DarkAxel wrote:I don't know what to make of it... could you describe?
The same things - some kind of intense emotion - that would cause a panic attack for my girlfriend set it off, except for me my body becomes very still instead of shaky - to the point where it actually feels like my skin has gotten tighter. And I feel like I'm getting an adrenaline rush, (my heart will be pounding ridiculously hard, and I feel physically stronger) except instead of the euphoric feeling, I just feel kind of cold. As though my emotions have for the most part just switched off. Speaking takes extreme effort. It feels as though I have forgotten how to.
It's hard to describe.
What's odd is that that all sounds like I'd flip out or be out of control or something, but if anything it feels the opposite. I'm very controlled.
It's something that happens very rarely - maybe once or twice a year. When it does I usually just go for a walk, the night air helps.
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friendship wrote:one cool thing about living is that things get worse and worse and worse until you die
For some reason the panic attacks I was having, basically daily, over the past year gradually subsided and I only get them once every few months. It's very strange, at one point they were extremely intense and frequent and then all of a sudden, boom, gone.
DarkAxel wrote:I don't know what to make of it... could you describe?
The same things - some kind of intense emotion - that would cause a panic attack for my girlfriend set it off, except for me my body becomes very still instead of shaky - to the point where it actually feels like my skin has gotten tighter. And I feel like I'm getting an adrenaline rush, (my heart will be pounding ridiculously hard, and I feel physically stronger) except instead of the euphoric feeling, I just feel kind of cold. As though my emotions have for the most part just switched off. Speaking takes extreme effort. It feels as though I have forgotten how to.
It's hard to describe.
What's odd is that that all sounds like I'd flip out or be out of control or something, but if anything it feels the opposite. I'm very controlled.
It's something that happens very rarely - maybe once or twice a year. When it does I usually just go for a walk, the night air helps.
never heard of that to be honest... but i guess you're lucky the emotional part is the worst for me
but i can see how it can feel really weird
theactionindex wrote:Glad to hear you're doing better Senor Axel.
For some reason the panic attacks I was having, basically daily, over the past year gradually subsided and I only get them once every few months. It's very strange, at one point they were extremely intense and frequent and then all of a sudden, boom, gone.
Not sure if I put the input in the wrong side or used a bad power jack, but it don't work('cept the light). Dr. Ken is gonna fix 'er up thought(for a nominal fee, understandably).
Then I shall finally have mastered the power of both octave and fuzz!!! MUHUHHAAHAHAHHA!!!!!
BOOM-SHAKALAKALAKA-BOOM-SHAKALAKUNGA
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snipelfritz wrote:Then I shall finally have mastered the power of both octave and fuzz!!! MUHUHHAAHAHAHHA!!!!!
I am also working on an octave fuzz.. but you know... it gets pretty complicated... I'll have to redo a few parts but I think I will be able to prototype it by next week
smoked with some people from my floor last night which i thought would be awesome but it sucked. they were annoying as fuck and i also felt bad for trying to leave them. );
mathias wrote:I heard that Tom Dalton read a book on how to grow online communities around your business. But he thought it was too much work so he just created a forum full of alts. You and I are the only real people.
you know how i wrote before that my grandpa is in hospital? i just found out he died two hours ago
it hurts even more because he and grandma were the only part of my family that kinda understood me and i liked them the most... i'm worried for grandma
DarkAxel wrote:you know how i wrote before that my grandpa is in hospital? i just found out he died two hours ago
it hurts even more because he and grandma were the only part of my family that kinda understood me and i liked them the most... i'm worried for grandma
That's terrible. I'm very sorry for your loss.
Even when things hurt, remember that the best way to remember him is to live your life well, and be happy.
D.o.S. wrote:You're like a walking Mad Men episode.
BitchPudding wrote:DO WHAT MUST BE DONE, LORD JFREY.
friendship wrote:one cool thing about living is that things get worse and worse and worse until you die
DarkAxel wrote:you know how i wrote before that my grandpa is in hospital? i just found out he died two hours ago
it hurts even more because he and grandma were the only part of my family that kinda understood me and i liked them the most... i'm worried for grandma
I'm so sorry. I never really got along with my grandfather that well, but my great uncle, who was 100% czech btw, was like a grandfather to me, and he passed away just over a year ago. He was one of the only people in my family that got me because he was artistic and I miss him. It was rough. My thoughts go out to you and your family
