BitchPudding wrote:Had a massive panic attack on Tuesday, closest I've been to having my fiancee call 911. I'm starting to scare myself with how bad this is getting. I can't handle any stress without it immediately putting me on a cliff mentally.
I'm gonna try to get help this week. Pray for me. Or don't. Sacrifice an animal? idk.
Damn dude, I’ll do my version of praying for you which is just genuinely wishing you the best and keeping you in my thoughts.
My GF had the same this Monday, which is why I’m in this thread. She called to say good bye and I was on the phone with her for hours. Ended up taking the flight down to her (in Germany) the next day and it seems to go a little better now. I want her to get professional help tho as i can’t do anything really.
Simultaneously, my moms cancer is mostly good news, the surgery went well and all, but they upgraded what they found to a whatever stage cancer that is apparently really aggressive, so she has to go through chemo now and while she has a lot of other support I feel like a pretty crucial support pillar to her right now. I’m doing fine, but I feel like such important people depend on me with their life right now I don’t really know how to deal with it.
Also, I’m making a documentary with a friend rn (I’ll post about this in another thread soon) which is really fun but it eats up paid-job-time, as well as actual money. Which again, hinders my ability to support the people who need me.
Sorry, I just don’t know where I can complain about this because I’m so set on keeping up the appearance of strength for everyone else