i've got this rather creepy background-level depression going on that makes me want to do something incredibly stupid and self-destructive just for the sake of entertainment. if i was just given the opportunity i wouldn't just flirt with disaster, i'd happily run off with it....if i didn't have some instinct for self preservation. but i've built up a truly enormous amount of Don't Give A Fuck given the extent to which i have to detach myself from my unpleasant and terrifying reality.
In girum imus nocte et consumimur igni
FIFTY YEARS OF SCARING THE CHILDREN 1970-2020--and i'm not done yet
I've done and witnessed some fucked, vile, depraved things. The regret and shame of those events made a home in my head and when I think of those things it brings a smile to my face. Although I no longer live my life that way, i'm not ashamed to admit to the things I've done. But no fucks brings no luck, I still haven't entirely given back for all the harm I've done. I'm almost 26 and life has already taken its fair share from me.
Welp, I kind of just posted on my ex-girlfriend's facebook and alluded to the fact that I've been trying to avoid her. Even though I still think about her everyday.
Fuck.
D.o.S. wrote:I'm fucking stupid and no one should operate under any other premise.
kbithecrowing wrote:Welp, I kind of just posted on my ex-girlfriend's facebook and alluded to the fact that I've been trying to avoid her. Even though I still think about her everyday.
Fuck.
Don't be a dumbass and go on the internet with that stuff, drink heavily on your own and try to stay away from the phone like the rest of us.
kbithecrowing wrote:Welp, I kind of just posted on my ex-girlfriend's facebook and alluded to the fact that I've been trying to avoid her. Even though I still think about her everyday.
Fuck.
Yeah, I just spent the evening hanging out with an ex I'm still in love with. I GOTTA STOP TRYING TO BE FRIENDS WITH MY EXES. I also need to stop going out with Mormon women. And I should start drinking, play more guitar, and get my ass out of this distopian town.
I tried to be friendly with my ex for a while. I also spent a lot if time posting "I miss you" songs on Facebook. As my friend once told me: Closure is never talking to them again.
Hey! Let's talk about serious thing. We're gonna talk about guitar, dude.
daseb wrote:sorry dude, I apologise, val kilmer was a great songwriter and truly understood the mystic ways of the native american.
That's how I feel it will have to be with this girl, total lapse in communication. & I feel it would probably be best to move on, but I don't want to let go. It's a really weird feeling.
D.o.S. wrote:I'm fucking stupid and no one should operate under any other premise.