fuck me, but no matter how hard i try i really don't want to be alive at least half the time. i'm tired of being out of work, of having no control over major conditions of my life like where i live, of never ever being held by anyone, and even my cat's penchant for sitting on my laptop is pissing me off, and i hardly ever get pissed at her because she's so sweet and adorable.
In girum imus nocte et consumimur igni
FIFTY YEARS OF SCARING THE CHILDREN 1970-2020--and i'm not done yet
i was so homesick for the life(s) i've had and lost tonight that as my kitty laid on my ribs and purred i quietly said "i don't want this. i want my Buddy back...i don't want you. i want my 'Dinho back...i don't want you. i don't want to be here, i want to go home; if i hadn't failed i'd still be there, and i'd never have met you. i'm sorry." i felt so horrible because she's such a sweet, loving little creature and i do love her very much. but ever since my second wife left me in 1995 life has been empty, and my breakup in 2011 seems to have taken the rest of the heart out of me. it's a damned good thing that i can't drink well, or i'd become pathetic in a big fucking hurry. my life has felt like the last five minutes of The Man Who Fell To Earth for almost twenty years now.
In girum imus nocte et consumimur igni
FIFTY YEARS OF SCARING THE CHILDREN 1970-2020--and i'm not done yet
"i can TRULY understand where each of you little freaks is coming from. i have been inside a Taiwanese midget while she shamed me for my lack of particle physics understanding in street Russian, i have been held down by grandmothers as a mid-op trannie with the penis of a GOD took her pleasure from my behind any way she wanted........ i have BEEN THERE friends.
I HAVE SEEN THINGS."
hell. fucking. YESH.
I Have Seen Things 2016. GIMME.
Eric! wrote:YOU'RE like having two pedals in one
with your...momentary fuck switch and all..