dubkitty wrote:finally going off to the county clinic tomorrow to get one of my meds renewed. i hate it when i run out, because it makes me extremely uncomfortable and likely to go off on major rage tangents at the drop of a chapeau. i've been spending the last 24 hours trying not to rip people a new asshole on line.
but i hate having to take them, too...i deeply, deeply resent having to have my brain controlled. the problem is that if i don't take them i fall apart and become suicidally depressed and utterly non-functional.
i'm having another period when i just don't want to be here any more.
ohhhh DK
my first instinct
is to say itll be alright
and tough it out kiddo
but thats probably the last thing
you wanna hear right now
wall mart greetings
are like nails on a chalkboard
if im going to pick up my meds
and ive been out for a couple days
wanna throw up at the guys feet
stand back and watch him slip in it
and while hes layin there
all pukey and broken hipped
tell him if he tells me to have a nice day
ever again
next puke
im gonna punch both my fists in his butthole
rip his sphinxter wide open like a shopping bag
and make my next vomiposit into his gaping crapsnatch
but as my rx is dissolving under my tounge
and i leave that godforfucked place
i say,ohhh you too,sir
like im surprised he was nice enough to acknowledge me
for the nine thousanth time
i feel you pain bro
i hate this fuckin place sometimes too
at least hate being a rational human being in it
and the show tomorrow is pretty important 
