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I'm about to fall asleep, and I start hearing sounds from the other side of my makeshift wall. The very apparent sound of something like paper of plastic accidentally being kicked. It happened a couple times, definitely not the pipes or house settling. The cat isn't even inside, so it wasn't that. I'm fucking sick of my anxieties and having nights like this so often. I want to spend the night with my fucking girlfriend, and not be alone and so prone to worrying all the god damn time. Hopefully I can calm down soon, if the much slighter now noises go away/I can identify them as something else. I'm only on here, because nobody's on FB chat. Sorry for the scared post.

Part of it's probably that I saw Saw III today, and for some reason it fucking freaked me out. The first two I was fine with, but that one hit some cord in me, with the random gore, and basement surgery and shit. I don't know. I might just be having a weird night, but fuck whatever made that sound earlier.

ive honestly never wanted a sea change more in my life then right now

im considering south korea

just so tired

Dicked around with my amp. Probably fucked it up more. I have a cheap shitty soldering iron and mad hand tremors. Problem is I can't really afford to send it to a tech.

le sigh. Good thing I band members with spare amps I can use.

gunslinger_burrito wrote:

jfrey wrote:

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I'm so drunk and sad

Mitch Lucker? Or who?!

My friend Zach. I was so drunk last night that I put the wrong date. Oct 31 was his birthday. He died Oct 17, 2011.

WeHuntKings wrote:Rediscovering how to be alone and not in a committed relationship really fucking sucks.

dude know that feel bro...but learning how to be alone is one of the best things u can do for yourself, for your mental. forrealz.
i basically lived on an island for many years. all by myself, very few friends. i learned alot about myself, and what I wanted out of life. it was one of the, if not the most, valuable experience in my life...yea i got lonely at times, but i wouldnt change it for the world.

tuffteef wrote:ive honestly never wanted a sea change more in my life then right now

im considering south korea

just so tired

dude my bro has been living in south korea for like 5+ years now. he loves it! i hear seoul is poppin as fuck

we've just had an awesome rehearsal, but i still feel like useless shit why?

DarkAxel wrote:we've just had an awesome rehearsal, but i still feel like useless shit why?

Delicious crab meat.

no, i actually feel like a stupid wannabe

is this why people gear-purge?

Hmm. Heck I don't know. You're pretty vague about the matter so I can't really tell.

Lately I'm just pissed off and I want a Rat (modded to old specs), a Xerograph, a tuner, and a Boss Space Echo.
GIVE ME SIMPLICITY

I have no idea what happened, the rehearsal was marvelous, energetic and stuff and then it ended and i came home and just felt stupid. Like... fed up with what i was doing? Feeling like i'm trying to be creative and original but it's just useless and retarded? that sort of thing

i don't know

oh and the Flanger Hoax i just bought... it has a faulty Blend knob. didn't notice at first, that shit pisses me off though... also it might be just too much for me... anyone interested in a Flanger Hoax that needs one pot replaced/rewired and maybe is willing to do a partial trade for a Boss PH-2?

jfrey wrote:

gunslinger_burrito wrote:

jfrey wrote:

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I'm so drunk and sad

Mitch Lucker? Or who?!

My friend Zach. I was so drunk last night that I put the wrong date. Oct 31 was his birthday. He died Oct 17, 2011.

FUCK! Sorry dude! For what it's worth, you can have an internet fuzz-bro hug. . .

DarkAxel wrote:I have no idea what happened, the rehearsal was marvelous, energetic and stuff and then it ended and i came home and just felt stupid. Like... fed up with what i was doing? Feeling like i'm trying to be creative and original but it's just useless and retarded? that sort of thing

i don't know

Sometimes when one practices something over and over, it just loses its "freshness." I wouldn't worry too hard about it. If you have any aspirations of touring, you'll be playing those songs a LOT more. I also felt completely emotionally drained after my show the other day. I just chalk it up to "blowing your load," basically.

DarkAxel wrote:I have no idea what happened, the rehearsal was marvelous, energetic and stuff and then it ended and i came home and just felt stupid. Like... fed up with what i was doing? Feeling like i'm trying to be creative and original but it's just useless and retarded? that sort of thing

stop trying, let it flow. if you have to strain yourself to do music, you're doing something wrong. music is easy, music is fun, music is wonder-full. experimenting with really different music opens creative doors for me, so there's that.

just don't worry about it too much, but try to figure out the source of that feeling. could be just your subconscious trying to tell you something. if so, your dreams should have some content, so write them down.

thanks to both of you, some nice ideas there... i will think about it

just sliced my foot on one of the latches on my guitar case....also found out that my blowing up makes my mini cut out completely and slowly fade back in. was kinda stoked on chocked sputtery lead toanz, but I guess I'll just have to rearrange things

RR Bigman wrote:just sliced my foot on one of the latches on my guitar case....also found out that my blowing up makes my mini cut out completely and slowly fade back in.

guess it's Blowing Up.