thiugh i'm on Klonopin, and it's really unpleasant if thankfully intermittent. i've been through this before, and it sucks.

now i'm worried because the veneer-in-a-box flooring in the living room is buckling, and i'm afraid the landlady will want to throw me out so it can be fixed. i really can't deal with moving now.

Kitty man, have you ever heard of Kratom? It's a plant that is used for anxiety and stuff, but also pain management and general chillaxing. Check out http://www.greenleafkratom.com/. I've tried it because I take Klonopin and it doesn't always work for me. This stuff helps sooooo much. My sister uses it for you lymes disease pain, but it's great for anxiety dude.

interesting...

dubkitty wrote:interesting...

It is indeed!! It says it's not for human consumption, but it totally is. LOL. It's illegal in a lot of countries, but the United States is not one of them. I know it's another "drug", but the way I see it, is it's no worse than any pharm crap I've been on.

It's cheap enough to try or at least run past your doctor. I read about it before taking it. Just mellows me out.

Time crunch.

kbithecrowing wrote:http://www.thedailybeast.com/articles/2014/05/27/your-princess-is-in-another-castle-misogyny-entitlement-and-nerds.html

Not the article itself, but the topic. Realizing the trend of terrible people and terrible problems.

It's an interesting point and certainly should be said. However, I am strongly of the opinion that the Elliot Rodger case should be used to examine mental health care and that using it for any other purpose is self-serving and pretty low. Anyone who goes on a shooting spree should not be used as a cross section of society.

Ugh, I'm up until 5am again and I'm still waiting to hear about this job I interviewed for like 2 weeks ago.

snipelfritz wrote:It's an interesting point and certainly should be said. However, I am strongly of the opinion that the Elliot Rodger case should be used to examine mental health care and that using it for any other purpose is self-serving and pretty low. Anyone who goes on a shooting spree should not be used as a cross section of society.

Don't be stupid.

dubkitty wrote:medication changed again. felt off-kilter all day long. i really don't like not knowing what my brain chemistry will do at any minute but it's not possible to switch without the seams showing. it might give me the crucial combination of energy and indifference needed to get my physical reality better sorted out. the kitchen is going to go Code Red if i don't deal with it soon. apparently mental health = washing dishes

Ugh this is why even though my Lexapro has lost efficacy, I'm scared to go back to the doctor and do the drug carousel to my brain.

I had to give my roommate 30 days notice (he's a dipshit and creates a hostile environment and painted shitty poetry all over the walls of the room he's subletting, without asking anyone so like good riddance) but my stomach has been in knots about it for days and I feel like this next month is going to be absolutely grueling. He's pretty childish so I'm sure he won't be a normal, reasonable adult about it. I just hope he doesn't kill my cat or steal my guitars or burn stuff.

A friend of mine from 20 years ago is arguing with me on Facebook because he refuses to acknowledge or believe that some people are successful because of luck, circumstances, or lack of adversity. In his view, all success is earned and unsuccessful people are lazy. If he was a teenager, I'd almost understand, but bro is my age (35). He should know better. Everyone is one bad day from losing it all.

My days of having loud ass jams are over. My deaf neighbors just brought home a baby, which is awesome for them, but not so much for me. Their bedroom is right over mine.