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bob the r0bot wrote:this always makes me feel better in bad weather
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IT'S FUCKING COLD

and


"Why does my car feel like a pair of ice skates?"

well played TFW.

ryan summit wrote:what is going on
everybody i know has this thing
hey dark axel
arent you in a different country
meaning not in the us
and your coughin gnarly too
not that anyone cares much
but im a howard stern fan
religious one at that
the first thing he says when he gets back today
hes fuckin same sick too
im not one for apocolypse notions
but uhh
ive had this for a month now
and its not gettin better
or worse
it just is
im not gonna worry til tom cruise gets sick

dunno, man maybe i will be a torn carcass and that's how we all die

but let me tell you

i just woke up. in two hours, i'm supposed to sit an important final

and i've had my share of crazy dreams before, but tonight, i went fully delirious... not sure if i even slept very much, my head hurts and i'm pretty shaken up

fuck

sad dreams about my ex, AGAIN. i hate it when t wake up at 5:30 with this kind of shit.

also, i got an e-mail regarding the California job asking the difficult questions about my experience that had been avoided so far. which means that i have to write one one of the most important e-mails of my life this morning and sell myself like an evangelist or a two-dollar whore. crap.

sent off the e-mail just now, basically telling them that i'm reasonably current in Framemaker even though my last job was all Quark and InDesign and that i can pick up the PowerPoint stuff i'll need. now i wait with nervous stomach to hear back as to when/whether we'll do the phone interview tomorrow.

meanwhile, i started up the HR-16 after cleaning out the sliders and leaving it to sit and acclimate/thaw for 24 hours, and it works just as well as it did the last time i used it in 1995. coming soon: loop improvisations with percussion content; coming later: MIDI clock sync for drum machine-to-keyboard and drum machine-to-MIDI-rackmounts sync, and potentially MIDI-to-CV conversion for controlliing pedals with an expression jack.

Just received the first round of hospital bills for the kidney stone treatment. $2600 out of pocket for the first trip. No new gear this year.

now that's adding OUCH to OUCH.

Got a weird message on fb from an acquaintance, it's just really rambly and there's not like a question or anything and I can't quite make out the point. If my interpretation is correct they're just being nice and offering to talk if I need it (I think about queer stuff because as an older gay man he feels like he can help?) which is nice, but the message and getting it makes me so fucking uncomfortable. HOW DO I RESPOND. It says something about starting and deleting several times, and yeah well I wish that's what you did, not that I don't appreciate the kind intent but I feel really stressed. And it's silly because this isn't a thing to freak out about but here we go. I'm a little tempted to just ignore it, but I would feel a little bad about that since the only problem here is one I'm creating by being bad at talking to people on the internet. IRL it's easy to talk normally, stop someone halfway through if you're not sure where they're going and stuff. But talking to people I don't know on the internet like sending important emails or things like this where I don't know the person that well or they say something weird UGHHHHH.

/stupid bullshit because I needed to rant and I can't really talk to any irl friends because they know the guy and I don't think that's cool

How I feel about women:

Fucking Paypaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllll...
Of course I don't have a land line anymore, you assfucks, I don't live in a third-world country.

oh dude
i feel foreya
BECAUSE FUCK PAYPAL!!!
when you try to do it with a cell
they figure it out the fucks
yeah wait for that letter to come
fuck them hard
right in their moneyhole

Steam sales and a 15-20 page scientific paper due on monday isn't a good combination at all.

just lost my job....and currently broke from Christmas and a few uunexpected expenses....May have to start selling off gear for rent and food. or maybe get in the crack game. maybe I should just blow out my brains now and spare myself the embarrassment of moving back in with my parents

Well now I feel bad for having stupid problems. Hang in there man, I'm sure things will turn around, and moving in with your parents wouldn't be the worst thing that could happen!

Kate's still sick

We've moved plans to tomorrow, again. Hopefully this time it'll work out.