Achtane wrote:That blows dude. But yay! Did it damage anything besides the body?
basically, the drivers side corner of the truck got tore up. So the lights are fucked on that side and theres hole, but our mechanic says he can fix it.
Situation finally resolved today tho. We got in touch with their insurance today, they said we're at fault and they're not gonna pay for shit. Which honestly, the repair is gonna be cheap so it doesnt really matter to us anymore. So thats that.
Now I'm dealing with the usual thoughts of inadequacy that bounce through my head plus bad parenting shit.
Basically, my kid was lying down right where I needed to walk. Didn't see him, got mad and yelled, he got upset, MissPudding got upset, and I couldn't handle it. So I ran out to my outdoor studio and thats where I am now sobbing my eyes out.
I just wish I wasn't like this. So irritable, so angry, so sad. I just wanna curl up into a ball and disappear.
I feel more and more everyday like I wasn't ment for this life. I dunno if its society, my brain or what, but something just doesn't feel compatible with me existing. I feel like an anomaly in my own skin.
The only thing thats ever made sense is playing music. The only thing thats never hurt me is playing music. At the end of the day, thats really all I have I guess.