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Dr. Sherman Sticks M.D. wrote:

WeHuntKings wrote:Rediscovering how to be alone and not in a committed relationship really fucking sucks.

dude know that feel bro...but learning how to be alone is one of the best things u can do for yourself, for your mental. forrealz.
i basically lived on an island for many years. all by myself, very few friends. i learned alot about myself, and what I wanted out of life. it was one of the, if not the most, valuable experience in my life...yea i got lonely at times, but i wouldnt change it for the world.

tuffteef wrote:ive honestly never wanted a sea change more in my life then right now

im considering south korea

just so tired

dude my bro has been living in south korea for like 5+ years now. he loves it! i hear seoul is poppin as fuck

yeah ive heard really good things about it
it terms of city and finding work in the audio game

alexa. wrote:if so, your dreams should have some content, so write them down.

well

today i dreamt of people dying

also playing a concert

so either i really crave killing or i really need that upcoming show

Just angry. Angry at a lot of things: stupid/annoying people; Republicans, my own self-destructive tendencies, my illness, how many drugs I have to take all the time (take the words "drugs" and "have" very, VERY loosely), and how I can't find a great girl who wants to be with me too.

Just kinda pissed. Fortunately, I have nothing scheduled for tomorrow but a day of practices for both of my bands, which will involve a lot of weed smoking (mostly by myself unfortunately).

DarkAxel wrote:

alexa. wrote:if so, your dreams should have some content, so write them down.

well

today i dreamt of people dying

also playing a concert

so either i really crave killing or i really need that upcoming show

your feelings are important, not the events themselves. figure out when you feel the same in RL, and try to compare the situations and figure out the patterns. should help.

Had to work today which wasn't an issue, working 10-4. But I set my alarms like I was getting up at normal time and apparently turned them all off, and was woken up by my fiance calling wondering where I was two hours later...

There are people in this world who believe that Jason Mraz is capable of pulling off an Otis Redding cover legitimately. The fuck kinda shit-heap world am I living in?!

i'm becoming a bone of contention for my cousin here. i may have to sell tons of stuff fast so i can fix my truck and get out of here and go back to California. apparently my presence here is going to up his rent $150/mo. which he says he can't afford. and this just isn't working for me in general.

okay... the Flanger Hoax seller is not responding to my mail

i'm afraid i'm not getting back my $150 ever...

You get it off ebay? I know their messaging system has been a little screwy the past few days as I tried to get in contact with a guy about an item and ended up having to personally email him because he wasn't getting my messages

I think it may have been the Hoax on our B/S/T...

I'm really sorry to hear that Dubkitty, it always sucks when you feel responsible for complications coming up on other people. What's wrong with your truck?

And Snipeltitz, I REALLY relate with you, your whole post was pretty much what I could post about currently in this thread. However within the last month I have found someone, really really great, and it was when I least expected it, and in a way I least expected it. It's gonna happen, and all of this will make it THAT much better.
Trust me, I'm the Doctor.

Psyre wrote:I'm really sorry to hear that Dubkitty, it always sucks when you feel responsible for complications coming up on other people. What's wrong with your truck?

it's missing on one cylinder and has an oil leak.

i may have overreacted...Doug is reassuring me that it's OK/not my fault. but my instinctive reaction is to look for the door. especially when i'm deeply depressed and weary from two years plus of broke-and-lost. i've been back to fighting the suicidal ideation this week. and all i want in the world is a stupid regular life where i get up in the morning, ride the bus to work while listening to music on headphones to distract me from my boring life, work, and come home the same way i left to a warm room with a cat in it. apparently that's too much to ask.

it was bought locally, no B/S/T, no ebay

that's the problem

so i'm currently starting to offer it for trade for something cheaper to compensate the need to change a pot

dubkitty wrote:

Psyre wrote:I'm really sorry to hear that Dubkitty, it always sucks when you feel responsible for complications coming up on other people. What's wrong with your truck?

it's missing on one cylinder and has an oil leak.

i may have overreacted...Doug is reassuring me that it's OK/not my fault. but my instinctive reaction is to look for the door. especially when i'm deeply depressed and weary from two years plus of broke-and-lost. i've been back to fighting the suicidal ideation this week. and all i want in the world is a stupid regular life where i get up in the morning, ride the bus to work while listening to music on headphones to distract me from my boring life, work, and come home the same way i left to a warm room with a cat in it. apparently that's too much to ask.

I hear ya, what sucks is sometimes, as difficult and shitty as it is, we have to force life to work. I know that sounds like the easy solution, but that is exactly what I have done, I work at staples, and the first cat I ofund I freaking grabbed and ran to my house, and now I force him to cuddle with him (for 30 seconds at a time, he allows) and I am just happy. Really happy, the other day coming back from my gf's my tire blew, and I made myself laugh, and change it, and everything is going to be ok.

I'm friends with Devi on FB and now my news feed is all just her. :C

BMSR and APTBS are playing tonight at Mohawk but I have to have a Fun Fun Fun Fest wristband to get in... Fuckin Austin and all the damn Festivals...