DarkAxel wrote:well two if you really look at it... but whatever. This really doesn't need more dates, not worth it
Just so you know, if I sound as if I'm being a dick it's unintentional. I'm really trying to help (As I've seen peeps who do get attached quickly) but as you're aware, I don't know you, your age, the situation, where you're from... Plus, I'm new here so you could just be venting and I'm bothering you. My apologies if I offended.
nope, no offense at all
Scruffie wrote:
excane wrote:
Scruffie wrote:I feel horribly depressed & suicidal and I don't even know why
?? What's wrong?
I'm overcome with a feeling of dread and every little mistake i've made is running through my head, I wishI could shut my mind off...
shit, happens to all of us... get together with friends or something, they'll make you forget be good, man
I woulda got together with friends but that was 4AM, I depressingly asked a very good friend for a hug the night before, thankfully she let me stay there all night which is probably even more depressing... I ended up drinking straight vodka and taking alot of sleeping pills last night though to make it pass... but i'm back there.
And Ieatcats, I really don't wanna see a counseler, plus I can't afford it any way... I just need someone I can talk to that's a friend who I properly trust, i've been depressed before, just... it's been so long since I last was I feel a little lost.
excane wrote:Mike's is actually pretty refreshing in the summer. I don't like beer and most anything else that isn't straight liquor, but I actually could go for a few hard lemoneeesss now....
*reminder to pick up some semi-homo drinks on the way to the studio*
I don't drink anymore but everytime I drank that during the summer I felt like I needed a gallon of water with it. Not sure why. I don't know if it was the sweetness or what...
Scruffie wrote:I woulda got together with friends but that was 4AM, I depressingly asked a very good friend for a hug the night before, thankfully she let me stay there all night which is probably even more depressing... I ended up drinking straight vodka and taking alot of sleeping pills last night though to make it pass... but i'm back there.
And Ieatcats, I really don't wanna see a counseler, plus I can't afford it any way... I just need someone I can talk to that's a friend who I properly trust, i've been depressed before, just... it's been so long since I last was I feel a little lost.
As I'm sure you're aware... Vodka and sleeping pills are a temporary fix so be careful with that. And... When you don't want to see a counsler is really the best time for you to. Friends mean well but some things are best for professionals.
Scruffie wrote:I woulda got together with friends but that was 4AM, I depressingly asked a very good friend for a hug the night before, thankfully she let me stay there all night which is probably even more depressing... I ended up drinking straight vodka and taking alot of sleeping pills last night though to make it pass... but i'm back there.
And Ieatcats, I really don't wanna see a counseler, plus I can't afford it any way... I just need someone I can talk to that's a friend who I properly trust, i've been depressed before, just... it's been so long since I last was I feel a little lost.
As I'm sure you're aware... Vodka and sleeping pills are a temporary fix so be careful with that. And... When you don't want to see a counsler is really the best time for you to. Friends mean well but some things are best for professionals.
Oh I know, I shouldn't even have these sleeping pills... I also know to be careful, I tested the 'potential side effects' with a couple of days of coma.
I've got through this before alone, i'll do it again, i'm just not enjoying it... and as I said, no can affordy. A constant hug (my friends have no idea really, so they can't even mean well) and a joint is all I need... I can at least sort one of those.
Well... We all deal with things in different ways. If that's what works for you then by all means... Just make sure if it gets too much to handle that you'll at least check into it. Many can work with you on the money part.
Scruffie wrote: I woulda got together with friends but that was 4AM, I depressingly asked a very good friend for a hug the night before, thankfully she let me stay there all night which is probably even more depressing... I ended up drinking straight vodka and taking alot of sleeping pills last night though to make it pass... but i'm back there.
And Ieatcats, I really don't wanna see a counseler, plus I can't afford it any way... I just need someone I can talk to that's a friend who I properly trust, i've been depressed before, just... it's been so long since I last was I feel a little lost.
hard times, man... it's gonna be better though... it always gets better, just hold on
i have a son a bitchin faggot week ahead of me (exams, personal stuff), but with a little luck, i could be so much happier after it... IEatCats knows
there's a continuum between seeing a professional continually and not doing anything in that regard. sometimes one or two sessions, especially with a cognitive therapist who can give you strategies to work with your thought patterns and stuff, can be very helpful. just a thought. it's also possible to get through occasional dark patches on your own, but if it gets to being a continual thing that's interfering with your living a bearable life do something, OK? being stuck in a Real Bad Depression is no way to live. i have the SSRIs and mood stabilizers to prove it.
In girum imus nocte et consumimur igni
FIFTY YEARS OF SCARING THE CHILDREN 1970-2020--and i'm not done yet
dubkitty wrote:there's a continuum between seeing a professional continually and not doing anything in that regard. sometimes one or two sessions, especially with a cognitive therapist who can give you strategies to work with your thought patterns and stuff, can be very helpful. just a thought. it's also possible to get through occasional dark patches on your own, but if it gets to being a continual thing that's interfering with your living a bearable life do something, OK? being stuck in a Real Bad Depression is no way to live. i have the SSRIs and mood stabilizers to prove it.
Word. I just realized I missed a pill last night, because I fell asleep early. (Mine's for anxiety, though.)
I saw a therapist for a while when I was in a really bad place a few months ago. It really helped me to find ways to work out of that same spiraling hopelessness. It's just a suggestion, though. It worked for me, and plenty other people. Just don't overdo the self medication, man. It only helps for so long.
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alcohol is not a great self-medication for depression, either. it tends to make it worse over a period of time, particularly if you don't take breaks. the thing about drinking is that it can make you more agitated because it loosens your conscious and subconscious self-control mechanisms. this isn't in any way a criticism...when it's the tool you have, it's the tool you use. i've had to resort to the several-glasses-of-wine mode of getting to sleep more than once lately myself. i'm just saying that it's not a foundation for a coping strategy over anything but the shortest of terms.
In girum imus nocte et consumimur igni
FIFTY YEARS OF SCARING THE CHILDREN 1970-2020--and i'm not done yet
Alcohol is really fucking bad for you, depression wise. It's a chemical. Increases anxiety. Lowers seratonin. Fosters bad habits.
Don't drink it away. Take it from me. I'm not getting into any sob stories or anything, but don't drink it away. You won't drink it away. You'll just dig yourself deeper into a hole you can't get out of.
so they fucked up my paycheck, meaning they never turned in my time sheet so i won't get paid for another two weeks. 2.47 in my bank account won't last...
words can not describe how pissed off/fucked i am. it's a whole string of bullshit like this that makes me hate my college
Scruffie wrote:excane wrote:Scruffie wrote:I feel horribly depressed & suicidal and I don't even know whybe good, man
