The Confessions Thread

[Sparrow]

That makes a lot more sense, haha! I was just super confused and wanted to understand what you were trying to say.

i posted my response very fast .. without self editing.

so. that doesn't help.

[Jwar]

You guys are awesome! I think I'm going to be ok. It just is a difficult thing you know? Like I'm super fit now, but I got into the habit of taking things like Kratom and smoking weed to escape. That's where the trouble comes in. I do it so I don't have to deal with reality anymore. So for me it's a very, very negative thing and effects me in a bad way. I make really dumb decisions under the influence. It's bad enough I have to take pills to keep my brain from being crazy. hahaha.

I'm so glad I didn't drink, as weird as it sounds, I don't consider this a full on relapse of sobriety as a relapse of judgement. At least for me. I was never addicted to marijuana, I smoked, but like cigarettes, I could give it up very easily. I just don't like being high. I mean I do, but not enough to let it cost me what it cost me.

I'll give you a for instance. I buy pedals when I'm high even though I don't have money for them. I purchased the wrong cases and ran a Facebook ad to sell them and found out afterwards I ordered the wrong cases! I was high when I ordered them!! I couldn't think straight.

I also, noticed while working, it's affected my ability to measure things or to even function. It sucks.

So it's not worth it for me. I'm done.

For full discretion, I used to do pills, was addicted to cocaine and crank, also did a metric fuck ton of acid, ectasy, and I did smoke heroin on occasion. Guess what I did the most? Opium. I was a full blown opium addict. In a really, really bad way.

That was over a decade ago, thank God.

But I don't ever want to go there again.

I was homeless at one point because of my addictions.

Thanks again for all your support! You guys are the best and it's true the opiates were probably the reason I've been so edgy the last several months even though I want to blame it on my diet.

[Sparrow]

you know i really like yer pedalboard and bonerz .. right?
and. your dedication to fitness is pretty Great.

[KaosCill8r]

Hey Jwar, be strong dude. You can do it no worries. And you look much stronger than me. I been through all the nasty shit myself and yeah it's no fun to be enslaved to all that shit. If you need to talk to someone about it, don't hesitate to shoot me a PM. Due to the time difference I might not reply straight away, but I will reply asap.

[D.o.S.]

You guys are awesome! I think I'm going to be ok. It just is a difficult thing you know? Like I'm super fit now, but I got into the habit of taking things like Kratom and smoking weed to escape. That's where the trouble comes in. I do it so I don't have to deal with reality anymore. So for me it's a very, very negative thing and effects me in a bad way. I make really dumb decisions under the influence.

OK well I'm still keeping the misty cave so there.

[Jwar]

You guys are awesome! I think I'm going to be ok. It just is a difficult thing you know? Like I'm super fit now, but I got into the habit of taking things like Kratom and smoking weed to escape. That's where the trouble comes in. I do it so I don't have to deal with reality anymore. So for me it's a very, very negative thing and effects me in a bad way. I make really dumb decisions under the influence.

OK well I'm still keeping the misty cave so there.

Nah that's cool! LOL! I paid off debt with that sale! Wait...no I didn't!! I bought a Toneczar Vault!!!

See....500 dollar pedal!!!!!! FUCK.

[UglyCasanova]

No matter what happens in the future, be sure to know in your heart that we're here to buy all of your awesome pedals from you.

NSFW: show

[snipelfritz]

I'm in love with Kait Parker on The Weather Channel and I want to give her many, many kisses.

[Jero]

I'm in love with Kait Parker on The Weather Channel and I want to give her many, many kisses.

I can see why

[Iommic Pope]

Even after all these years of loathing the goth community in Brisbane for being so lame, I'm still a sucker for a cute goth girl.
Lame, old man.
Lame.

[Achtane]

Even after all these years of loathing the goth community in Brisbane for being so lame, I'm still a sucker for a cute goth girl.
Lame, old man.
Lame.

It's fine.
I start crushing on pretty much any girl with tattoos + piercings + dyed hair.
Aw man when somebody has a row of earrings, hnnnngggggggg...

[ShaunNecro]

Even after all these years of loathing the goth community in Brisbane for being so lame, I'm still a sucker for a cute goth girl.
Lame, old man.
Lame.

It's fine.
I start crushing on pretty much any girl with tattoos + piercings + dyed hair.
Aw man when somebody has a row of earrings, hnnnngggggggg...

I ain't gonna lie, I'm weak for those kinda girls too.

[snipelfritz]

I'm always surprised when people imply being into goth (or whatever you want to call it these days) girls is weird.

Gauges I can probably do without, but I'll avoid calling it an outright boner killer.

[Iommic Pope]

Even after all these years of loathing the goth community in Brisbane for being so lame, I'm still a sucker for a cute goth girl.
Lame, old man.
Lame.

It's fine.
I start crushing on pretty much any girl with tattoos + piercings + dyed hair.
Aw man when somebody has a row of earrings, hnnnngggggggg...

I ain't gonna lie, I'm weak for those kinda girls too.

Yeah I dunno what it is. I think it's just rad to see a woman that hasn't been suckered into traditional ideas and constructs of femininity (not that alt cultures haven't been co-opted lately by mainstream culture), which implies she has a brain. Brains are sexy.
There's a degree of attitude there as well, which I also find sexy.

Also snipel, was in no way calling those girls weird.
My statement was more about the subculture in my town. Like everything else in my town, it's pretty fucking lame.
You should've seen it when everyone was "hardcore". Fucking Picard everywhere all the time.

[Jero]

Gauges I can probably do without, but I'll avoid calling it an outright boner killer.

It's funny when hers are larger than mine