i've been more emotionally open since i changed my medication; this is good because i've been hiding and terrified for fifteen years. however, the charming activities of the neighborhood kids makes me very sad sometimes. i'm terribly afraid of being old, and it is with great poignancy and bitterness that i look back and feel that i wasted my good years chasing my tail, following the Grateful Dead, and trying to please women who wanted more from me than i can give. now i'm 56, and i don't know how much time i have left. this scares the crap out of me.
In girum imus nocte et consumimur igni
FIFTY YEARS OF SCARING THE CHILDREN 1970-2020--and i'm not done yet
dubkitty wrote:i've been more emotionally open since i changed my medication; this is good because i've been hiding and terrified for fifteen years. however, the charming activities of the neighborhood kids makes me very sad sometimes. i'm terribly afraid of being old, and it is with great poignancy and bitterness that i look back and feel that i wasted my good years chasing my tail, following the Grateful Dead, and trying to please women who wanted more from me than i can give. now i'm 56, and i don't know how much time i have left. this scares the crap out of me.
It could always have been worse. You could be a financial analyst.
We had like... 4 hours of rehearsing yesterday, did a shitton of work, resurrected a song we haven't played for about a year and a half... it sounded all good and one of the jams ended so well it was like... aw-strucking
but my valves started acting up (changing volumes during the first hour... then i turned it off and on again and it worked without problems for 3 another hours) and i'm just WORRIED because it's kind of a big deal for me... it's a launch party of our first EP, it's in our hometown, in our home-club one might say... a lot of friends etc...
i'm just nervous... mostly worried about the amp tho... i have no money for new valves right now
anyone else think it's really rude to be texting someone constantly while you're hanging out with other people? a few texts whatever but like having a conversation with someone else just makes me feel like shit. there's a breathing, thinking, feeling person in front of you who is taking the time out of their life to spend it with you, talk to them? it belittles my efforts to spend time with someone. feeling pretty down about the disparity of emotion in some of my relationships with people. I guess I need to be more selective in who I spend time with. I don't think I ask for much. sorry it's just 5am and everyone is asleep
i still remember smoking a cigarette while waiting for a page to load over my 28.8 modem. things were so much more simple then, back at the turn of the 80s/90s.
In girum imus nocte et consumimur igni
FIFTY YEARS OF SCARING THE CHILDREN 1970-2020--and i'm not done yet
The other night I had an uncomfortably graphic dream about Louis C.K. fucking Elizabeth Banks. Now Zack and Miri make a porno is on and it's really weird for me.
BOOM-SHAKALAKALAKA-BOOM-SHAKALAKUNGA
Behndy wrote:i don't like people with "talent" and "skills" that don't feel the need to cover their inadequacies under good time happy sounds.
I have really bad gas constantly. Like, REALLY bad. Like, clearing rooms, my friends getting away from me as soon as they know I've let one go kind of thing. I'm really glad my co-worker is sitting 4 chairs down from me right now...
snipelfritz wrote:The other night I had an uncomfortably graphic dream about Louis C.K. fucking Elizabeth Banks. Now Zack and Miri make a porno is on and it's really weird for me.
D.o.S. wrote:I'm fucking stupid and no one should operate under any other premise.
kbithecrowing wrote:I have really bad gas constantly. Like, REALLY bad. Like, clearing rooms, my friends getting away from me as soon as they know I've let one go kind of thing. I'm really glad my co-worker is sitting 4 chairs down from me right now...
Have you seen a doctor about it? It may be symptoms of a greater health problem.
psychic vampire. wrote:The important take away from this thread: Taoism and Ring Modulators go together?
…...........................… Sweet dealin's: here "Now, of course, Strega is not a Minimoog… and I am not Sun Ra" - dude from MAKENOISE #GreenRinger
kbithecrowing wrote:I have really bad gas constantly. Like, REALLY bad. Like, clearing rooms, my friends getting away from me as soon as they know I've let one go kind of thing. I'm really glad my co-worker is sitting 4 chairs down from me right now...
Have you seen a doctor about it? It may be symptoms of a greater health problem.
I haven't, I always thought it was just me consuming more dairy than usual. I have a physical coming up, though.
Dr. Sherman Sticks M.D. wrote:u got those vegan farts homie?
Nah, I don't walk that path. But it would be interesting to try sometime.
D.o.S. wrote:I'm fucking stupid and no one should operate under any other premise.