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I'm honestly surprised it hasnt happened already.

Shit, anything to at least feel like I'm in a band. Some of y'all are lucky, I'd give my right foot to play in front of people, even if it was one of those shitty gigs with like, five people. All I wanna do is play and theres literally no one.

OMG I am so happy that I don't have to play with, or in front of, anyone. Being in bands is the worst.

BitchPudding wrote:I'm honestly surprised it hasnt happened already.

Shit, anything to at least feel like I'm in a band. Some of y'all are lucky, I'd give my right foot to play in front of people, even if it was one of those shitty gigs with like, five people. All I wanna do is play and theres literally no one.

I'm still trying to figure out where to meet other weird musicians that want to jam on some Flaming Lips or Strokes type stuff. They all seem to already be in bands.

UGH.

IEatCats wrote:

BitchPudding wrote:I'm honestly surprised it hasnt happened already.

Shit, anything to at least feel like I'm in a band. Some of y'all are lucky, I'd give my right foot to play in front of people, even if it was one of those shitty gigs with like, five people. All I wanna do is play and theres literally no one.

I'm still trying to figure out where to meet other weird musicians that want to jam on some Flaming Lips or Strokes type stuff. They all seem to already be in bands.

UGH.

Why don't we live closer to eachother?

Seriously, its like everyone out here is ether in a band or in some metal band which really isnt my style at all. I can't find anyone out here thats weird enough to play with. Bleh.

I have no clue how to even find these people. I'm still MAD new to this city.

spacelordmother wrote:OMG I am so happy that I don't have to play with, or in front of, anyone. Being in bands is the worst.

Playing live is the best. Playing shows is the worst.

I bet this is how people in wheelchairs feel when someone complains about having to take the stairs.

Agreed.

D.o.S. wrote:

spacelordmother wrote:OMG I am so happy that I don't have to play with, or in front of, anyone. Being in bands is the worst.

Playing live is the best. Playing shows is the worst.

Yesterday I got a random email through my bandcamp from a booker asking me about my availability to play shows at their clubs. In Seattle. Where I no longer live.

I was like -- really?

(also it's not like there's even anything very good on my BC atm...)

D.o.S. wrote:

spacelordmother wrote:OMG I am so happy that I don't have to play with, or in front of, anyone. Being in bands is the worst.

Playing live is the best. Playing shows is the worst.

Can be true. I've never had that horrible an experience, but then I''ve never done too many bar shows, more house parties, self organised things and paid gigs for personal stuff (so the organisers actually want it to go well!)

i'm still a biy fragile to play with other people, but i'd like to because i'm tired of me, you know?

boy, am i ever tired of me. the wife of someone i know killed herself last week, and i'm all "how come a person with two grown kids in graduate school, a good job, and a house in San Francisco has the balls to do it while i who have nothing but guitars and a cat cannot." i so don't want to be here any more. but Lulu needs me so much...when i'm home she can barely stand to be away from me for five minutes. if i could stand to give her up method would be the only problem. boy, was i disappointed to discover that cyanide is controlled substance. but i have to take care of my little girl. it could be that the reason she came to me was so i couldn't kill myself.

i notice that the change in my meds is making my suicidal ideation more intense. gotta get on them about that at the clinic appointment next week.

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dubkitty wrote:i'm still a biy fragile to play with other people, but i'd like to because i'm tired of me, you know?

boy, am i ever tired of me. the wife of someone i know killed herself last week, and i'm all "how come a person with two grown kids in graduate school, a good job, and a house in San Francisco has the balls to do it while i who have nothing but guitars and a cat cannot." i so don't want to be here any more. but Lulu needs me so much...when i'm home she can barely stand to be away from me for five minutes. if i could stand to give her up method would be the only problem. boy, was i disappointed to discover that cyanide is controlled substance. but i have to take care of my little girl. it could be that the reason she came to me was so i couldn't kill myself.

i notice that the change in my meds is making my suicidal ideation more intense. gotta get on them about that at the clinic appointment next week.

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dubkitty wrote:i'm still a biy fragile to play with other people, but i'd like to because i'm tired of me, you know?

boy, am i ever tired of me. the wife of someone i know killed herself last week, and i'm all "how come a person with two grown kids in graduate school, a good job, and a house in San Francisco has the balls to do it while i who have nothing but guitars and a cat cannot." i so don't want to be here any more. but Lulu needs me so much...when i'm home she can barely stand to be away from me for five minutes. if i could stand to give her up method would be the only problem. boy, was i disappointed to discover that cyanide is controlled substance. but i have to take care of my little girl. it could be that the reason she came to me was so i couldn't kill myself.

i notice that the change in my meds is making my suicidal ideation more intense. gotta get on them about that at the clinic appointment next week.

Duder, if you are really having heavy suicidal thoughts. Get. To. A. Doctor. Now. Call a hotline. YOU are not as alone as you feel. Almost everyone who has attempted suicide and survived expressed an almost instantaneous sense of regret at their decision.

Hyphen Nation wrote:

dubkitty wrote:i'm still a biy fragile to play with other people, but i'd like to because i'm tired of me, you know?

boy, am i ever tired of me. the wife of someone i know killed herself last week, and i'm all "how come a person with two grown kids in graduate school, a good job, and a house in San Francisco has the balls to do it while i who have nothing but guitars and a cat cannot." i so don't want to be here any more. but Lulu needs me so much...when i'm home she can barely stand to be away from me for five minutes. if i could stand to give her up method would be the only problem. boy, was i disappointed to discover that cyanide is controlled substance. but i have to take care of my little girl. it could be that the reason she came to me was so i couldn't kill myself.

i notice that the change in my meds is making my suicidal ideation more intense. gotta get on them about that at the clinic appointment next week.

Duder, if you are really having heavy suicidal thoughts. Get. To. A. Doctor. Now. Call a hotline. YOU are not as alone as you feel. Almost everyone who has attempted suicide and survived expressed an almost instantaneous sense of regret at their decision.

Agreed. Call a hotline now and get some help. It would suck to not have you sound here anymore. Much love.