nieh wrote:About 4 years ago I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, for about 2 years I was on medication for it, but it just made me feel like a zombie. No good days, no bad days, just flat. I stopped seeing my psychologist and therapist and decided to deal with it on my own. For a couple years it was fine, and I was able to recognize my good and bad days, but the past few months have been pretty terrible. I'm used to dealing with mood swings, but these months have been different. My mood swings are becoming more frequent and a lot more intense. What makes it worse is I haven't told anyone. I don't feel like I can talk about it with anyone, even though I know it's taking a toll on people close to me. Me and my girlfriend will have the best couple of days ever, and the next morning I don't want to talk to, spend time with, or even be touched by anyone including her. I want to to tell her and explain how I've been feeling, but I just can't bring myself to do it.
Speaking as somebody with a lot of people in my life who are bi polar or suffer from depression -- it's nice to know because then you can say, "I'm having a tough day. It's not your fault. I just want to sit her a little while. Or I just want to be hugged. Or not hugged."
It's ultimately your bridge to cross. If you girlfriend is very understanding then this may be easy for her. If she's not thick skinned then it may become a battle of her thinking you should get back on your medication.
Good luck.