UglyCasanova wrote:Sounds like it was for the best. I'm all for supporting and helping the person you love. But there is a limit to that, especially if all you get in return is more trouble or blame. It seems like she crossed that line a long, long time ago. I'm glad to hear you enjoying stuff again. If something or someone gets in the way of you enjoying the "small things", something's just wrong.
My ex was raped before we got together, so I know a little about living with someone who's constantly in a state of panic. It's not easy, at all. She almost stabbed me on three occations because she needed to keep a knife under her pillow at night. If I woke up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom, I had to make sure to slowly get hold of the knife and wake her up ever so gently so she wouldn't have a panic attack. I simply had to. The three times I forgot in a haze of sleepiness and just went to the bathroom were the times I almost got fucking stabbed. Girl was hiding behind the door when I walked into the room and jumped at me with the knife in hand, having either completely forgotten that I was there or had created in her head a situation where I had been murdered by an intruder who was going to rape her. Hard to live with someone who's that unstable and scared, no matter how understandable her situation might be. We split for other reasons, but I was on the edge of leaving her because of the whole stabby-stabby deal a few times.
Anyways. Ramble. I'm glad you're feeling better.
phantasmagorovich wrote::hug: indeed!
thanks SO much Buds i Do feel better. i have vented a lot this week. and i feel good .. because it was all Honest and overdue. Nova. that sounds very terrifying. sorry you had to go through that. glad you moved on. Safe. i dated a girl that - was Raped herself. she was very open. and Strong about it. We all need be aware. and look out for each other. the more we can understand and Deal with Trauma - the Better.
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Iommic Pope wrote:Once again, I'm having that compulsion to sell all my shit and start playing bass.
Keep your guitar rig, save up for a bass rig and play both. Works for me. But if you really want the win get a cheap drum kit too. having a foot in each camp is so creative.
Can't seperate from another Iceman in order to fund a bass.
Can't rectify this dilemma.
Edit: Don't even get me started on drums....
RABBITHOLES EVERYWHERE.
Just save up some cash man, you really NEED both. I'm considering getting g a guitar to learn, just because I basically have an amazing guitar rig if I eq it differently.
When my wife goes to work on Wednesday, she leaves the TV on VH1 classic. At some point it becomes "That Metal Show" and I want to punch my face repeatedly. It is the only show that can add 20 years to your age via osmosis.
I think it's making my hair go grey after 5 minutes of indirect contact.
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"I make you chocolate"
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having a foot in each camp is so creative.
it's like that hey? I'm like that with most of my in laws. Just get the missus to get it back. 
